Chapter 5 - The Better to Taste You With, My Dear
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Max's dreams were wild that night. He dreamt he was a full dog. He saw himself as a German Shepard, running around a field on all fours. He could feel the tall grass against his fur as he ran up and down the hills and valleys. The sweet smell of flowers and earthy scent of mud were strong in his nose. He felt powerful on his strong hind and forelegs as he sped around, feeling like he had been in that position all his life. He was happy, free, liberated as a dog. The warm sun beat against his shimmering fur. It was the most care-free he had felt in a long time.
Something new appeared in the dream, a red ball flying overhead. He followed its arcing trajectory as it soared into the air and landed far on the horizon. An innate urge to find the ball took over him, an instinct he didn't have to think about. He knew he just had to find it. Tearing through the grass, he searched, following the scent and looking for anything round.
Eventually, he found it and realised his new quest was to return it to someone. He grasped it in his mouth, feeling the squeeze toy against his sharp teeth. He turned, running and searching for the person he needed to return it to. Who was it he was looking for? Why did the ball have to be returned to them? Thoughts ran through his mind, but all he knew was that it was the right thing to do.
He crested a hill and saw who had thrown the ball. It was his owner. His owner? How did he have an owner? Of course, he was a dog, and dogs belonged to humans. They owned them. It was natural. And his owner was standing in the distance. He felt a deep longing to run to him; to return to his owner's side. But when had he become owned? And why did it feel good to think of himself as owned? He trotted forward. He didn't know the answers to the questions, but all he knew was that looking at his owner gave him happiness, and with every step forward he knew he was moving closer to where he belonged.
As his owner came into view, his face came into focus, and he saw that it was Thiago. Thiago? Max was confused. But wasn't he his boyfriend? No, of course not, dogs didn't have boyfriends. Only humans did. And Max wasn't a human, he was a dog, therefore Thiago was his owner, and he was his pet. He belonged to Thiago. It felt correct as he came to the conclusion in his head, the fit was perfect, as if they had always been like that -- human and dog, owner and pet.
Max dropped the ball at Thiago's feet as his owner threw his arms around him. He was safe and warm in his human's arms. That was where he belonged, on all fours as his owner stood above him, hugging him and petting his head and back, his fur felt amazing being rubbed. His tongue lolled as he continued to enjoy the affection. He had never been so elated.
Max continued to enjoy the ecstasy of his dream as he stirred awake. Dim early morning light came through the slats of the blinds. He saw Thiago asleep next to him -- sweet looking as he dozed peacefully. The reality of the situation dawned on Max. He had been so overjoyed in the dream, seeing his boyfriend as his owner. What was happening to him? He was thinking of himself as more and more of a dog and less of a person. The dream had been a clear indicator of that. Were they showing an inner desire to become a dog? To become a pet? To become owned? He didn't want to lose himself, but he couldn't argue about how good the dream had felt, to be a dog and forget all his worries and responsibilities, and maybe, conversely, becoming a dog was a way of finding himself? Was he always meant to be a dog? He didn't want to overthink things and rationalise his thoughts into one direction or another -- giving into becoming a dog or struggling to stay human?
He knew his inner thoughts sounded insane so he shook his head and concentrated on the here and now, being with his boyfriend, not owner, Thiago. The more he said it, the more he returned to that reality and moved away from the dream.
He could feel that the elation from being close to Thiago in the dream had made him hard -- his cock was rock solid. Looking at Thiago sleeping next to him was also making him quite horny. He knew his boyfriend didn't want to have sex while he was part dog, which was fair enough, but his newfound libido and senses were making it quite difficult.
"Obviously, I'm not going to fuck him, but maybe I could just enjoy his scent?" Max concluded in his head. He got up on all fours and crawled over to Thiago, sniffing his body. His boyfriend's musk and sweat were like heaven. He smelled along his face and neck, his boyfriend's beard tickling his nose. He couldn't help but lick the skin, his tongue lolling out. It tasted amazing.