A lot of people say that they have no memories of the moments of and the moments after a traumatic event's occurrence. I remember every second, though.
The sirens at the fire station nearby started sounding just as the sky grew freakishly dark. I was sitting on my balcony, smoking a bowl and taking a break from the online poker tournament I was playing in. It took just long enough for me to wonder "what the hell is going on out here" before I was hit. I smelled smoldering matches & clean rain in the most powerful sensory assault ever before everything went white. My body was jolted with energy I would have never thought it could handle as the lightening popped and surged through it. My toes tingled and I felt every single cell in my body shrieking with the force of it all. As quickly as it began, it stopped.
I sat dazed for a minute. I looked around me for signs that I was dead or dreaming -- surely that didn't just happen. As I caught my breath, though, it set in more and more that something tremendous had just happened. I was alive and certainly not asleep. I felt more alive than ever, actually. The world felt different -- like my flesh was no longer a boundary between my being and the universe. The darkness had not lifted, but I could feel the light seeping into my skin. I couldn't explain it but I couldn't deny it.
I sat on my balcony for a while longer that night, smoking more weed & even sneaking in a cigarette or two. Back in my college days I had dabbled a bit in rolling on ecstasy. I loved the feelings it brought, but feared turning my brain in to mush, otherwise I'm sure I would have used it more. Lots of people used to complain about being so horny but so unable to obtain release when they were rolling, but I never had that problem. I was horny, alright, but had no issues at all with reaching incredible, mind-bending, earth-shattering orgasms. The first time I ever tried it was at a party with a group of friends -- we were at one's home in the middle of nowhere outside of Atlanta and my wussy self finally caved and downed a couple of beans.