[Note: This Science Fiction story is an
intense character study
with occasional sex scenes.]
They progressed.
In the middle of their second year at the Academy, they began advanced training. They were on Space Station NL-1, in orbit around the earth. They had trained in spacesuits in simulators, but this was to be their first actual test in zero g maneuvers.
Taylor felt a wave of panic as he stepped out of the airlock. The world outside was simply so
large
. The Earth was big in the sky. For a moment, he felt like he was going to fall into it. But then he mastered his fear, and his panic, and reached for a handhold on the side of the ship.
Most everyone had that reaction when they first stepped into space, but some experienced it more than others. The writer Ernie Maslarov was one of them. He refused to step out of the airlock.
"Come on, come on, Maslarov, we don't have all day," Sergeant Chappie snapped.
"I can't do it," said Maslarov.
"What?"
"I can't come out, Sarge!"
"I want your RFD!" said Chappie. "I need your voice print. Say it, Maslarov! R... F... D!"
"RFD," said Maslarov.
"Thank you! You can go back inside now."
Everyone's jaw dropped inside their spacesuits as they realized that Ernie Maslarov was suddenly gone... just like that.
Chappie turned to the other 24 space suited figures. "Does anyone else want to join the world famous author?" He was met with silence. "Good! Then let us begin the exercise!" He pointed with a heavily armored glove. "Does everyone see that red blinking light, about a thousand feet younder? That is Space Buoy Alpha. Each one of you is going to go out there on your jetpacks, grab the buoy, turn around, and come back. Got it?"
No one answered.
"I asked a question!"
"Yes Sergeant!" they all said.
"Good! Martin, you're up first!"
Joanna Martin, took a deep breath, and activated her jet pack.
"I don't know if I can jet out into outer space like that," said Cherry, as they watched Joanna.
"You can," said Taylor.
"Fascinating," said Sophie Astor.
"What exactly fascinates you, Sophie?" Cherry asked.
"Well, it's just that what you fear is an absence of matter. That's what agoraphobia is, a fear of open spaces. The absence of nearby visual stimuli makes you ill at ease."
"
You
make me ill at ease, Sophie," Cherry snapped. "Doesn't this strike awe in your heart?"
"My heart is not capable of feeling awe, or fear, Cherry," said Sophie. "It is a simple muscle which serves a cardiovascular-"
"She made it! She's at the buoy!" said Paula Kenobi.
In the distance, they could see Joanna's spacesuit, at the flashing red light.
"All right, Martin, what are you waiting for, applause?" Chappie growled.
"Coming back, sir," said Joanna.
"Sir?" Chappie roared.
"Sorry! I mean Sergeant, Sergeant!" said Joanna, who for an instant forgot her fear of open spaces.
A moment later, Joanna started to get closer. But it seemed she was heading for another section of the space station.
"We're over here, Martin!" Chappie growled.
"Adjusting, sir, I mean Sergeant," she said hastily. She made a horizontal burst with her jetpack, and in moments, she was back. Allyson Harshbarger grabbed her as she floated by and helped her get a handhold.
"Thanks, Ally," said Joanna.
"Najjar! You're next!" Chappie said.
Mohammida took a deep breath, and launched. But something went wrong. She overshot the buoy, and when she tried to adjust, she started spinning.
"Stabilize, Najjar, stabilize!" said Chappie.
"I can't!" Mohammida yelled, as she spiraled out of control. "Laquinta, help meeeee!" she cried. They watched her tiny space suited body spiraled end over end, heading out into deep space.
"Ain't no Laquinta is going to help you, Najjar," said Chappie. "You want my help, you got to ask for it."
"Help meeeee," Mohammida.
"All you got to do is say three magic words. Come on, Najjar, I know you can say it."
They waited in silence for a moment. Then they heard, over their comm circuit, "R.. F... D...."
"That's my girl!" said Chappie. "All right, retrieval team, go and get her." He checked an internal readout. "Who's next? Farber, you're up!"
Andrea Farber tried to contain her anxiety as she launched towards the buoy. She felt panic bubbling up into her brain as she launched into interstellar space. She tried to will herself to be calm, but it wasn't really working. She had enough sense of mind to decelerate as she got close to the buoy, and grabbed it for dear life when she got there.
"All right, Farber, we're not handing out any prizes," said Chappie. "Come on back."
"I... I can't," said Andrea.
"And why not?"
Andrea Farber was having a panic attack. She couldn't move. Space was so big, so vast. She gripped the buoy tightly. "I can't move!"
Chappie sighed. "Cadets are dropping like leaves today, aren't they? All right, Farber, repeat after me: R... F...D.!"
Andrea looked out into space. She realized she was lost. "R, F, D."
"No, wait!" Taylor cried. He activated his jetpack, and launched into deep space.
"Excuse me? Moon Hero, did someone give you permission to go?" Chappie asked.
"I'll get her back," said Taylor.
Cherry watched, half holding her breath, as Taylor shot out to the buoy. He was going too fast! Even she could see it. If he overshot the buoy...
Taylor decelerated at the last minute, but still came in too quickly.
"Grab my hand!" Andrea shouted. Taylor did, and soon there were two people grabbing onto the buoy.
"You can do this, Andrea," said Taylor.
"No, Mike, I can't."
He looked at her through her helmet. "Yeah, you can."
"She's terrified," said Andrea's Ambition.
"We're all scared. Tell her to get over it," said Taylor's Ambition.
"I can't!" said Andrea's Ambition.
Meanwhile, on a different plane, another conversation was occurring:
"Stop frightening her," said Taylor's Fear.
"Why would I do that?" Andrea's Fear.
"I was supposed to deliver a message. From Taylor's Ambition," said Taylor's Fear.
"And what message would that be?" Andrea's Fear asked.
"If you don't release Andrea right now, he's going to kick your ass."
Andrea gasped, as she suddenly regained control of herself. "All right! I can do it! I think I can do it now."