CW: questionable consent; unsafe BDSM; misogyny; rape references; cnc; magic; supernatural; transformation; brainwashing
I woke up in my own bed with a headache that could kill. The window was open, and soft light filled the space pleasantly, yet all I wanted to do was slam it shut, turn over, and sleep for another hundred years or so.
Absently, I twirled the ring on my finger, and wondered if all was good for me. Like, in a spiritual sense. I'd had a taste of power, of
real
power, but even then I was able to be... discarded. Olivia had summoned me, had me do her bidding, and waved me away before I was satisfied. Then, at the suggestion of the Flat Cap Man, I'd taken my dissatisfaction out on some random woman. A beautiful, sexually-frustrated woman who had become a happy, willing vessel for my frustration, but still.
I sat up, rubbing my eyes.
Then
there was the issue of how I felt when I
wasn't
using the ring. The headaches. The oddness in my limbs - like I was aching all of the time.
'You feel it, don't you,' he said. I didn't even have to look up, and hadn't seen him enter, but I could feel the Flat Cap Man in the room. 'The change.'
'Change?' I asked. Then, I sighed. 'Why bother - you never answer me straight anyway.'
'Things are different now,' he said. 'You're on the cusp. Up until now, you were another... potential disappointment. But yesterday you proved something to me, Tommy. You understood the power dynamic of your situation; that you have power, but that it is a gift. Olivia is a toddler with a gun. I am the gunmaker. You are the gun, Tommy.'
'I'm a weapon,' I corrected.
He sighed. 'Don't sound so despondent. After your work with Olivia and Jennifer, you displayed that you are able to identify a person's need for pleasure, and fulfil it. You are steps,
steps
away from completing your transition.'
'Transition?' I asked.
I looked up. The Flat Cap Man was kneeling before me, eyes level with mine, and I could see his face clear as day. He looked old, but there was a glint in his eye, a shimmer that told me there was
so
much more going on beneath the surface.
'I made you,' he said. 'As a way to fulfil a contract. But you have grown so far beyond that. You are so close, Tommy.'
I blinked and he was gone.
'So close,' his voice whispered in the stagnant air of the room.
I rubbed my eyes again and looked at the ring. It sat on my bedside table, where I'd left it the night before, next to my charging phone. I flipped the phone over and checked the time - a little after 8 in the morning.
'Fuck,' I said with a sigh. But my mind was racing, now, even dulled by the aches and the information the Flat Cap Man had revealed to me.
I was turning into
something
.
A 'gun', as he put it.
I wanted to know what that meant. What it really meant. And, thankfully, I knew where to go to get that answer.
So, I dressed in my usual jogging bottoms and tee, forgoing the underwear, and pulled on socks and shoes quickly. I added a hoodie with a large front pocket that sat over my belly. Phone in my pocket, I slid on the ring.
Immediately, the headache went away. And, while it was a relief, I knew that wasn't a good thing overall. It was like pain medication, in a way. A vice that was so,
so
easy to get stuck on. I had to figure something out.
But one thing at a time. First, I wanted to know more about what I was becoming, no matter how good it felt. I needed to know.
* * *
Phasing through the walls and doors to get into Olivia's flat was almost second nature now. The ability had settled inside my mind, making room for itself alongside blinking and breathing.
My journey through my own building, across town, to her block of flats had seen me pass three women who, on any other day, I would have taken time to... get to know. Women who looked like they were dressed for the summer, with deep cleavage, bright smiles and long legs. But ignored them, and kept focused.
Olivia's room was still a tip. Her bedroom was covered in clothes, discarded from the evening before, and the bed was a mess of limbs and hair. Jennifer and Olivia were still asleep, tangled together in their slumber, naked and without any covers.
With a smile, I wondered what I would have done, seeing this, before I had gotten the ring. Maybe taken a photograph, if I had the presence of mind. More likely, I would have frozen up, beholden by the one thing I had wanted more than anything - the knowledge of what Olivia looked like naked.
Now, I was more than acquainted with her body, and how it felt when she came on my cock. How her moans sounded when she was short of breath. How she begged for me to cum inside her. She was still beautiful, but the mystery was gone. Replaced by something else. Something more powerful.
Loyalty.
I could feel it in my heart. I would do
anything
she wanted of me. It was built into me - into this
thing
that I was becoming. Though, it had to be said, I would have done anything she'd asked before this, too. The only difference is that, before, she had no idea who I was in the first place.
I pulled my eyes away from the shape of her arse, and looked around the room. I had a target. A goal. If I was to achieve it, I had to be fast.
Of course, it didn't take long.
