I pulled the Nervegear helmet off and just lay in bed for a moment, shaking. The feelings, the sensations I'd felt in the virtual world of Coramandel still lingered, ghost-like, in my mind, and I thought for a second I could taste Coraline's juices in my mouth, feel the ache between my legs where Razor had fucked me.
Cautiously, I reached down between my legs just to make sure I had a penis. It was there, and harder than I could ever remember it being before. I thought about jerking off, but then my alarm went off and I knew that I had to get ready for work. I slapped ineffectually at my phone until I got the alarm off, then stumbled over to the bathroom, turned on the light, and stopped to look in the mirror.
For a moment, I expected to see Audrey's long dark hair and delicate features, but instead there was just plain old me: brown hair, blue eyes, and a beard that needed trimming. It was all I could do to shave with my trembling hand, take a shower, and get out the door.
The entire drive to work, as I blinked my eyes against a return to sleep and the boredom of the usual rush hour traffic jam, I kept having to adjust my dick in my pants. It didn't seem to make much sense, but every time I thought about how hard I had cum last night, my cock stirred to life. The thought of a man's dick inside me, a man fucking me, should have turned me off, but the memory of how that thing felt churning at my insides sent the blood right to my crotch. When I parked, I had to take a moment to let my erection wither before I could get out of the car and walk in.
By the time I walked down the aisle to my cubicle, Natalie was already at her desk and in her chair. Today, she was wearing tight black work slacks and a white blouse; I could make out the faint lines of her bra underneath the thin fabric, and even what had happened last night couldn't keep my eyes from drifting down over her shoulders to where the upper slopes of her pale breasts were just visible.
"Hey, Devin," she called over her shoulder as I set a cup of coffee down on my desk and sat. My eyes wandered to the thin fabric of her slacks, pulled tight across her ass, as she stood up, then bent down to futz with her constantly near-broken printer. Natalie was petite but shapely, and I enjoyed looking at her as much as talking to her, though I tried not to stare. Something was different today: as I glanced at her ass, I suddenly wondered what kind of panties she was wearing. Was it a lace thong, like Audrey had worn in Coromandel last night? Could she feel the soft fabric on her pussy, and was the back riding up her ass? I remembered what that felt like, how every step, every little movement had made me aware of my - of Audrey's - vagina.
I shook myself, took off my coat, and did my best to get to work. But throughout the day, whether at on the phone or during my lunch break, memories of what had happened inside the virtual world kept creeping back into my thoughts. The lingering images and feelings of Coraline in her lingerie, or the tangy taste of the flesh between her legs, or her wet tongue wrestling with mine: those things brought a smile to my face, even while I tried to concentrate on answering customer questions. I couldn't wait to get back in game and look the shapely Deathknight up - I wanted to see her again, to talk to her, to fuck her. I wondered if she'd be willing to let me log in as Lucian and slide a cock into her tight pussy...
But every time I thought of Coraline and the amazing sex we'd had, I also couldn't help but remember what had happened with Razor. When I'd made Audrey, I'd done so with the intention of playing her as a lesbian, because I thought it would be easier to find another female character for sex if I wasn't one of the many male characters in game. I'd known I was likely to find guys hitting on me, but I'd resolved I could just ignore them or tell them to leave me alone. I certainly hadn't intended... what had happened.
Once again, I felt a hand cupping my ass, and then that bizarre sensation of something - I tried not to think the word 'penis' - pressing into me. I'd once had to have a doctor check my prostate, and I'd always thought being penetrated would feel like that - a cramping, sharp pain you tried desperately to scramble away from. But as a woman, that wasn't at all what taking something into my vagina had felt like. There'd been that burning pressure at first, yeah, but then, once my body started to give way and part around him, the initial pain had... not been replaced, exactly, but somehow overwhelmed by a feeling of satisfying, stretched fullness. And cuming as a woman... not once, but three fucking times, which I'd never been able to do in one night as a man, was amazing. And for some reason, even though I'd never gotten turned on by the thought of a man before, I'd cum the hardest with a cock inside me. Was this what it was like, I wondered as I glanced over at Natalie, her eyes fixed on her computer screen, for a woman?
So did this mean I was secretly gay, I wondered in between calls that afternoon. The whole day had passed in a fog, as all I could think about was virtual sex. But now, with only an hour left in my shift, the prospect of actually logging back in to Coromandel was looming closer and closer, and I had to decide what I was going to do. Was I going to log in as Lucien, my male Deathknight? He had earned more experience than Audrey and was a higher level, with better gear, and I could go out and grind some quests. Maybe I would even be able to get a girl to talk to me, this time.
Or... or I could log back in as Audrey. She was a starting character, even if I'd spent a little real-world cash into upgrading her gear, and I'd have to be real careful if I actually went off on a quest with her, because I'd built her to look good, much more than to fight monsters. But playing her, I'd already gotten lucky once, and made a connection with an absolutely gorgeous Deathknight. And I seemed to have made a quest buddy in Razor, who was good in a fight... but after last night, I had a feeling he was going to expect me to be more than just a quest buddy. Christ, I'd fucked him the same day I'd met him. In real life, that would make me an utter slut. Did the same standards apply in game? Would he expect me to fuck him anytime he wanted, now? If he did, what would I do? Just say no? The very thought of facing him again curled low in my stomach like an icy snake, and I had to close my eyes to fight off panic.
"Devin, you feeling ok?"
My eyes snapped open, and I looked over at Natalie. She was leaning forward, and the collar of her blouse hung down just enough that I could see the very edge of a white bra cup. I shook myself and looked up to meet her eyes. The dark makeup she'd put around them made it look like she had even bigger eyes than she did.
"Yeah, I..." I hesitated. "Actually, no not really. I didn't sleep all that well last night."
"You've been real quiet all day," she said with a nod. "Only about half an hour left."
I looked over at the clock; she was right. I'd spaced out again. "Good. I can't wait to get home."