Warning: This story contains elements of futanari (girl with a penis) on female. All characters involved are at least 18 years old.
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It was a couple of hours later when she walked over to me. I'd just been staring out at the ocean, lost in thought. I felt hollow and light, empty of emotion but with less of a burden. It had been a long time since I'd talked to anyone about my past and my decisions, and I was surprised at how it had helped. And I was starting to feel the first bit of relief, of hope. Surely, she'd see my point and protect herself. She sat down next to me, and we just sat for a minute. Then she cleared her throat. And shattered my hope.
"Do you want to have sex?"
I stared at her. Her voice was confident and clear, and the words weren't what I expected to hear. I scrambled. "I... Refill, I told you. I don't want-"
She cut me off. "I remember." Her voice softened. "And I appreciate it. But that's not what I'm asking you now." She paused a beat. "You told me why sex is a bad idea. You didn't tell me if you wanted it or not."
I felt like I was floundering. Because the answer, of course, was yes. Refill was beautiful, intelligent, and she'd believed me. She'd trusted me, kept me alive. She was easy and fun to talk to. And she had a really nice cock. Blowing her was enough to get my motor running, so that was a go on the physical side too. But I couldn't let her do this. I was still searching for the right word when she gave a sigh and continued.
"I read a lot of books. And there's this real common thing that drives me insane. Makes me want to reach in and smack the characters when they do it." Her voice was quiet. "They decide they know what's best for someone else. And in order to save or protect them, they sacrifice themselves, or they pull the
it's for your own good
bullshit. Like that someone else is a child, who's incapable of making rational decisions."
I started to object, "I don't!..." but then trailed off. Because, at least to some extent, I had been. After a minute, she continued.
"I get what you're doing. Like I said, I appreciate it. It's very heroic of you." Her voice was wry, and I flushed at the last. "But I'm an adult, right? Younger than you, but I can make my own decisions. Especially when someone's pointed out the consequences?"
I stared at her, like a rabbit caught in the headlights of her logic. I could see the trap approaching, but no way around it, and my voice was a whisper. "...yes."
She nodded at me. "Thank you. And so," and she took a deep breath, and enunciated each word carefully, "Do you want to have sex?"
I closed my eyes as my mind whirled. I wanted to say no, to keep her from making this mistake. I had the feeling that she would know I was lying, but she'd take me at my word. And yet... she was right. It was her choice. Her life. And I wanted her to touch me, to make love to me. Even if I couldn't come, it would scratch that itch. I sat frozen, torn between the two paths, between fear and desire. She waited patiently as I struggled, trying to somehow weigh the two and do what was right. And eventually I reached my decision.
I felt oddly calm as I opened my eyes and looked over at her. For a moment she took my breath away, nude on the beach, and I just drank her in with my eyes and my senses. But I owed her an answer, even if I hated saying it. My voice was a whisper, but I knew it would reach her ears.
"Yes."
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I've been kissed quite a few times. Sometimes it was awkward. Sometimes it was hot. Sometimes it was careful and fragile, sometimes it was mad and passionate, sometimes it managed to be all of that combined. Sex is occasionally contradictory like that. I'd never rated them, or kept a "top 5" kiss list or anything. But I do know one thing.
Refill's kiss blew all the previous ones away.
It wasn't with technical ability. Not to say that she was bad - this obviously wasn't her first tongue rodeo - but I knew one villainess who
literally
considering seduction a science, and Refill isn't quite in her league. No, Refill's kiss won with sheer passion.
It felt like she was pouring her desire straight into my mouth, a tidal wave of wants and lusts and needs. She swept away my defenses, rendering me speechless and driving my internal monologue to new poetic heights. (I know that sounds like a joke, but no, really. She did). Her heavy breasts pressed into me, her nipples hard nubs rubbing into my skin.