He followed the sound of singing. Once he got upstairs, he froze by the baby's room.
"That's my little lovely." Elunara laid the baby in the crib. "There you are, nice and clean, and ready for yet another nap." She sighed and tucked the blanket around the small form. "I'm sorry your daddy is being a bit of a foof. He's just dealing with a lot right now. I'm sure he'll come around soon enough." She rubbed Lulu's little hand. "I know in my heart, that he'll love you just the same, he's just got to work past that knot in his head. I swear... if that little bitch was still alive, I'd make what I did to Terrance look kind." She sighed. "No negativity. She doesn't exist anymore."
Elunara began to sing again. She leaned against the crib, baby's hand in her own, just singing. "Don't worry, my sweet little lovely, I'll make it okay. You just sleep now." She backed out of the room and quietly closed the door.
"You sing so beautifully."
Elunara jolted back. "Shit. Don't scare me like that."
"I figured you knew I was here." Jordan ran his fingers through his hair.
"I... got involved." She rolled her eyes.
"I'm sorry."
"Meh." She waved him away. "It's fine."
"No. I mean I'm sorry I've... not tried harder."
Elunara placed her hand on his cheek. "You take what you need."
"Tired of being told that." He slid his hands across her hips. "However, at the moment, what I need... is you."
Soft and slow, he pressed his mouth to hers. One hand came up, and threaded through her hair, while his other gripped her hip. He led her to his room, their bodies tangling with each other as they moved. He tugged up her shirt and tossed it to the floor, before pressing her pants to the ground. He knelt and kissed the soft hairs above her soft folds. He slipped his fingers through, before standing again.
She took off his shirt and kissed his chest, as she let the garment fall to the floor. Kissing her way down, she tugged of his pants and kissed her way down his erection, pressing her lips at the base of it as he groaned. When she stood back up, he laid her into the bed, before climbing between her legs.
Sitting on his knees, he tugged her legs around his waist, and slid her soft folds on the underside of his erection. Gently, he bucked his hips, and watched the length of him slide against and between those slick, wet folds. He ran his hands across her belly. "You may not have given birth..." He whispered. "But you are still the mother to my child."
"Oh, Jordan." She breathed, as she held out her arms.
He shifted and buried himself into her waiting wetness, as his mouth captured hers. Their bodies writhed, the soft skin brushing against each other, as they twisted and pumped against one another. His fingers threaded through her hair, brushed her cheeks, caressed her neck, as they work their way around. With a sighing groan, she clamped down on him, and he gave himself to her.
Elunara curled up, under Jordan's arm. "I'm thinking of taking Lulu to see Mother tomorrow. She needs to know about her newest surprise Grandchild."
"Yeah, I guess she does." He ran his fingers through his hair. "Do we have to tell her?"
"Tyrande Whisperwind did not get where she is by being an uncontrollable gossip. I would like for her to know the truth."
"Fine." He ran his fingers through her hair and watched the strands fall. "I'll go with you."
"Aw, but we want to go." Darguni pouted.
"How about this? I will plan a trip, just the three of us, to all the capitols. Just like I did with Tulani."
"Yeah!" Bradly bounced.
"That sounds cool!"
"Geez, Elunara. How many more kids are you going to have?" The boat master snorted.
"However many I wind up with." She shrugged.
Jordan looked around. "It's been ages since I've been here." He took her hand. "Not really a reason important enough to make it out."
"Well, Mother should be in the Temple, as usual."
They attracted a fair amount of attention on their way up. Jordan ducked his head.
"Stand tall my love. For in their eyes, you're the husband of a Goddess." She winked.
"You only use that when it suits you."
"Damned straight. So, live up to your position."
"Elunara! This is quite the..." Tyrande trailed off as she stared at the baby in the sling.
"Mother, can we have a private room? Away from ears?"
"Yes, of course."
Elunara leaned over "You need to decide if it's alright that Malfurion know."
"Might as well." Jordan grumbled.
Tyrande sat heavily in a chair. "Oh. Oh, dear. I don't know who to feel worse for."
"Quite unfortunate indeed." Malfurion frowned.
"May I see her?"
Elunara transferred Lulu out of the sling and into Tyrande's arms.
"Again I see your endless compassion." Tyrande sighed.
"The way she looks at us." Murmured Malfurion. "As if she knows something important."
Elunara reached out and took the child. "She'll be a beauty when she grows up."
"You're a good man, Jordan." Tyrande smiled kindly.
"I am not!" He gestured away. "I'm SO fucking sick of being told that!" Jordan grabbed his head with his hands. "My WIFE is a good person. Not me. I just agreed to the damned thing, and Elunara's done all the work. I haven't even TRIED to understand this. I just let Elunara do everything, while I hide in a corner. I only agreed because I didn't want to disappoint my wife."
"I didn't want Darguni either." Elunara said quietly.
"What?"
"Did no one tell you about that?" Lulu began to fuss, so Elunara began the process of nursing her. "I pitched a temper tantrum, and wanted to end the pregnancy. However, between Tulani's inability to have a child, with a complete desire for one... and Grogek's desire for a child, yet our differences... I gave in. For seven months of my life, I was just damned ANGRY that I'd let them talk me into this intrusion of my body. I hated every minute of it. So much so, that I was worried I'd never be able to love my own child. Yet, here we are."
"I... didn't know that."
"Then to find out that I could nurse this child, and not the one I gave birth to? You know how cruel of a slap in the face THAT was? You have no possible clue how much that hurt me. But still, I found a place for our little Lulu in my heart. The capacity is there Jordan; you just have to let it."
He laid his face on her shoulder. "I'm so sorry."
"You've been doling out so many apologies lately, that I don't even know which ones to trust. Do you?" Elunara rubbed her cheek against Jordan's head. "You know how much I hate false apologies. You're so busy shouldering a blame that doesn't exist, you're weighing yourself down. Just stop it already."
"I don't know how."
"Repeat after me... It's not my fault."
"But..."
"Repeat." She commanded.
"It's not my fault."
"It's not my fault."
"It's not my fault." He straightened up.
"It's not Lulu's fault."
"It's not Lulu's fault."
"Lulu is not my reminder."
"Lulu..." He sighed. "Lulu is not my reminder."
"It's not my fault."
"It's not my fault."
She leaned forward and brushed her lips on his. "Just repeat all of that until you can accept it as truth."
He wrapped his arms around her. "I'm sorry. And I mean it this time. I'm so sorry I've been living in my own head."
She ran her fingers through his hair. "Believe me, your mind can be a very dark place to live. You have to come out into the light, or you'll wither away."
"You and your sayings."
"Your little girl needs you. As much as everyone is willing to be there for us, you have to be willing to be there more."
He nodded and pressed his forehead to Elunara's. "You'll keep me straight."
"Damned right I will. Now, hold her." Elunara held out the baby. "And get started on bonding."
"Elunara, do you make everyone cry as much as me?" Tyrande wiped her cheek.
Elunara thought for a moment. "Mostly Ina, and Linda, but yeah. People keep breaking out the waterworks on me."
"Well, if you'd stop doing nice things." Jordan laughed.