When mortals see me they are startled.
Maybe it's my nudity
or my head-to-toe hairlessness
or my large breasts,
which seem to fascinate men
and more than a few women
(I prefer the women),
or my slight other-worldly glow.
Most likely it's all of the above.
I am a goddess,
a goddess of instinct
to be exact.
My name is Esmellinda.
I am naked because gods and goddesses are always naked.
Clothing on us is a fiction mortals made up
to prevent anyone from being offended by our nudity.
In reality we never wear anything.
I have no hair anywhere because I find it uncomfortable,
always getting in my way.
Centuries ago I removed it all permanently.
I have a sister, Ishara,
who many in Mesopotamia had worshipped at one time.
She too is a goddess of instinct, as well as of sex and creativity and love.
Instinct, love, sex, creativity: they're not that distinct from each other.
I have jurisdiction over all of it, as well,
including taste, touch, smell, and many other things.
Ishara had many followers
and you may have heard of her.
I, on the other hand,
lived in her shadow
and had practically no followers,
which is probably why you've never heard of me.
When I came of age,
I left home and eventually drifted into the ocean.
which is mainly where I've lived ever since.
Yes, I can breathe underwater,
and I can also fly without wings.
I'm pretty good at walking and running too.
Another thing about gods and goddesses:
the great intensity of the life force,
as it constantly rages through us,
makes us super horny.
Why do you think mythology has all those bawdy tales
of Zeus and Dionysus and the maenads and all the rest?
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As for me, my body is always vibrating,
always one touch away from orgasm.
My vagina is always soaked, my fluids constantly dripping
down my thighs and onto the ground.
Sometimes I collect my fluids in bottles
and then rub them into my skin like body lotion.
Or I sit in an empty tub making myself squirt over and over
until my clear fragrant liquid fills up the tub and then I bathe in it.
My clit is always hard and exceptionally large.
You can see it distinctly even from a distance.
I'm essentially having constant sex just by existing, and I love it.
I love the smell of my arousal,
and that arousal, especially when I smell it,
generates the energy I need.
So, I create instincts for everything that lives.
Many appreciate what I do for them, but some don't.
For example, whenever I give instincts to bees, I get stung.
Whenever I do the same for skunks, they stink me up with their spray.
I just recently got stunk up by my pet skunk who I never named.
Maybe not having named her is why she never seemed to like me very much.
Caterpillars don't seem to appreciate me either.
Whenever I do something for them
they cover me in the secretions they use on plants.
Other creatures, though,
such as pigs, horses, dogs, cats, sheep, and cows,
are nice to me. I also give instincts to plants.
They appreciate me the most, and many of them give me flowers
which give me beautiful colors and smells.
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You may be wondering where I live.
It's not in some heaven or on Mount Olympus,
places which likely don't even exist if you ask me.
I pretty much live everywhere.
I live in caves, in fields, in swamps, in deserts, on beaches, in savannas,
any kind of region you can think of is where I live,
even the polar regions. But mainly I live in the sea.
I like the languid darkness of the deep ocean.
And like plants, I'm on good terms with
most of the fish and other sea life.
Even jellyfish don't sting me very often, nor do stingrays.