Emily
After I gave birth to my son Jacob, suddenly I felt I did not belong here. I had always missed the smell of ocean and tropical climate when I first visited Hara. For the first time ever I could just wear my bikini. It was freeing. I was not being ungrateful though. The Garden was nice, beautiful, warm, however it was not Hara. Sure I could wear bikini, even being naked was permitted here, but the atmosphere was very different.
My thought of leaving the Garden was solidified when I further learned the way of life in the Garden. After giving birth, most mothers sent their children to Childcare and they spent almost their teenage life there. It was like boarding school. Even they made a tight schedule to interact with their mothers to avoid unwanted effects. I had never understood it and I found it ridiculous.
I did not want any of that. I wanted to take care of my son. So I talked to a counsellor about my situation and he respected my decision, however he warned me that it was not going to be easy because my partner would not be with me and I had a son to take care of. Still, I could not imagine my life in the Garden.
So I went to Hara to purchase a small resort facing cliffside and a home nearby using my savings, inheritance and income from the Garden. The farewell was bittersweet. I developed a stronger bond with workers more than with mothers. They really helped me with law and paperwork to buy the properties. I gave them my address just in case they wanted to have a holiday there, although it was a million miles a way from the Garden.
Before I left the Garden, I bumped into my partner, the father of my son, I said goodbye to him and stated clearly I wanted to be him and needed him. However he refused. I did not hold any grudges against him. It was my decision and I was fully aware of the implication from the beginning.
My house in Hara came fully furnished, I just needed to make a nursery for my son. Surprisingly, I received a big wooden box. There was a note attached at the side of the box from my counsellor. It said that there were some equipment inside that could help satisfy my needs. It was so thoughtful of him to made me this because this did not exist in the Garden. Well there was no need for it anyway.
I hired some amazing staff, trained them, created menu, did a little bit of decorating, and voila my resort was primed and ready to accept guests, just need to open the door and switch the post from closed to open. Before completely opening the resort, I decided to go to the nearby beach. However I forgot to shop for bikini because my bikini was rendered too small after the Therapy. I tried to find some but none fitted me well. Luckily, I found a local owned bikini shop that able to make custom size bikini. I was complemented by the female staff that my breast were firm and perky despite measured at 32F. She was also stunned that my nipple was at least twice as big. She was somewhat envy with my flat stomach, my full hourglass body shape and glowing skin. She said my skin was so glowing, it was like lathered with massage oil. I thanked her for the compliments, even though I knew this came at a cost and I feared it would come sooner than later.
The bikini I ordered came out fantastic. They really flaunted my figures. I found heads turned when I walked down the beach and some even catcalled me, even though I was with my son. I just waved my hand and smile. I derived no pleasure from their attentions, but sand, salted water, beautiful sunset at the horizon, and coconut, made me realise that I was home and I couldn't be happier.
As I sat down, I felt some tingly feeling around my nether area. It has been 1 month since I gave birth to Jacob. The counsellor told me that 3 months after I gave birth, the Cycle would begin. This was what I feared. The Cycle. Also, this was my second Cycle. The first time I had my Cycle, I did not realize that I was in a Cycle because I was with my partner. We were rabbits and that resulted in pregnancy with Jacob. Now I was all alone during my second Cycle. The counsellor warned me that this could be really hard on me if my needs were not met. However he could not give me more information because the last time they simulated it, they could not stand to watch the subjects in so much pain from the Cycle. Also no woman left the Garden like me. That was why my counsellor told me to keep in touch, I guessed to study from me.
1 month later I began to feel a stronger sensation in my nether area. I felt a sudden hotness and emptiness. It persisted for 3 minutes and gone, but suddenly it came back again. It had been like this for a day. I even soaked my panties and the friction from my panties tortured me. I could not even walk guests to their hotel room because of the friction and my face would be so flushed. In response, I ditched my panties and only wore sarong which was part of my work attire. It only helped with the friction, at least I could walk. The wetness however did not go away. At one point I was so wet, it ran down to inside my thigh then to my inner leg. Fortunately the sarong was long. Unfortunately I could not sit because it would print to my sarong butt area.
I was definitely in the Cycle, but it had only been 2 months, not 3 months.