Authors notes:
Another fine editing job by taco1086: Thanks Larry
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Bob took a deep breath and let it out slowly. He shook his head and sighed deeply. "If you ladies will excuse me, I have a lot of thinking to do." He turned and walked out the front door without another word.
Everyone looked at Cassandra with shock and concern. "Something's not right. Are you sure he's okay, Sweetie? Maybe you should go after him," Aphrodite said.
"He needs some time alone right now, Mom. He doesn't want us to see how bad he's hurting. Now that everyone's safe again, he can finally let himself feel his pain and grief. He blames himself for all the lives lost in Tranquility. Especially the Atlantians and his children. We all know it wasn't his fault. But he's not quite ready to accept that yet. The best thing I can do is to give him the time he needs. Trust me, I'll know when to go to him."
Bob sat in the sand at the waters edge as the tears streamed down his cheeks. The dolphins swam close to him and softly chattered their condolences before swimming away and leaving him to deal with his grief in his own way. "It's all my fault that they're all dead. I abandoned my post and left them all to be slaughtered like animals. If I hadn't gone on that stupid shakedown cruise they'd all still be alive. Some fucking guardian I turned out to be, I can't even protect my own unborn children and their mothers. Look at all the suffering those fucking Trogs caused and I was just to blind to see it. What the fuck's wrong with me?"
Suddenly Cassandra appeared standing next to where Bob was sitting. "THAT'S ENOUGH OF THAT BULLSHIT," she thundered. "It's one thing to grieve. That I can understand. But right now you're just wallowing in self-pity and I won't stand for that! Get your head out of your ass and think! You're not the only one that lost friends and family. Every single one of us has lost people we loved dearly. Take a fucking second and think about poor Stacy! She's lost her entire family. Do you know where she's at right now? Do you even care? You're so wrapped up in your own private pity party you forgot all about her didn't you? Well I didn't. I had to go looking for her. I found her lying on the ground in the rubble between the hospital and her parents clinic sobbing in grief. Right now she's in the damn bedroom being comforted by everyone but the one person who matters most.
When you finally get your shit together maybe you'll figure out that nobody, not even the boss, saw this coming. According to the laws of creation, her and that monster aren't supposed to track each other. It wasn't until after I nearly killed the fucking thing that she was able to see that he was actually in creation itself. Sure she has the power to track it, but doing that defeats it's purpose. Creation has to be balanced to work right.
You know I love you with every fiber of my being. I wouldn't be talking to you this way if it wasn't absolutely necessary. You also know that every word I've said is the truth. You are the guardian of creation, we can't afford for you to fall apart. I can't do my job and yours too. It's okay to cry. It's okay to grieve. Hell we're all feeling the same things. But a fucking pity party does nobody any good, especially you. So either get it together, or quit. I'll stand beside you no matter what. I'll be inside whenever you make up your mind." With that, Cassandra turned and walked away.
At first Bob was pissed that Cassandra was talking to him like she was. But as she continued to speak; he realized that she was right. His anger turned to shame when it hit him just how badly Stacy was hurting. He knew he wasn't going to quit. That wasn't who he was. But he had neglected one of the most important women in his life. That was something he couldn't forgive himself for. There was simply no excuse. He stood brushing the sand of himself as he slowly walked back to the castle with his head down.
He hugged Cassandra kissing her softly. "Thank you. You were right, I needed to have my ass reamed out. I love you, but I need to go to Stacy now. I should've been there for her a lot sooner."
Cailin appeared in the dining room doorway. "Damn right you should've been there. Stacy's been exposed to the corrosive chemicals the Trogs used to fuel their missiles. She's dying! Kadir's got Stacy's spirit trapped inside of Stacy's body. Selena and Asimah are doing all they can to heal her but it's not enough. Stacy doesn't want to live anymore."
Instantly Bob and Cassandra both ported to the bedroom.
"Cassandra, you help Selena, and Asimah. I'm gonna link minds with Stacy," snapped Bob.
"Stacy Honey, I need you. Please don't go. I love you. I'm sorry I wasn't here for you earlier. Honey, please don't let those monsters take you away from us too. I know how you feel. I lost a lot today just like you.
"I'm so sorry, Master. It's just... my whole family... it hurts so much... I don't know if I can pick up all the shattered pieces of my life. I know how much you've lost. All those poor mothers and their unborn babies. I wish I could make it all go away for you but I can't. I love you too, Master, with everything that's a part of me. But I loved my family too and now they're gone, all of them. I'm not sure I can handle living knowing the horrible way they died."