Preface: It is helpful to read "Only because there's still blood on the blade" in my other writing.
My boots were silent as I glided across the damp grass. I walked between the rows of headstones, hearing the voices from beneath the surface of the earth. The dead have a lot more to say that most of the living. They don't mind me being here, trampling through their resting places, because they realize I'm stuck somewhere between where they are and where they once were. I had been here a few times over the past month or two, so I knew exactly where I was going, and I was no stranger to any of these "people".
I finally came across her headstone. I knelt down so I would be much closer to her. She was silent. She never had to talk with me anyway. She could look at me and everything that needed to be said between the two of us would happen almost instantaneously. She knew I was there, and she knew I had put her in this place. I knew there would be no more looks of 'Help me' or 'I'm yours", but I could feel her blank stare. I had always been waiting for her to ask why. She never did, because she knew.
I noticed Death watching me from fifty or so yards away. One would figure that he'd have something better to do with the billions left on this shit hole planet, but he doesn't. Not now, not while I'm around. Not while I'm on his turf. Then again, what could he do? Kill me? He's not happy with me, especially since we struck our pact. It's billions to one, Death, you're still ahead. I suppose that's why he lets me continue on my path. She's with him now, anyway. He knows it, and the motherfucker rubs it in whenever I am graced with his presence.
Looking back toward the gravesite, the headstone has JESSICA spelled out in bold block letters, and under that her last birth name among the dates and something else I never bothered to look at. Jessica, I didn't kill a Jessica. I reached into my coat and pulled out a matchbook from the club I had been to a few weeks before. "Scarlette's" was written on the front of the matchbook, on the back was a phone number and some cheesy slogan to get men to go view their talent-less, naked whores. I ended up in this place with the girl who was supposed to be filling the gaping whole that she had left. Scarlette, how she lived, how she died...face down in a pool of her own blood. I pulled a cigar from the pocket and lit it with one of the matches.