She wasn't in the
saeda
. Daemon eyed the maidservant who had informed him of this, still caught in her respectful bow. "What do you mean, she isn't here? She's always here at this time!"
"I do not know, Majesty. I'm sorry. She has not returned from the Imperial University, yet."
"Well, is she still there?" he asked, feeling his heart thump unevenly in his chest. After this morning's argument, he'd done a lot of thinking, though very little had been resolved in his mind. Some things, yes, but little else of his confusion.
"I will go check, Your Majesty." Another bow, and the woman hurried away.
Daemon looked around the grandly decorated foyer of the Consort's suite, then headed up the stairs with a sigh, retreating to Sunny's private study. Gilded artworks and costly fabrics weren't his Sunny. Datacrystals and reference tomes were. Entering the room, he crossed to her chair and dropped into it, eyeing the scattering of rods and pads on the surface of her desk. Idly picking one up, he turned the transparent rod over and over in his fingers, thinking.
How angry was she, this morning? Angry...angry enough to leave me? She knows she isn't a slave. She's within the reach of the Pax Imperium; there are no slaves. All she'd have to do was assert her legal rights, and I'd have no way to keep her here. Astor...please let her not have left me!
At first, he'd been overwhelmed by his lusts for her, lusts which hadn't been roused by any other woman with any real strength for nearly a year. He'd hidden it from everyone, performing almost mechanically when necessary, but Daemon's libido had slowly been dying out, leaving him disinterested in sex. Still capable of performing, thank Astor, but unable to summon his prior levels of enthusiasm.
Until Sunny. She'd revitalized something within him that was as necessary to an Astorran male's sense of sexuality as religious rites were to a Craidan's. But the fear of her abandoning him had nothing to do with the prospect of a future with little true desire. No, the anxiety was entirely placed in his heart.
I did right, instinctively naming her Consort. She's enslaved my soddering heart.
Tapping the crystal against the blotter on her desk, he wondered what he should do about that. She was funny, vivacious, intelligent, beautiful, audacious, witty, knowledgeable, sexy...just hearing her voice today in Council had made him ache with two needs: the hardening of his loins, and the desire to just sit and listen to her forever.
What he wanted most of all, Daemon acknowledged ruefully, was to be able to listen to her forever. Eventually his libido would fade—hopefully at the correct age, somewhere in his seventies—and when it did, well, modern medicine ensured that most people lived to see a healthy centennial birthing-day. That left roughly thirty years of...what? Without sex, a relationship had to rely upon other values. Compatibility, trust, a shared sense of humor, intellectual stimulation...they were compatible, they shared the same sense of humor, she intellectually stimulated him—soddering hell, she challenged his mind!
Yes, she challenges my authority and my decisions, but in a way that opens my eyes to the way these worlds
should
be run, under the hand of a caring, competent leader.
That was one of the other reasons why he needed her. Daemon hadn't expected to be thrust into the position of king. He was beginning to enjoy the work, knowing he had the power to make wise, helpful decisions, but he wasn't trained for these decisions. Not as fully as his brother Trevid had been. Daemon had been given a certain amount of training in statesmanship, but only as a contingency. He wasn't supposed to inherit the throne through the deaths of his father and brother, who should have lived to a ripe old retirement age, allowing a nice, orderly succession to the throne of Trevid's firstborn daughter or son. Modern medicine could take care of almost any ailment, after all...save for a snapped neck, of course. Or a badly trampled body.
He pushed away those thoughts. His most important problem was his quarrel with Sunny, and how to repair the rift between them, not his lingering questions over his family's misfortunes.
She wants a relationship of equals. Yet she's not royal, nor even noble. The only way we could have a relationship of equals is if she were to be my Queen, and Astorran law is very clear on that point: royalty must marry either royalty or nobility.
...
Am I, or am I not the king? Can I not just repeal the silly law?
he wondered suddenly.
Well, I'd probably have to get my Council to ratify it; without their support, it'd be a hard battle against a millenia of tradition. Or...or I
could
have her ennobled.
Now there's an idea.
Yes, that would be the easiest way, really, even though I'd have to get five nobles to agree to the elevation. No fighting against tradition, laws, or their ratifiers. I just have to explain to her that I cannot marry her unless she's nobility, then tell her I'm going to see that she's made a noble, and...and beg her to be my Queen.