~~Beatrice~~
Jacob hadn't been in the cave when she came back with everyone. She was kinda thankful for that. Stressful conversations could wait until another time.
Waking up was a strange feeling, and the memories hit her hard. Angela, Jeremiah, Athalia, the fucking twisted curse Jack, the huge gargoyle Sรกndor, it all came back to her a little faster than she'd have liked. Joy, over knowing Angela was dead, and Jeremiah too. Sadness, about Athalia; not a lot, but enough to make things bittersweet. She felt real good that every one of her witches lived, and hell, she even felt good about Azamel living, too.
Sรกndor was a bit of an anomaly. While Jack's attack had gone freakishly well, to the point it hadn't really been a fight, but a slaughter, she did completely forget they weren't just killing some hunters. They were also freeing a slave. Christ, she'd completely forgotten that Jeremiah had a fucking monster as his slave, during that attack last night. All she knew, was she had a way to get past Elen's magic, and with Jack's curse, they could get revenge.
Revenge had. Now what? She wouldn't be surprised if they had to hunt down a few of the remaining hunters, but compared to the shit they'd been through for months now, it'd be a cakewalk. Maybe Athalia would try and kill her. Certainly possible. If Athalia wanted to kill her, well, let her come. But something told her that it wouldn't come to that, at least not yet, and not without at least one more conversation between them.
That meant she didn't have a good reason to get up tonight. If she wanted, she could just lie down, and sink into a hole of depression. Fuck, who'da thought achieving revenge would leave her so empty? At least when Angela was alive, she had something to distract herself, something to pour her efforts into. Now, she had nothing.
Not completely nothing. The damn Ventrue slut next to her was a reason. Stupid girl wouldn't let her drown in her pit of despair and self-loathing, and Triss knew that must have been hell for her. Triss was very much a 'let people who can't swim, drown' sort of person, or at least she was, in the past. If she'd known a woman who was drowning in sadness because her lover died, Triss wouldn't have helped her. You can't get stronger when other people save you from your struggles. Few things terrified her as much as the idea of a clingy person dragging her down, until she drowned with them.
She hadn't become clingy since Julias died, but she'd certainly been drowning. Jen helped her stay above water. Damn idiot.
Triss looked over at the stupid woman, who was sitting up with the vitae jolt that came with every completed sunset. Both were still clothed. Jen's clothes were in good condition, but Beatrice's looked like hell, and she smirked as she compared them.
"So, what now?" Jen said.
"Dunno. I suppose we talk to Jacob, next time that asshole shows his face." She had a sneaking suspicion the man had been involved last night, and she didn't know how. "And the Prince wanted to talk to us tonight. We should probably call Jack and see when she wants to do that."
With a heavy sigh, Jen nodded, and lay back on the furs in their alcove. "I'm... happy, that you got her."
"I am, too."
"You sure? You look torn about the whole thing."
Course Jen would be able to read her, considering how long they'd been friends. And Beatrice was dogshit at hiding her feelings about anything, anyway.
"Yeah, I am," she said. She whispered it, she realized, after she'd said it. Aaron and Othello were in the cave, and she didn't want them hearing. Her voice grew quieter again, and she scooted in closer to Jen. "You know what her last words were? 'Do it'. Christ, she was fucked up, Jen. Like, majorly fucked in the head, fucked up. She was happy to die."
"Yes, you told me last night, but it still sounds terrible. She must have had a horrible life."
"Athalia fucked her up pretty bad, judging from the... the last words they had. In the end, she just wanted to save her daughter, but her daughter wouldn't accept her help. It was... it was so fucked up." Triss pulled her knees up to her chest and hugged her legs close to her body. "I didn't get to kill an evil woman who ruined my life. I didn't get to beat some horrible bitch. I was just putting down some sort of injured, rabid animal." She was on repeat, saying the things she'd already told Jen, but her mind was stuck on it and couldn't work past it. Her vision of revenge had been ruined by the reality, and it fucking sucked.
Jen slipped in closer, hooked an arm around her, and hugged her tight. "Then, instead of being happy about revenge, be happy you did something good? You stopped her from killing more people, and it sounds like she was happy it was over. That's a lot of pain you helped stop. Maybe even Athalia will be able to move on now?"
Triss managed a small smile for her friend. There was truth in what she said, and hell, maybe Triss could even start thinking of it that way. "Yeah, but I don't know about Athalia. She... really wanted to protect her daughter."
"A wound can't heal when the knife's still jammed in there, Triss. Now that Angela's gone, I think Athalia will... probably get worse, first, and then she'll recover. It might take weeks, months, or years, but she'll recover. No more false hope dragging her down."
No more false hope. Painful truth. Triss didn't like it, but truth was better than bullshit. This whole thing didn't have the ending she'd been hoping for, but it was over. Time for people to heal, and move on.
"So," Jen said, "that Sรกndor. Wow."
Oh good god. "Jen, the dude was getting revenge for a dead wife and son. I think you can safely say he's off the table."
"For the moment." She grinned, and tapped her fingertips together, classic evil villain style. "It was four years ago."