The third night with him is no less enjoyable than the previous. My instincts lead me, and he follows willingly and easily. I bring him to my secret glade, deep within the wilderness. We huddle together and kiss. Summer is in its prime, with the sun barely creeping below the horizon leaving its golden sheen on the clouds at the far edge of the world. Coupled with a full moon, it is as close to daylight as I will ever see. I can clearly see his fatigued face, less handsome but beautiful in its admiration.
"I had a hard time escaping this time. They are beginning to ask why I sneak out every night. I fear that they suspect. But nothing can keep me away from you, my love." I try not to acknowledge the sword resting in the moss by our side
I am on a rapidly increasing curve of desire and seek nothing but his love and caresses. The exhilarating feeling of lust and promise of sex fills me with butterflies. At the same time, I know my effect on him is nothing natural. His sickly skin is a stark reminder, but his lustful, staring eyes tell me not to care. We should not keep this up, is my last thought before surrendering to his shivering touch.
He is more forceful and fervous than before, pinning my wrists to the ground with his strong hands. I know I can easily break free, but I do not. I relish in the fantasy and surrender to his masculine aura. He pounds me again and again at an almost desperate pace. I scream and moan with each thrust. My tail writhes like a snake beneath us.
His release comes so heavily that I can feel the force of his bursts filling my inner crevasses. The flow of energy makes me come, and I bury my nails in his back, tearing bloody streaks across the muscled skin.
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My new life amongst the fairy-folk was very different from my former, but I eventually found it was not as dreadful as I had feared. Most of my contentment came from Skuld, who turned out to be the most wonderful fiancΓ©e I could have imagined. It was a delight to see her every morning with her wonderful smile and playful mind.
Still, I longed for the open wilderness and my home. I knew I had no choice but to stay and tried to accustomize myself with the way of life in this underground dwelling. With time I learned about the geography of the kingdom, which was an overwhelming maze of passages and caves, with halls that would fit my entire homestead, thousands of feet across.
Rivers, lakes and wells provided water, and the most trusted trolls were allowed outside to hunt or forage for food, which was evenly distributed amongst us. I tried desperately to be allowed to join the hunting parties, but they would not even show me the way to the surface. It seemed I would be distrusted no matter what I was doing, and I had the feeling this was more than just a personal grudge. Trolls hated humans.
It became clear to me that I would never be considered their equal. A lesser being. They would harass me and treat me with contempt for the rest of my days here. No one wanted to be my friend, and the girls made fun of my small stature. I was sure Skuld saw me in a similar fashion, although she bravely tried to conceal her disappointment with her new betrothed. Compared to the trolls, I was tiny and weak, abilities disdained by my new people.
Burr used this for all it was worth and made me the center of every joke. He would give me a "friendly" pat on the back, shoving me face down into the mud, or giving me tasks I would never be strong enough to accomplish. All this to mock and humiliate me. Still, I was promised to the King's daughter, and that gave me some relief from the worst of the harassment.
My only solace in this gruesome time was Skuld. She would take good care of me whenever I was at our home. I knew she could not defend me in public, as females were seen as even lesser beings than myself. But she comforted me and always made me feel better, if not good. Her stunning beauty was almost enough to keep me from regretting this life. The beautiful, perfectly shaped body made me react with desire every time I laid my eyes on her.
The first evening, after she led me to her new home, she would not let me touch her. But over the following days, as she got to know me better, I found she eased up a bit. Our mutual experiences as lesser residents grew into a strange kind of bond. Often, we would chat and cuddle up in bed, but although I yearned to taste her body, she would not let me. I knew she had hoped for a strong and handsome troll, but she was stuck with this lean, weak, human boy. My desire for her was still strong, and it became a torment for me to live with her and know I would never have her, neither physically nor emotionally.
As I was chatting with Skuld one night, I tried to explain to her that I would never run away and asked her why they would not trust me. We had become close over the weeks, and through our little talks found that we had a number of small things in common. I began to relish these moments as a form of substitute for my unfulfilled desires.
"It really is quite simple. You are not like us, and as long as you are perceived as human, you never will. The distance and distrust between our peoples are simply too great. We have always been part of different realities."
"Is there really nothing I can do? I only want to be accepted and become part of your community. I know that I will be a captive here for the rest of my life, but why can I not at least be allowed a better life than this?" I realized my unintended insult the moment the words came out, but she did not seem to catch it.
"There is one thing. But it will require much of you. You will have to die."
"Die! That is your solution? I die and you get to marry the big, strong Burr?"
"Do not be silly. I would not marry that vile pest for anything. He is notoriously bad tempered and has been known to beat his late wife. Some say that is the reason for her being 'late'."