"Oh Gods! What have I done?!"
The words croaked out from Jasha's lips as he tried unsuccessfully to raise himself to his elbow. His pillow had a remarkable amount of blood on it, and he felt his nostrils caked with the same.
Think man, think! Put it all in order.
Well, I went to The Rising Moon. Horrible place. A redhead getting anal. Emerald...Emerald.
He closed his eyes and breathed. It felt like he'd been pushed through a brick wall.
A drunk was going to hit her, yes. I Commanded him outside, and...
"Ohhhhh," I shapeless groan burst from him as he tried to put himself back together.
I used a combustion spell, and I invoked Adβ
"Ahhhh!!" β
I invoked a Word. Then I used my Gleecoin to buy Emerald. Oh fuck. And I dug out one of my stashes.
He reached down slowly to his belt, his fingers finding the pouch and confirming its contents.
Well, that's a relief. But
three
diamonds for a room?! Gods.
He pried his eyes open again. This time, with a great effort, he not only managed to get to his hands and knees, but out of bed completely. He swayed his way over to stand directly before the mirror.
His top lip was crusted with dry blood, his eyes sunken and bruised.
"I am never using that Word again," he said to his reflection, unwittingly repeating the same promise from last night.
There was a terrible weight on Jasha's mind. Some of it was for the man he'd obliterated β he'd only ever killed a handful of men in his time β but most of it was for Emerald. He'd only ever planned to have a night or two with her and then they'd both go on their way.
He thought of the way she'd looked at him last night, the way she'd kissed him.
"Just couldn't help yourself, could you?" He asked his scowling reflection.
"What a mess."
It was past midday, and he spent the next five hours shuffling about, doing small, uncomplicated things. He ate and drank and felt a bit better. He slept for another while.
At seven o'clock he was sitting on the edge of his bed, head in hands, wondering what to do. His reflection in the mirror looked much better than when he'd first arisen, but it was still nothing to be proud of.
He took a deep breath.
Alright. Time to sort this out.
*
Jasha was not in the best of shapes when he arrived in Emerald's room. She was looking wide-eyed at the door, which must have seemed to have opened on its own. He let the invisibility dissipate.
At first the shock turned into a brilliant smile, but then into concern. Jasha shut the door behind him.
"What happened to you?" She asked, gliding over to him, running her fingers down his cheek. He smiled tiredly, still out of breath.
Well, you see, in the course of killing one of your customers I used this word that knocked my brain straight out of my head. That's why I went to all this trouble for you last night. Completely out of my head, see?
"Wizard business."
She frowned at him, and shook her head slightly, then wrapped her arms around him.
"Well, I'm glad you're here now."
She smelled wonderful, and her hair and skin was soft against him. He closed his eyes and sighed. She spoke into his neck.
"I wish you wouldn't always leave me."
"Well, about that..." he began. She pulled back and looked him straight in the eye. Her irises were almost luminously blue.
"I'm actually living on borrowed time. I never meant to get so involved with you."
She tightened her grip on him.
"I mean, you're a wonderful woman. You're beautiful. But I just can't do this."
"No."
Her answer was simple and sure, and he couldn't break free of her gaze.
"You can have whatever you want from me, but you can't leave me."
Jasha looked at her and sighed.
"I'll see," he said, turning away.
"No," she said again, reaching up and taking a surprisingly hard grip on his chin, turning his face back to her. "Promise me. You can be away for however long you want, but you'll keep coming back. Promise."
Fuck.
"Well, uh..."
"Promise!"
Jasha took a deep breath. "Okay."
Jasha-boy, you just don't get it, do you?