Beneath a pair of Olivia's underwear - which I, tastefully, took and pocketed away - there was a box, with the corner slightly pulled back. I pulled the box open a little, and saw the cover of the book I was looking for. It was old, and musty, with leathery details and shineless metal up the spine.
I took it in my hand, and considered the fact that it felt awfully... small. Thin. Not as hefty as I'd imagine a working book of spells to be.
Either way, It was easy enough to tuck it into my hoodie's pocket, before going to make an exit.
'Mmmm,' I heard from the bed. It was a soft sound, not one of alarm. I wasn't noticed. 'Hey,' I heard.
It was Olivia's voice. First thing in the morning, with that crack of tired satisfaction that came only from a night filled with orgasms and moaning and screaming.
Olivia kissed her friend's collar bone to wake her, before moving down her body with sleepy interest. I watched, unable to look away as Olivia shifted, lifting her butt directly towards me. She didn't know I was there, but the way she waved her hips as she kissed down her friend's tits, to her navel, before shifting back, kising and licking down to her sex... you could have convinced me she was trying to tease me.
'Liv?' her friend moaned as she woke to the sensation of a tongue against her clit. 'Oh,
god
, yes baby... that feels so
goooooood
...'
I watched them have slow, sleepy, lesbian sex for a while, justto enjoy myself. The sounds of Olivia's lips against Jennifer's sex were intoxicating, and it took every part of me not to walk up to her, grip her by the hips, and slide my cock
deep
into her as she ate out her buxom best friend on the messy bed.
But I resisted, and just watched.
'Fuck, you have such a good
tongue
,' she whined as Olivia made sweet love to her. 'Why... why didn't we... do this... before?'
Olivia came up for air. 'I've been wanting to taste you since the day we met,' she said, before diving back below. This time, Jen's back arched as Olivia's thumb slipped into her, both of them moaning as they fucked, nice and indulgently, on this warm morning.
'Yesterday... I've never had anything like that,' Jennifer sighed. I thought about the way she had screamed as I fucked her, and smiled. She would never have it again.
Unless Olivia demanded it, of course.
'Did you like it?' Olivia asked. 'I did it for you.'
'For me?' Jen asked, looking down at Olivia, before resting her head back, eyes rolling, as Olivia continued her assault on her clit. 'Wh... Why for me?'
Olivia gave her a soft kiss on the clit, and came up again. 'Well, okay. It was for
me
as well. But, when I knew it had worked... I just knew I had to share him with you. To make you feel as good as I did.' Olivia climbed Jennifer's body, kissing her neck as their bodies fit together. Jennifer's hands trailed up Olivia's back as she whined under the kisses. 'I just want
you
,' Olivia whispered.
That made my chest tighten. Reality, all at once, hit me square in the chest, as I realised what I was.
Not even a weapon. Just a tool. A tool for her to use to get someone
else
. Sure, I had fucked her, but it wasn't even
me.
I was just some invisible creature she summoned out of a book, used to get her rocks off, used
again
to get her friend into bed, and then...
And then, she waved me away. Like I was nothing.
I gripped the sides of the book, ignoring the two students as they began to kiss and lick and taste and
fuck
each other, walking out with my head low.
The whole walk home, I expected the Flat Cap Man to walk up, to give me a chiding word or cryptic idea or something. Instead, I was left alone to wander back to my own building. Through the door, I phased, and was met straight away by the back of Brit - the girlfriend of Mike, the piece-of-shit I'd managed to avoid learning the name of despite living with him for a few weeks now. It was impressive, I'd found, how easy it was to avoid interacting with people if you gave it enough thought. Between eating food that didn't require cooking, and a whole-arse rejection of a social life, I'd done pretty well at keeping to myself.
Brit was crying.
'He... I can't... I'm ruined, Mike. My life is
ruined
.' Her voice was low, but strained. Like a storm trying to fit through a window. I rounded her, and got a good look at her face.
Her make-up was running a little, but she wasn't
crying
. Not in a hysterical sort of sense. It looked... deeper than that. Like she had just been told the kind of news that Doctors have to tell you behind closed doors. In her hand, she held her phone, knuckles white as she gripped it hard enough to be straining.
'Come on,' Mike said, coming out of his room - it looked like she'd just stormed out. 'It's not
that
bad.'
'You said you would
TALK TO HIM!
' she screamed. I heard others in the flat - the other guy whose name I'd never learned, and a girl who seemed to be with him. They came to the kitchen doorway, looking between Brit and Mike with worried eyes.
'
YOU
,' Brit yelled, anger replacing the fear I'd noticed. 'You
said
you would get him to delete them. Now
everyone is going to see this shit
.'
'Not everyone-' Mike tried to say, but Brit made a noise close to a growl.