A Sister's Sorrow.
I wrote this when the world turned its back on the women in Afghanistan! I was so angry, a rage consumed me but it was an impotent gut-wrenching emotion. I had no money, no army to send to their rescue! In its place I invented a protector, a saviour and in my fertile imagination I saw her flashing in and out amongst the rabid creatures that hide behind the words of some deity that could not possibly exist and destroy them, one by one.
Enjoy but please remember what is happening in a part of the world that has become a forlorn graveyard for those that have done nothing wrong but have simply been born with the ability to bring forth life.
It was, for September, far too fucking hot! Not even the fired up air-conditioner was doing much to relieve the unseasonable heat and humidity. I knew that by the afternoon the black clouds would roll in and more than likely a huge storm would hit. I was already trembling in my boots. I hated storms. I hated them because they made me afraid. Even more than being afraid things came out of storms that haunted me with their after images when the lightning lit up the black sky and their voices boomed in my head as the thunder rumbled through the thick clouds.
My mother said I was insane and imagining it but Dad had known. He would hold me tight and tell me that he wouldn't let them come and claim me. He would stop them touching his little princess and I would snuggle deep into his wide muscular chest with my eyes closed tightly and hold my hands over my ears to stop them talking to me.
He had died protecting me. Oh, they tried to tell me that it was not my fault. Even tried to tell me that it could have happened at any time. They were wrong. They weren't there when the brightly flaring and angry demon struck him down with its wickedly sharp and curved blade. They didn't see it thrust it through Daddy's back and stab it into his heart. They didn't hear the voices telling me that now that he was gone that they would possess my body and fuck me until I became theirs forever. I was 13 and just beginning to realise that I was a woman and that a man like my father could be mine with just a glimpse of long leg, the hint of roundness of my swelling breasts or the flicker of a tongue over my full parted lips.
However, that was the rumbling voices of the storms telling me how wicked I could have been. I was not like that. I was shy. I was innocent. My Daddy never saw any part of his precious princess that anyone, including my brothers, could not have seen at any time when I walked to school or as I was now, cleaning my own home.
At 26 I was still single. I was a school teacher and, still very much a virgin. I had kissed men but each time some of them wanted to go any further I would shut them down. They had tried to cup my full breasts, slide their thigh between my long legs and press my pussy against their legs but I wanted nothing to do with them. I would push away. Sometimes I laughed and we pretended it was just a bit of horseplay but other times they saw in my eyes the anger that they caused. Many of them never tried it a second time.
Why was I so protective of my body? I wanted only to give it up to the man I loved without conditions. One that I was totally happy to be me and have no masks, no barriers and definitely no thoughts that they would ever leave me. Daddy was that man but he was taken from me before I could even tell him that I loved him like no daughter should. When I had stared into his eyes when the demon killed him I think he understood. His eyes had twinkled and he had smiled at me before the light died and he sagged limply against me in the darkness of my bedroom floor where we had been hiding.
When I was finally found by my brothers, my mother had run off with another woman after her third son was born, they had had to get the doctors to give me a relaxant to get my fingers to release his hands from mine and to unlock my legs from around his thigh. I had been placed in a care facility for nearly a month until a psychiatrist had decided that I was recovered enough to go home.
Home, unfortunately, was where I least wanted to go. I was the oldest child and somehow that meant that I had to look after my siblings. Three boys with the oldest one 5 years younger than me. I wasn't even that cheered that I would not be going back to my old home but to my father's parents' home some 500 kilometres to the North West and ten thousand kilometres from anyone that might have given a damn about me!
Daddy's ghost came to see me as I lay in his old bed. My Grandfather had kindly asked me if that was okay as he showed me the room. I had nodded woodenly and then told him that it would be the safest place for me. He didn't understand but he did leave me in peace to unpack my belongings and let me explore a piece of the history of the only man I had ever loved.
I could sense the storm. It was a long way away but I could hear the voices. They were murmuring in my head. My hand was creeping down the length of my nightie and underneath to advance on my soft cotton panties. I had just about found the soft elastic side of them with the tips of my fingers in preparation for my hot digits to begin rubbing my wet pussy lips when Daddy kissed me on the forehead and told me to stop.
"They want me to, Daddy," I whispered. "They want me to touch myself and give them the opening they need to take me."
"Not tonight, not ever, Princess," he said with a small chuckle as he snuggled down into the blankets with me and turned me over to face him. He slid his leg up and protected my pussy, the same as he always did and held my little hands in one of his big ones and pressed it to his chest. I lay my head against his warm hand and kissed the back of his knuckles as his other arm reached around my back and pulled me in tight. I felt his big warm hand drop down a little and open wide to protect my little bottom.
The storm hit full force in the middle of the night but I did not hear it nor see it. I lay in the safety of my Daddy and nothing the dancing sky demons with their swords and their spears could do would harm me. I was safe.
I thrived in the country town and grew curves, bigger tits, rounded arse and my dark hair rippled down my back like waves falling over a waterfall. I got taller until I could see eye to eye with my 6 foot tall grandfather. Not that Granddad and I saw eye to eye on anything. He wanted me to go out with the local boys and girls to parties and to have fun. I wanted to stay home and study my books and feel the presence of my father in his old bed.
He wanted me to stop foolishly considering my education and consider whom I might like to marry and have a family with. On that he and his wife were adamant. They even threatened to stop paying for my books and uniforms until something very frightening happened to them one night and the subject of my forgetting school and looking for a man to marry was never broached again.