Chapter 11 - Hope
I was feeling a little paranoid this morning as I ate breakfast. My mind was flitting through all the people I knew. Students, teachers, the guy at Kroger bagging groceries...
I had been so confident in my assassination plan. To be fair it had worked fairly well at first, but they had responded much more quickly that I had expected. The enemy was far from stupid and I had underestimated them badly and almost paid a heavy price. On top of that the more I thought about the Robbie and Rafe connection the more I was sure they were the same person.
It all added up to one thing, I was horribly naΓ―ve, or at least, I had been.
It had me going back through my life questioning everything, wondering how many of the people around me had been spies. I knew madness lay down this mental spiral. I had to push all this crap down and depend on my new outward focus and reading the people around me. I just wondered if my new discernment would be enough.
I could hardly blame the party girl who knew nothing of Feinir or my grandfather's machinations for not noticing things. But still, it made me feel... angry and violated. Worse though, I still wasn't sure what I would do if Robbie showed up. He had seduced me in order to spy on a new type of human. I was something unique that he needed to gauge as a threat.
He had also said he loved me.
Was I foolish to believe that? Did that mean I was still horribly naΓ―ve? My impulse was to run to mom and dad for support, let them help. But they led the community, and I would forever regret it if I let self doubt push me down that path. I might as well hunker down with Ron in his mother's basement.
Without my brother, Bree, and my best friend Kristi, I think I would have lost it by now. I took a moment to meditate and push all that down, it wasn't going to help me or anyone else.
Vinnie broke my internal pity party, "Kristi told me Feinir is back at his home, do you want to go after him now?"
I considered that and shook my head.
"Let's wait for this evening. I need to... deal with something else."
I felt guilty about Professor Mendez, I needed to make that right if I could.
I made a face, "I also don't want to miss classes. I know measuring college class against a timeless plot doesn't make much sense. But it's the principal of the thing. I don't think we should put our lives on hold."
Vinnie shrugged, "You're probably right, but missing a class or two won't kill us."
I put on my best mom voice, "It's a slippery slope young man. Miss one class and it will be much easier the next time something comes up. You must meet your responsibilities with tenacity and dedication!"
Anise said from behind me in an amused voice, "Well said."
Oh crap, busted, so much for me noticing everything around me from now on. My pity party had me all self absorbed again. Of course, it was easy to let down my guard at home, the wards and my mother's reputation made me feel safe. Still, I gave myself a mental nudge to work on it. I knew eventually it would just be there automatically, always, but for now paying attention to my surroundings took conscious work.
Kristi provided a welcome distraction, "I agree, Feinir isn't going anywhere we can't find him, and I need to keep up my grades. Magic is great and all, but I need good grades to get a job later. It is important, it could affect my whole life."
That was sort of true. She was becoming part of the family though. I didn't think she knew money wouldn't be an issue... ever. Still, I had no intention on depending on that fortune either.
Vinnie grinned, "Fine, you win. I don't have a chance against you both."
After breakfast I took a moment to arm myself mentally and we went back to the college. The weather had taken a cold turn and the air was crisp. I could see my breath fog in the cold. The cold didn't really bother me, but it did force me to change how I dressed so I wouldn't stand out. I had on a pair of black jeans, a light blue sweater and a black wool long jacket.
My morning classes went by and I didn't pick up any signs of hostility or out of place curiosity. I was trying to find that place in between vigilance and paranoia, and make sure I stayed on the side of vigilance.
When I got to my pre-med class the professor seemed different. Mendez wasn't as nervous. In fact he had a confidence that seemed to almost border arrogance. I was hoping this meant what I did would blow over. After class I went down for a word with him.
Professor Mendez said, "Ahh yes, miss Jones. I have that time for our meeting today. Say four PM in my office?"
I was hoping to be home and getting ready for Feinir at that time, but nodded and said, "See you there sir."
I didn't get the sense he was afraid at all anymore. All I could really read was that Professor Mendez was feeling confident, inquisitive, and looking forward to our meeting. It had me burning with curiosity, because I couldn't tell why at all.
When I got to the dining hall I grabbed lunch and sat across from Kristi.
"Hey, where's the shadow?"
She gave me a look and then shrugged before explaining.
"He went to meet Alicia, she needed help with something to do with the pack and he has a couple of hours before his next class. He wasn't sure if he'd have time tonight."
I smiled, "We should do something soon. A girl's night. Seriously I don't think we've gone out without Vinnie in the last couple of weeks."
She grinned, "Sure, where to?"
I replied, "Not sure, anywhere, on the planet at least. Anywhere you always wanted to go but couldn't before you got your magic? Or we can just hit a club in the city if you're not feeling touristy."
Kristi looked both thoughtful and cute, "I do want to do the world tourist thing, but I have no idea where to start."
We spent the rest of lunch discussing places we could go from the Grand Canyon, the Great Wall of China, major world cities and museums, the pyramids. It was a long list. In the end though we thought those trips should be with our significant others as a group. We would just go clubbing for girls night out.
After my classes I went by the dorm to catch up with some people. I hadn't spent much time there the last ten days and I was feeling out of touch. I was changing, and for the better, but I didn't want to lose touch with people either.
When it got close to five I made my way over to the medical building and went up to my professor's office. This was the latest I had ever been here, and there wasn't anyone else around. It made me a little nervous and I decided to take care.
I knocked on the door and was told to come in. I opened the door and looked around, Professor Mendez was sitting behind his desk, and there was no one else here. He gestured to the chair and I took a seat in front of him.
Professor Mendez raised an eyebrow at our silence, "Miss Jones, you asked for this meeting. What did you need?"
He seemed almost smug, as if he knew something I didn't.
I said cautiously, "Just wanted to make sure we were okay. I regret how awkward our last meeting ended, and hope you don't hold anything against me."
He chuckled, "No Miss Jones, if that is indeed your name. You want to hear something funny?"
I was about to answer when he lifted his hands up onto the desk. He was holding a gun. I had never considered anything like this happening. I had forgotten what I had been taught. I had forgotten why we were never supposed to let humans interact with our magic if at all possible, especially as a target and not just a witness. Humans feared what they didn't understand, and a human's response to fear was generally to destroy or kill the source of it.
I replied, "Sure, what was funny?" while I stared at the gun.
I was ready to shield, but held back. He wasn't pointing it at me and he seemed calm.
He leaned back in his chair looking relaxed, "Now don't laugh at me. But when we had our little encounter I had seriously thought you were a witch. I know it sounds quite absurd, but I was sure I was a victim of evil magic. I came to my senses however. After all Miss Jones, there is no such thing as magic."
That... was the last thing I expected to hear. I swallowed and looked at the gun to suppress my laughter. If he doesn't think it was magic then... what?
I replied, "Sounds understandable, I regret what passed between us."
He nodded, "Once I came to my senses, I decided to find out what was really going on. Doctor Norris, can you tell us what you found out about the hair I sent you?"
He turned his laptop ninety degrees so we could both see it. He had Skype open and connected. Someone had been listening to us the whole time. Doctor Norris was a woman in her thirties. She had short brown hair and brown eyes. She had a very curious look on her face.
Doctor Norris said, "It's fascinating really, it is mostly human DNA, but there are parts of it that are clearly... not."
Fucking damn it to hell. I'd really screwed up.
I cleared my throat, "I see, and you think that means?"