You never learn to survive until you are faced with death at every turn. To live is no longer the objective. Having a heartbeat is essential to living, and not falling into lifelessness is essential to survival. Death is feared, but so is being dead and alive at the same time, forced to do things you never imagined just to survive. Maybe you're surviving, but are you living?
~I've never felt so alone. They sometimes talk to me, but only to beg me to run or demand I do not move so they can eat me. Some of them don't like the hunger, some embrace it. "I can't fight it, please, get away," or "C'mere, tasty little slut." Having a conversation with a dead ghoul who most likely would eat you if they could isn't exactly the most entertaining thing. They are conscious, but they can't control their urges to kill and survive. Everything is trying to survive. Most of them are just mindless monsters who's speech ranges from grunts to groans. most have no emotion and don't think. Maybe it's because that's the easiest way to deal with what they do and what they have become. Would I be the same?