Elunara marched down to the training yard, and finding Grogek on the sidelines, promptly climbed up his back and sat on his shoulders.
"What ARE you doing?"
"Trying to reclaim some normalcy." She grumped.
"By sitting on my head?"
"Maybe."
"What has you in a funk now?"
"Bradly just declared, in front of the mother of one of his friends, that I'm his mother now, because I want him. He then told her that he didn't appreciate her kid contradicting that decree." Elunara sighed. "Well, he put it in kid terms, but you know what I mean."
"Ah, you were made to feel emotional. Understood."
"Oh, hush you."
"Why are you perched up there like some sort of angry bird?" Jordan sighed.
"Bradly has dropped the "Elunara" part of what he calls me."
"Ah. Emotions."
"Ok, you two are too damned alike. I'm going to have to do something about that."
"Not be predictable?" Jordan grinned.
Elunara whacked him in the head. "Was that predictable?"
"Yes." Both men answered in unison.
"Gods, you two sound like the boys. They were speaking in unison for like ten minutes straight. It's freaking me the hell out."
"Are you enjoying the view from your perch?" Renwa raised a brow.
"Bradly just claimed Elunara as his true mother." Grogek grinned.
"Ah, she's emotional. Got it."
"I SWEAR TO ELUNE, I WILL HURT ALL THREE OF YOU!" She crossed her arms.
Zelinnia cocked her head to the side. "This is a new look for you Grogek. Did you get a haircut?"
Grogek ran his hand over his bald head and grinned.
"Please tell me why Envoy Elunara is sitting on General Grogek's shoulders." Duchie sighed.
"Elunara is grumpy." Zelinnia smiled. "She does weird things when she is." She rocked Abigail and murmured to the baby.
"There is so much hate going on right now." Elunara grumbled.
Grogek laughed and rubbed her leg. "What's bothering you is not the issue; it's your reaction to the issue. You really shouldn't be surprised that you have a heart beating in there."
"What's wrong with Momma?" Bradly frowned at Darguni.
Darguni shrugged. "I don't know."
Elunara sighed. "I'm fine, you two. My brain shuts down when it has too much to process at once." She went backwards, hooking her legs over Grogek's shoulders. "Sometimes I have to do something strange in order to deal with it."
They giggled at her.
She grabbed Bradly and hauled him up with her. Leaning back down, she grabbed Darguni. "Your dad makes a really good perch to think on."
"You're really strong!" Bradly marveled. "How did you DO that?"
"Lots and lots of training."
"Papa Grogek said that we could start training, but we had to ask first."
"I think training is essential to survival. We'll see what we can do about a junior division." She grinned.
"Yeay!" The boys both cried.
"We'll have to get some practice weapons shipped in." Jordan commented. "Not something they were expecting out here."
"Can you three get off me? I have work to do."
Elunara grabbed Darguni under the armpits and lightly tossed him down. He landed on his feet with a giggle. Next she tossed Bradly down, before sliding down to the ground.
Grogek grabbed her by the waist, spun her around and kissed her. "You're a good person. You'll just have to learn to live with it."
"Bah, you big softie." She grinned.
Jordan snagged her around the waist and captured her mouth with his own. "Took me years to figure out you were a big softie too."
"I am not," She smacked his arm. "You take that back right this instant."
"Never." He whispered, before kissing her again. "I have my own work to get back to." He grinned before walking off.
"I will never get over seeing that." Duchie shook his head.
"Momma has enough love in her heart for anyone who asks for an invitation." Bradly grinned.
"That's what papa says." Darguni grinned and wrapped an arm around Bradly. "I wouldn't have a brother if she didn't."
"I wouldn't have a family if she didn't." Bradly nodded.
"Both of you. Yoona duty."
"Right!" They said at once before running away.
Elunara sighed. "I feel like I should be eating a bucket of chocolate."
"Hey, if there's buckets of chocolate involved, I want in." Zelinnia laughed.
"I have other uses for chocolate." Elunara grinned.
"Well, as long as we invite Tulani." Zelinnia sighed.
Both Renwa and Elunara began to count off.
"AUGH!" Zelinnia roared in frustration. The baby began to cry. "Oh, shh, I'm sorry sweetie. Let's get you home."
"Speaking of Tulani, she'd be thrilled if we stopped by."
After both women had gone, Duchie turned to Renwa. "This place is a madhouse. Does it not bother you that your wife so obviously has tendencies towards Elunara and her... wife?"
"Why should it? She remains my wife, and quite frankly has an impulsive mouth, but not an impulsive body. She doesn't do anything without carefully analyzing all the angles." He chuckled. "Her brain is amazing. It's just my luck that she has a body to go with it."
"I have read Elunara's books, and while I now have a more intense insight, I still can't understand this town, or how a common whore inspires such loyalty."
"Then you do not understand her at all. Maybe you should read them again, from the insight of an actual person, and not the dry amusement of an officer."
"Did you just insult me?"
"No, insulting would be calling you a dumbass." Renwa smiled. "But, I'm less obvious than that."
Admiral Duchie knocked on Elunara's door with a sigh.
She yanked it open and raised an eyebrow. "I highly doubt you're here for a full treatment."
He frowned. "No. Renwa has declared that I didn't read your books properly and instructs that I should try again."
She shrugged. "Suit yourself."
"I have one question..."
She spread her hands out. "Go for it."
"Why do you keep all of this?"
"Habit, I suppose. I started this when I was a teenager, just experimenting with drawing and boys. After awhile, they became fond memories rather than horrible ones. The pain you experience is always momentary, even if in the moment it feels like it will never end. I like to remind myself of what I have been through. When I lose track of myself, when I get so emotional I can't think straight, I can come in here and start revisiting the things that made me who I am. There are some people who believe that I had a horrific past, that the way I act is something out of trauma. The problem with that, is during the time when most of this happened, I believed my emotions to be dead. I didn't hate, I didn't love. I only vaguely felt bad occasionally, and only when someone was really nice.
I only realized I had friends after Grogek. He was a persistent little bugger, but he got under my skin and made me realize that I did have emotions, buried somewhere under all the hardass. He opened me up to my emotions in a way I didn't realize could happen. Suddenly, viewing everything with the shaded glass, I realized what I had missed for years. I missed Renwa being in love with me. I missed people in the SI:7 who tried SO hard to be my friend. I realized that even Varian himself had given me a tiny fragment of himself.
When you read my books, you should be aware that I did not feel things as others did. Assassination came easy to me, because I did not value anyone's life, least of all my own. I keep these books to remind myself that I am capable of so much more.