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Lura watched in fascination and jealousy as Mattei mated with the women in multiple positions, one after another, all the while pleasuring them and sometimes talking dirty with them. It got their engines revved, and hers as well. While some of the sex was rougher, he didn't take anyone by force, and they all seemed pleased in the end, himself included. Lura found herself being a bit upset about that, especially since he now knew how she felt, despite her efforts to hide her attraction. And more than that, she hated that she wasn't one of the women on the bed with him.
But despite her feelings, there was some good news. The medication he'd been injected with seemed to have worked. He'd managed to fuck five women with incredible stamina and according to the stats being recorded by the implants, he deposited a large and potent load each time. Part of that was him, and part was the medication, but in the end, he had to be willing. She figured he had to be willing or able, at least, since his cock was still sticking up in the air after it all. His being able to sleep like that did confuse her a little though. Why did he only go once with each woman when he could've gone maybe even twice or three times?
The women had gathered around him, his arms looping around a couple who were fortunate enough to make it into the nooks under his arms. It was so intimate without being sexual, and she then hated that she wasn't one of the women in his arms. Knowing that he was asleep again though brought her some satisfaction. The sedative had exerted itself once again and there would be no more fucking for at least a little while. Additionally, these women wouldn't get to have sex with him for at least another year. She almost felt gleeful about that, and she wasn't sure if that was a good or bad thing. "Time where I could get some of what they had," she thought, before flushing. Then the thought of arousal was replaced by guilt. She cussed. Why did Jack have to die?
Lura forced herself to look past that, and after checking his heart rate for any signs of trouble, she left the observation room. It was time to speak with Isilde and give her an update on Mattei's performance.
"How'd it go with our number one stud?" Isilde asked. Lura wasn't surprised she knew it was her, let alone why she was there.
"Good. The ladies seemed to like him, and I have no doubt they'll all be pregnant in two weeks. He's quite the gentleman as well. I think he'll be very successful breeder, not to mention a popular one." She bit her lip afterward. "Should I ask her or not?" she wondered.
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Isilde was about to take away that autonomy though. "Excellent," she replied, before looking up at Lura. She examined Lura's face for a split second before a little smile came onto her face. "Okay. Spill. What else is on your mind?"
Lura blushed. A part of her had hoped Isilde wouldn't notice, but as they went way back, she should've known better. "This is kinda awkward."
"What is?" her friend asked. She gestured for Lura to sit, and Lura did so, relieved. If she had to confess her thoughts to anyone, Isilde was probably the best one to confess them to. There was also the bonus of her needing to get permission from Isilde anyways.
That didn't mean it wasn't going to be awkward. Looking away, she slowly asked, "Say someone wanted to be bred by the breeder they're assigned to ... how hard would it be to get permission to do so? I mean, I know it can be requested. I just don't know how easily permission is given."
Isilde didn't respond right away, instead getting up out of her chair, and then coming around to sit in one next to Lura. "You have a thing for him, don't you?"
"I don't know," Lura whispered, still not looking into her friend's eyes. "He is cute. Kind, gentle ... lots of things. I'm so attracted to him I can barely stand it. I just ... I don't know if I can do it."
"Do what?" Isilde asked.
"Betray Jack."
"Oh, Lura. Is that what this is about? You poor sweet thing." Isilde wrapped her arms around Lura and gave her a hug. "Are you beating yourself up over this? Over being attracted to Mattei?"
"Maybe a little. It hasn't been that long since Jack passed, and you know what he tried to get me to promise him. But I feel like I'd still be betraying him if I did, well, have someone else in my life, or at least babies with another man. I still want to be a mom, more than anything, but I don't know if I can go through with it like this.
Maybe I should just have an IUI and call it done."
Isilde let out a sigh and shook her head. "An IUI won't eliminate the attraction you feel. Besides, do you think Jack would be happy with how much of a workaholic you've become since he died? He wanted you to have a life, Lura. Last I checked, you don't really have much of one."
"Probably not," Lura admitted. "He did always told me I worked too much before he died. I just ... well, I liked working with the mothers and babies at my practice. Going home just seemed so ... empty, especially when he was away on his business trips. And it feels even more empty now that he's no longer there."
"You know Jack regretted not giving you your greatest desire," Isilde replied. "He told you he wanted you to be happy again, to have the children you'd wanted. Why do you have a hard time accepting that he'd be okay with you moving on?"
"I wanted babies with him! To think about having them with someone else?!" Lura said, tears welling up in her eyes. She never would've imagined herself being in this position. "I wanted what my parents had while my mom was still alive. That feeling of completeness. That my personal purpose was fulfilled. I've always wanted two things in life. A family, and a medical practice. I got the latter. I didn't get the former ... at least not entirely. I would give the latter up to have the former, or find a way to do both, even if it meant being a part-time medical practitioner. I wanted it all, and now ... now I feel so empty.
I haven't delivered a baby in four months, Isilde. Four months! All my patients either had their babies or lost their babies, and there was nothing I could do about the latter but give those poor women the bad news. Now, I don't have any ultrasounds to do, and no glowing, excited couples to meet. I don't even have any infertility consultations lined up. I feel so useless. And if there's one time in my life when I need a sense of purpose, when I could fully devote myself to becoming a mother, I feel like I have no way of making that happen without feeling guilty. And while I volunteered to bring that little girl back here a couple of days ago, it just made me remember how much it hurts not to have a child of my own in my arms. Don't even get me started on how much it hurts to not help people wanting the same thing. It's a big part of the reason I became a doctor."
"You're not useless, Lura. Far from it, in fact, so please don't go there. I know it hurts not getting to have a baby with Jack, but that doesn't mean you can't still be a mother. He gave you his blessing to move on. So do it. Go forth and have hot sex with Mattei, if he's willing. I don't see why he wouldn't be. I remember the way men looked at you when we were in college together. Jack always did joke he had to swat the men away. Do you really think Mattei would want to keep his hands off you?"
Lura laughed briefly, and then wiped the tears away. There was more though. The part that she dreaded as much as she wanted. "What if I want more though?"
"You mean, like a relationship?"
"Yes..." Lura practically whispered those words into existence. She wasn't sure why she felt so nervous about asking that question, but the confidence she normally had seemed to be faltering ever since she'd laid eyes on Mattei's hunky figure. "I can't even think about him without swooning."
Isilde was thoughtful for a moment and then sighed again. "You'll need to be very careful about that, Lura. But I can see why you're freaking out now. It makes more sense now that you've admitted you might want more with him. But since you've brought it up, first, the Council would allow you to be bred by him, given permission from me. However, while I'm ecstatic about the idea of you getting laid," Isilde said, winking at Lura when Lura couldn't help but roll her eyes, "I don't think they'd take an actual relationship well. Mattei needs to be able to focus on the task at hand, and from his psychological profiling, he's very dedicated and loyal. If you let yourself become attached to him, and he reciprocates, he may have a hard time doing the rest of what his job is going to entail - breeding other women and taking multiple wives and mates."
"So what should I do?"
