I got fucked by a ghost 8.
After that night with John, I accepted for good that this wasn't some odd, impromptu moments of a ghost coming to get his rocks off. He had found me, taken me, and made me realize things deep within myself that I had never thought, accepted, wanted to believe, or had come to discover. These recurring sexual experiences were not just because. John was here for a reason. The more we had intercourse, the closer I felt to him. As time progressed and I continued taking his dick inside my mouth or my ass, it made me long for it further.
When I finally accepted that I was changing, I knew I needed to set a new course. I began taking steps to discover men even more. I looked up every hard cock video. Every gay seduction series I could find, every cum on my face hypno video online. The further I watched, the deeper my lust developed. I had to get out. I had to be free of my wife and start my life over. I had to take the chance to date a man. To see what it would be like to suck a real dick, where I could actually see the person, I was giving head to. To feel, see, and taste the cum he would shoot after I got him off. To be on my knees getting pounded from behind. To get cock!
As I began to accept and understand that I needed to be someone different, to try dating men, and experience love in ways I would have never imagined. As things progressed towards the inevitable, John visited me more frequently. Each time brought new experiences, new positions, deeper desires, greater enlightenment, and wild thoughts of things to come. It was as if he could read my mind or hear my thoughts. As if he knew I was beginning to need homosexuality over heterosexuality, and the more I craved it, the more he came.
After a few months of deep self-reflection and final acceptance, I sat down with my wife and told her I wanted a divorce. That I was leaving. I didn't tell her why. I didn't want her to think that "men" whom I had never dated in real life was the cause. I just explained that I felt it was time for us to go our separate ways. I didn't want her to think that suddenly, after almost 30 years of marriage, I had discovered I was gay. All signs were pointing that way, but I didn't want her to believe it was her or her lack of intimacy or sexual passion that drove me to wanting dick. Because if it were just sex or physical touch, any other woman would have sufficed. I just knew, gay or not, new relationship or not, I had to go.
I let her have the house and bought myself a nice two-bedroom condo just on the outskirts of downtown. As reluctant as I felt about it, she convinced me to let her have a second set of keys, just in case something happened to me. At least she could help if I needed it. After some taut moments, a lot of animosity, and some late-night fights, I moved out. Our court proceedings were pending, and I was on the cusp of starting my new life. John visited me almost instantly after I settled into my new place. It was like I had given him the keys, told him my new address, and he took immediate action to come over and visit me.
Countless days I found myself on my knees with his dick in my mouth, or in my ass and I reeled in the pleasure of him being there. Dozens of times, I begged the lord to let him live again, to be real, to let me see him and talk to him. I wanted his dick more than anything. Every time that cool breeze came across my face, I knew he was there. When I needed him, I called his name. When I felt the urge to have sex, I would light candles, sit naked, and even lightly stroke myself in hopes he'd be there. Just like women plan a romantic night for their lover, I planned many for him.
On most occasions, he'd show up. Id feel his touch, his warmth, his sensuality and then I'd be taking his hard dick anywhere he wanted to put it. I found myself getting fucked time and time again. This time with no fears of someone seeing me. No concerns about who was judging me, or who would catch us in the act. Soon into living alone, I discovered that I was more comfortable with him than any other woman. It seemed that day after day, I longed for him, like anyone waiting for their lover to get home so that we could be together.
Each time brought more aspirations, more desires, and more longing. I know it sounds odd to want to feel a dick sliding in and out of you, but the more he did it, and the more I enjoyed it, the better it became. I felt like a woman many of nights as he pounded my ass with his dick, making me cum just before or after he got off. The problem was, as much as I loved being with him, I needed it for real. I wanted to see my lover. I wanted to look into his eyes. I wanted to see the cum shoot from his dick and onto my face. As much as I loved our little interludes, I needed the real thing. So, I moved forward with my online searches for men. For a new lover, and it wasn't long until I found one.
The dating sites I was on were scary, especially for someone like me who never used one, let alone was on a gay dating site. I chatted with several men who were very forward. Usually just minutes into chatting with them through the app, dick pictures were coming in. It was flattering. However, I wanted something more heartfelt, authentic, compassionate, and romantic. Even though I had numerous offers to "meet at a hotel, or a hook-up," I passed on all of them. I wanted to be genuinely interested in someone, get to know them a bit, and let things unfold naturally. Luckily enough, I met Tomas.
Tomas was a mix of white and Filipino. He was just a year older than I was, very well-off, very handsome, of average height and weight, with lighter olive skin. He had a great profile and normal, fully dressed pictures. In chatting with him, I learned that he had been out since his 20s. He had been married to a man for a long time but had since divorced and was now seeking something deeper and more meaningful in his next relationship. I was very intrigued. We exchanged phone numbers and began texting and talking, developing something more in-depth than just sex or a hookup.
I was nervous, yet excited every time I spoke with him. No matter how comfortable I was with John, this was a new experience for me. He was new, and he was real. This wasn't some late-evening rendezvous with someone I couldn't see, but could surely feel. If anything were to happen with us, it would be in real life.
I pressed forward, continually pushing myself to move further than just chatting. I got to meet him a few weeks later for dinner, and I was in disbelief and a nervous wreck as I sat across from him at the dinner table. It was, in all reality, my second gay date (the first man I met went nowhere), and I was out with someone that I was interested in. Of the hundreds of profiles I read, thumb through, conversations I had and the countless unsolicited dick pictures I had received, he was the one that grabbed my interest the most.