Dear readers! This is my first submission of what I have envisioned as a multi-chaptered epic fantasy! No smut at first here, but plenty to come! Also, this is the story of a journey, and not all of it is happy and sexy! Any feedback is appreciated, good and bad. I'm also in the market for a RELIABLE editor! Cheers - Favored
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I lay in the grass bleeding out. Past experiences led me to know with certainty that I was dying. I'd seen this same wound a few times before, and all three patients walked out of the hospital only a few days later. Getting to the ER quickly was key, as well as the application of a tourniquet and staunching the flow of blood. There were no Emergency Rooms in this place, I knew that for certain. There was no gauze, no IV bags of Lactated Ringers Solution, no attending Physician, no stitches, only me bleeding arterial blood till my brain ran out of oxygen and I slipped into a coma followed shortly by death. My head swam and my senses reeled. I remember pondering that this must be what people felt like when they were dying. A sense of calm overwhelmed me, and the pain from my wounds lessened. I felt the dew on the grass seeping into my shirt, the cool evening air making it glisten here and there as the sun set. I remember the pungent smell of blood mixing in with the earthy, musty aromas of the glade around me. I heard the weeping of the woman who crouched over me, her sweet smelling hair caressing my face and neck. I felt that I loved her.
We had met mere weeks ago, this exotic beauty and myself. And yet, I felt a strange mix of emotions towards this woman, most of which had to do with complete trust, love, and utter devotion. Feelings I knew were returned in kind. I almost laughed as I felt my consciousness fading. I guess that must be how two people felt when they knew they were the only two humans on the planet.
Perhaps I should back it up a little. My name is Josh, and for the longest time, I hated my life.
Groggily I sat up, clearing my eyes of sleep and freeing my tongue of the quicksand that was my mouth. Trying desperately to find moisture I smacked my mouth a few times, the vapors of booze and cigarettes making their way up through my abused lungs and throat. What a night that had been. I usually don't black out when I drink, but these past few weeks, or months, I've been getting somewhat carried away. When you have this much to forget, knowing your limit kinda goes out with the other garbage. It had been four years since she had left me, and after the first year, two therapists and ten grand out of pocket, I found that numbing everything with booze and women was much cheaper and ultimately more fun. At least the nightmares were fewer. I just wished that I didn't wake up feeling the same way every morning after; dreading life.
I sat on the edge of my bed blearily trying to remember the events after I had left O'Flannigans, the pub I frequented with some of my drinking chums. I thought that there had been a girl under my arm. Scratching my head and looking around with one eye squinting, I noticed the smaller form laying on the other side of my bed, wrapped up in my sheets, and snoring very softly. A shapely leg had managed to find its way out of the cotton sheets and I saw a mess of blonde hair strewn across the other pillow. So there
had
been a girl. '
Cool
.' I shrugged to myself. Now how do I get rid of her without the usual bull shit? First there is breakfast, then starts the questions and 'Can I call you?' and 'This was fun, let's do it again'...and blah blah blah - get the fuck out.
It's not that I hate women. On the contrary, I LOVE women. I glanced at the sleeping minx next to me in bed and the litter of condom wrappers on the floor. Obviously I like women. I just can't trust them for shit. She'd ruined that for me. Not for the first time, I ground my teeth in anger and betrayal. I balled up my fist and ground it into my temple. Why couldn't I just forget!? Why do these memories have to plague me like this? She had been a blonde as well. The smell of her hair was more intoxicating than any drink I'd ever had. The feel of her neck as she leaned her head aside for me to kiss when I swept her up in my arms. The way she cradled her stomach when she was in her second trimester and was fully showing. The serenity in her eyes as she held our baby girl. And then she'd left me. Alone.
A single tear slid down my face. Four years wasn't enough time to forget. There was no amount of time long enough for me to forget. Or forgive.
The woman next to me stirred and I quickly wiped the tear from my face and stood up.
"Morning, handsome," came the inevitable sultry greeting from this most recent bar fly. "How's about a cup of coffee?" I heard the sheets being thrown back and I felt small smooth hands sliding around my waist caressing my abdomen with promises of more. I grabbed her hands and moved them aside as I stepped from the bed and into the bathroom.
"I'm gonna take a shower. Coffee and all that shit is in the Kitchen. Help yourself." In three steps I was in the bathroom and had the door shut before she could respond. '
Do us both a favor and leave before I'm out
.' I thought, looking to the ceiling for answers.
Showered and dressed I made my way into the kitchen. Apparently this one was not psychic either because she sat in my button-up shirt from the previous evening, sipping a cup of coffee and eyeing me as if I was just the pastry to go with it. She appraised me in my work uniform and her eyes went up.
"Are you a Doctor? Oh my gawd! How hot are you right now in your scrubs!?" I rolled my eyes as I grabbed a mug from the cabinet.
"I'm a nurse actually." I murmured, and reached for the tea bags. As I made my tea and rummaged for breakfast, she chatted away about inane things. It was then, as this chick droned on and on about the free healthcare advice and female exams she wanted me to give her, I noticed something new about my wrist. Apparently it had been an epic evening, because I had went and got a tattoo! Around my wrist was a very intricate design, not unlike tribal tattoos, but this was much more intricate and tasteful I decided. There were parts that actually looked like letters or runes. Shrugging, I finished making my toast then turned and cut her off mid-sentence.
"This was fun, let's do it again sometime. I'll call you." I guess my delivery was slightly too monotone and robotic for her liking. Or maybe it was the way I stressed that I would call
her
, not the other way around. Three years, maybe it's time for some new material for 'lettin' em down easy.' I mused as she called me some names, swept up her stuff, dressed, and stormed out. I stared after her for several moments. She had been nice, actually. I'm sure if I cared to remember, the sex had probably been pretty good too. If only I had the capacity to care.
I sat down at the table and noticed the mail. She
had
been nice. She'd even gotten my mail for me. She deserved better. Numbly I combed through the pile. Sighing, I opened a few and nodded painfully, a headache slowly building at the base of my skull. Past due, past due, disconnection notice, collections, collections, Final notice. I was a popular man amongst the creditors. I was surprised I still had my car. Such that it was, the pile of crap barely ran anymore. What can I say, being an alcoholic can be expensive...
I locked up my apartment as I left for work. More out of habit than actually caring if someone decided to steal my shitty stuff. I walked down the hallway to the rear exit where I hoped my car was parked. Sometimes I made it all the way home, sometimes I parked it in the grass across the street. Taxis were for pussies. I was almost to the door when someone called my name. I turned to see the super walking my way with a dour expression.