You never learn to survive until you are faced with death at every turn. To live is no longer the objective. Having a heartbeat is essential to living, and not falling into lifelessness is essential to survival. Death is feared, but so is being dead and alive at the same time, forced to do things you never imagined just to survive. Maybe you're surviving, but are you living?
~I've never felt so alone. They sometimes talk to me, but only to beg me to run or demand I do not move so they can eat me. Some of them don't like the hunger, some embrace it. "I can't fight it, please, get away," or "C'mere, tasty little slut." Having a conversation with a dead ghoul who most likely would eat you if they could isn't exactly the most entertaining thing. They are conscious, but they can't control their urges to kill and survive. Everything is trying to survive. Most of them are just mindless monsters who's speech ranges from grunts to groans. most have no emotion and don't think. Maybe it's because that's the easiest way to deal with what they do and what they have become. Would I be the same?
~We watched our mother be eaten alive, her eyes wide and hand trembling, outstretched toward us. What were we supposed to do? A few months ago, we were in the market with her, looking for dinner, then hell opened it's doors and set fire to the world with this strange disease. So how could we help her. All we could do was watch her die and be exhumed as one of them. That's when we were forced to take pity and kill her. They start out mindless, she came after us, and we weren't about to let our mother be one of those creatures. We held hands as we smashed in her brain with our daggers. We are corrupted and scarred. Now we face this apocalypse as a family of two. We found that we can manipulate the metals in their stilled blood and use them as our puppet... but how does one kill what used to be a person so easily? Why can't I be strong like my sister, or my mother? They never stop coming. How do we survive when we are but two young aelfen with nowhere to go?