Devilla
I made a move towards the door, intent on opening it, only to pause as I reached for the handle. A quick check on Lucy confirmed that my disguise was still in place - for whatever good it did, in the face of her earlier brazen declaration of her identity - but the fact that nobody had seen her enter my room might potentially cause an issue if the maids saw her. If I was lucky, they'd merely assume I'd snuck her in for whatever reason.
Still, to be safe... "If anyone asks, you're my secret lover.
Not
the enemy of my people and the symbol of Humanity's supposedly righteous demand for my peoples' end."
"Um... I don't mind keeping my identity hidden from strangers," Lucy assured me, "but aren't secret lovers supposed to be...
secret?
Won't it be strange if I just tell people that?"
"No, it's a good plan," Nivera interjected. "Trade one juicy secret for another. Give people something to gossip about... People might question it - I mean, no offense to my sis, but someone actually
wanting
to date Illa is a bit of a stretch around these parts - but whatever conspiracy theories they come up with are probably going to be way off the mark. Like maybe Devilla's getting coaching on being a nice person, or something..."
"Isn't that a bit rude to Eena?" Lucy asked, the corners of her lips curling downward.
"Rude, but accurate," Abigail replied on her behalf. "People
really
don't like her."
"She made enemies with the people who are supposed to make her look good and never replaced them," Chloe helpfully added. "They've been actively tanking her reputation since she was a kid."
"Not that I didn't deserve it..."
"You didn't!"
"You totally didn't, though?"
"Do you
have
to put yourself down all the time?"
"You really didn't, dear."
"I don't think anyone deserves that, Eena..."
"Yes, well..." I muttered, cheeks flushed in their wake of their chorus of support, "I really should answer the door, regardless..."
As if on cue, the knock came again. This time, I promptly opened it - only to immediately wish I hadn't. The woman on the other side was one I knew well, after all. With her pitch black hair - which was always perfectly straight, without a strand out of place - and her unblemished skin, her flawlessly trimmed nails and her just... general
perfection.
Not that my form was any
less
perfect, I suppose, but there was just something about her that put me on edge... Maybe it was the way she carried herself, with ease and grace, or the way she spoke, her voice never carrying a hint of hesitation.
Maybe I was just jealous. Maybe that's the real reason why I stripped her of so much of her power, taking her responsibilities and delegating them to Sylvanna. She was meant to be the leader of the Generals - the one who watched over them, kept them in line, and made sure they properly managed their territory. Yet now it was Sylvanna who toiled to make sure everything went smoothly, who kept everyone in line.
It was... probably worth an apology, on my part. Yet something in me rebelled at the very notion. She was the one who sat back and watched while the Generals used me, despite it being within her power to stop it. The one who stood by as I gave orders she must have known would be terrible, without ever saying a word. She just
looked at me
. Everyone always said that she lacked emotion - some even claimed that she was incapable of it. Yet the look in her eyes whenever she saw me... the sheer
contempt
with which she regarded me... There was no way she lacked emotion.
...All of that was just an excuse though, wasn't it? A way to avoid the truth. The fact that I stripped a girl of her authority out of nothing but petty jealousy and anger... My problems were my own, after all. How could I blame her for not solving them on my behalf?
I knew that. Yet, somehow, when I looked at her, I couldn't meet her eyes. I couldn't stand to see the derision in her gaze, even if I deserved it...
Instead, I forced a smile to my lips and hoped she wouldn't notice that I was staring right
beneath
her eyes as I greeted her. "General Doll. What an unexpected pleasure."
"Queen Devilla." As always, her voice was flat and emotionless, almost robotic in nature. I wanted to call it creepy, but perhaps that was simply my bias against her speaking.
...It's odd how different people could affect you. Sallina, for example, had a way of making me feel like a child before her. One in need of comfort. Lucy, by contrast, had a habit of turning me into a flustered mess. Doll, on the other hand? Well, I suppose she didn't so much change me as reveal me for what I was - in her presence, I felt more than ever like the selfish brat I had been growing up. Getting jealous and calling her creepy when she hadn't even done anything to me... I suppose some part of me couldn't stop seeing her as... as... I don't know. An enabler of abuse? A terrible person, who stood by and watched with disgust in her eyes as a little girl dug herself deeper and deeper into a pit she would never be able to escape from? I just had this urge, whenever she was around, to take all my problems and shove them in her face. To scream and cry and ask what I did wrong to deserve everything I went through... as if the things that happened to us in life had anything to do with what we did or didn't deserve.