Chapter 1
Pretty Bird
2am Early Early Morning Day 29
I curled myself into a ball on the forest floor and tried to keep my mind blank. Every inkling of thought sucked into the abyss of my darkened brain.
Kieran was on his feet, circling me, searching the dark forest for anything that wanted to cause us harm.
We had no weapons, so I wasn't sure how we would do anything but I didn't care anyway. Let the bears come and devour me, the pain searing through my very being.
He knelt down beside me. "We need to keep moving." He continued quietly, "I feel like a sitting duck." He helped me to my feet and pulled me behind him.
I was unaware of how long we walked until we stopped and I shivered.
Kieran pulled me down next to him between some large boulders and we shivered together. His arms wrapped around me, I savored the warmth from his skin and hated myself for feeling any pleasure when I had just killed two men and my boys were out in the world without me.
Tears stung my eyes and Kieran pulled me into him. "We'll find them."
I nodded and wiped my tears away. I wanted to believe him, wanted to trust that we would find our way out of the forest. Not get caught by Jonny and Diego's men. Killing the leaders of a gang had to have some repercussions. I wanted to believe that I could keep my boys safe from humans, demons and...Magic.
"When I was looking for ways to break the spell on me, I came across a Magic book about talismans, symbols like runes." He looked at me. "The symbols could block Magic or give someone specific powers." He finished somberly. "The book's instructions say to write it on your skin with a permanent marker, candle wax if you were brave but if you know anything about Magic you know that's utter bullshit." He shook his head. "Ones who are serious about it would tattoo the symbols or...other things." He trailed off.
I lifted up the side of his shirt and trailed my fingers gently over his branded markings on his side. "Or burn them," I whispered. "You did this to yourself?"
He ran his hand through his short hair. "All but one."
I released his shirt and tore at a leaf to keep from thinking about everything that evil bitch put us through. If I ever got out of this, I was going to fucking kill her. It didn't matter that she was my mother.
"I know you hate me."
I gave him a look. "You beat me so hard I forgot everything about myself and was in a coma for four months." I said matter of fact.
He grimaced.
"You've stabbed me." I looked at him. "A couple of times." I tore at a decaying leaf by my foot. "And I'm not even sure that's the worst of it." What had happened between us in the past wasn't easy to think about, but with time the memories had faded and it all seemed like lifetimes ago. What had happened during the Portal Ritual brought my memories back, but I wished there were memories I could forget.
He knelt in front of me, taking my hands in his, brushing away the sharp dead leaf particles. "I'm sorry."
It was the most genuine apology I had ever received. I could hear it in his tone and felt it in my very core.
"I'm sorry I wasn't strong enough to fight the mind control. I'm going to make it up to you."
His emotions overwhelmed my own. Keeping him blocked from my thoughts and emotions used a lot of energy, which I gladly used to keep myself distracted from the worst of my thoughts. I focused on the steel block around my brain, making it thicker and thicker with each minute. The spell his mother did on us backfired and I was getting real tired of this mind-meld bullshit. I could barely handle my own emotions, feeling his was too much for me. I hated the things Kieran had done to me. But I also knew it wasn't his fault. My mothers hired Magic did her dirty work, and Kieran was caught in the crossfire. She was after me, destroying my life, everyone else was just fodder for her.