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The next day, Rael was a busy man. Silmaria sat back and watched him with a sort of amused fascination. After a long night of rest, Rael was renewed and overflowing with energy and robust health. They'd discussed with disappointment how much of the bear meat was going to go to waste as its spoiling became eminent, but Rael gave a good effort at consuming as much of it as possible that morning. Silmaria was shocked and very nearly appalled, and couldn't quite keep herself from laughing at the Nobleman as he ate more and more. He was a big, hearty man, true, and she'd always known him to have a healthy appetite, but this was something else.
"How are you not even sicker than you were before? I mean gods, you've got to be close to your own body weight in bear meat right now. And none of it's terribly fresh. And you weight quite a lot anyway," Silmaria said with a laugh.
Rael chuckled softly around the mouthful of bear he was already working on, swallowed it, and gave her a wry smile. "This is pretty normal for me after a Mending. My body uses a huge amount of energy and resources. I have a lot to replenish. I could eat for days."
"Good to know. I guess if this kind of thing ever happens again I'll have to find another bear to feed you," Silmaria said with a playful smirk. "Maybe a fresher one."
"It's passable," Rael smirked. Then made a face. "For the moment."
Finally eating his fill, Rael then spent time stretching, working the last of the ache from his long limbs until he moved free and limber once again. Silmaria watched him with admiring eyes for a time, then rose and joined him. It felt good to stretch and work out some of the stiffness from her joints and muscles. She'd not realized how much the cold had made her body tight and stiff and achy.
By the time they were done, Silmaria felt truly better. Her body was back to the usual easy grace she hadn't even realized was being sapped away by the cold and cramped conditions of the cave. Rael and Silmaria sat around the small, crackling fire, and Rael studied their remaining supplies with a grim look on his face.
"We only have another day or two of firewood left. I don't think I would chance the meat past tomorrow, and we have no other food. Water won't be a problem. But we can't stay here any longer. Even as much as the cave is holding onto the heat from the fires, it won't take long for the cold to settle back in here after the fire runs out. After that, the rest of our stay is going to be cold, wet, and hungry. And probably very short."
"What do we do?" Silmaria asked.
Rael looked out the gaping cave entrance, past the long crystalline teeth hanging from the gaping cave maw, shining and pointy and transparently dangerous. The storms raged outside, the wind howling like a mournful beast searching for prey to devour. Snow and ice flittered and flurried, an undulating wave. A billowing shroud of white washed emptiness happily swallowing the world.
A muscle jumped in his firmly set jaw, and his silver eyes went hard with conviction. "We'll have to brave the storm."
Silmaria held silent as she stared at him, studying the contours and angles of his handsome, strong face, the solidness of his jaw and determination of his brow.
"Going out there may be the end of us," she said slowly in a tone that was not a question.
Rael met her eyes. "Yes," he said simply, for there was no hiding that truth, and no way to soften the blow of it. "But at least that way, there's a chance. Better to struggle on and take our chance in the blizzard than to face a slow, starving, frozen death in here."
The Gnari girl took a deep breath, then stood. She went to him, and sat in his lap with her head curled to his chest. "I don't want to die. Not after I've finally found something and someone who makes me truly alive."
Rael wrapped his arms around her, and he was a warm, solid, comforting shelter around her, his strength rushing into her through his touch and the steady beating of his heart against her cheek.
"Then we just won't die," he said.
Silmaria smiled a grim smile tinged with foolish hope. "Simple as that, huh?"
He reached up and ran thick, roughened fingers through the blackness of her curls. "Yes. If you think about it, when we put all other details and factors aside, living is the simplest thing anyone does."
"You'll have to teach me how to see the world in such simple shades of black and white someday," she mused as her eyes grew heavy. Silmaria hardly understood how they could talk about something so frighteningly real and immediate as their own mortality, and yet she felt utterly relaxed and calm and at peace. She should be terrified. On some level, in some part of herself, Silmaria was positive she was.
But Rael was here, and his arms were around her, and he was alive and well and strong. She didn't know if she could feel any less calm and centered and right if the bear had come surging back to life just then.
"Oh, the world is full of more shades of gray and blackest black and purest white than I have words for," Rael chuckled softly into her ear in that deep, rumbling tone his voice took when he spoke quietly, for her ears only.
"But in the end, in matters of battle and survival, so much of the grays and shades between can be filtered down to two very simple absolutes. The blackest black, and the whitest white. Die, or live. Death, or life.
"I choose life," he explained somberly. "For both of us."
"A good choice, my Master," Silmaria nodded slowly. She turned her gaze, quiet and serene and trusting, up to Rael's intense, focused silver eyes. "I trust you, my love. And if you choose life by going into the roaring mouth of a wintery old god, then that's what you choose, and I can do naught but follow."