- Chapter 2
"Damn you, Tito."
Tito was used to hearing the line -- he'd been trouble as a child -- but he didn't mind when it came from Beverli. Especially when she was gorging on the cornbread he'd brought for her.
The pair sat behind a white picket shed, where the gardeners housed their tools. Before them was a small hill that dropped a few dozen feet - leading to the shortcut Tito often used - which gave an incredible view of the city before them. Toredil was a massive sprawling city, nestled among acres and acres of rolling hills. Built over many centuries, it was a chaotic mess with little organization except in the newer sectors. Huge gothic churches stood next to ruined slums. Old, familial estates stood next to industrial factories and academies. Kingdoms would come and go, but the city stayed strong and proud.
The only place that stood out in the chaos was the Knight's Gear - the enormous plot of land near the middle of the city. Buildings that stood fourteen stories tall were packed in a super structure the shape of a large gear, and at the very center, in the shape of an axis, was a tall, broad, twenty three story building, towering over the entire city. The work of engineering and magic ingenuity was the city's magnum opus to the industry that thrived, and housed the High King himself. His subjugates and Knights resided, trained, and studied in the buildings around. Or, that's what the said. Nobody outside of the pact had been inside.
"It's a beautiful city," Tito said absentmindedly, filled with awe. He blinked and looked back at Beverli. "Sorry, did you say something?"
She raised an eyebrow, but didn't reply, her mouth full of cake. Tito just laughed.
A moment later, she swallowed the bread, putting down the plate and utensils. "Why do you keep bringing me cornbread?" She asked suddenly. "You know i'm not gonna marry you because you bring me food."
Tito grinned and shrugged. "I can sure try." When she continued her flat stare, he added, "It's nice to have someone to talk to. You know, who wasn't born into all of this. Glamour."
She still eyed him quizzically, but seemed to accept his answer, leaning back on her arms. "I think we're hardly similar, Tito."
"Really? Hadn't noticed." Beverli kicked him, making him laugh again. "Ok, yes, I know that. But..." he paused, grimacing slightly. "Don't get me wrong. I'm so grateful for Lucienne and Rummi and all. They're beautiful, amazing people. But, there's something down to earth about you. You know what's real in life, I think. You've experienced the rich and the destitute."
She didn't respond, looking out at the city. The sun had just set, and Tito realized as he saw the deep orange glow reflect in her eyes, and the soft breeze blowing her tightly curled hair, how pretty she was. Not like he'd felt in the past. There was a richness behind her eyes. Pain, but also wisdom.
Beverli turned to him. "What happened with your parents?"
Tito blinked. It was a blunt question, though the forward was made sense coming from Beverli. He was more surprised that she asked about his parents; she'd never asked about his personal life previously. Then again, he'd never been very open about it.
He prodded in his mind the memories of his parents - specifically his mother. He didn't often think about her. It hurt to do so. But he did so anyways, a small wave of pain seep over him.
Tito exhaled. "My mother, she died a few years back. She was a city officer. She died in the field."
He looked back up at Beverli. "Didn't know my father much. He's probably still alive out there, if he hasn't drunk himself to the grave. I don't think he was a good man."
Beverli was still staring at him, her expression unchanging except a slight squint, her thoughts indiscernible behind her eyes. She eventually looked away, towards the bustling city that grew darker by the minute. "I'm sorry."
He wasn't sure if she meant it in condolence or an apology for asking, but he assumed the former. "It's alright. It was a while ago." Though time alone didn't seem to fix much for him, except give him the chance to distance himself from the trauma. "My mom was amazing. Very tough on me, I think, and always wanted to help me become an officer myself. But I love her for it." He smiled slightly, remembering his mother tenaciously explaining the dangers of the city and it's need for protection from the dangers.
"And now you're a clockmaker," Beverli said softly, still looking at the city. Tito didn't think she meant it to hurt, but the reminder that he couldn't - or just didn't - do what his mother wanted him to do, her greatest wish, was a sharp pain in his heart.
Beverli turned back to him. "I think you would make a good officer, anyway."
Tito wasn't sure if she was trying to be encouraging or something else entirely, but the words made a small part of him happy. A memory seeped into his mind of practicing sword skills with his mother, with wooden arming swords. He was probably thirteen at the time, and he had just struck his first hit against his mother during the spar, against the bottom of her calf. His mother had frozen before bursting into tears, hugging him, smiling and laughing. He hadn't understood why she had cried that day.
I think i get it now, he thought as he felt a tear sprout from his eye, rolling down his cheek. He smiled wryly, a mix of pain, regret, and bittersweet nostalgia flowing into his chaotic mind. He wiped the teardrop away, and looked back at Beverli, who was still staring intently at him.
He wanted to ask about her own life - he often had before, only to be rejected - but before he could even think to ask, she spoke on her own volition, turning away. "My mother is a great woman, who has done great things for a great many people. She has many virtues. Fidelity was not one of them." She paused, seeming to draw something in herself. "I was born from that infidelity. And she didn't want me."
Sorrow filled Tito, compounded by his own. He couldn't imagine how that would feel. Being unwanted by your own mother. Despite any shortcomings his own mother may have had, she always made sure he knew she loved him, and that he was her world. Even after she died, Lucienne had been more than willing to take him in, even if she didn't treat him like her own. And the grumpy elder that Huli was, she always made sure Tito worked hard and knew he was helpful and wanted. But to have your own mother, reject you, because of a mistake she made?
"... I'm... sorry." He said. He knew it wouldn't do much, but he wasn't sure if there was much he could do. He looked her back in the eyes, looking down on the dark city, and saw the deep pain she was feeling. It hurt to watch, but he made himself watch. He saw the old cracks in her facade she put up. He recognized it himself.
Beverli turned back to him. She gave him a look - not a smile, but an expression of understanding and appreciation. "Thank you. It's been a long time since i've talked about this with anyone." She looked back out to the city one last time before slowly standing up. "I... I should get back. Still have duties to finish."
Tito nodded and exhaled, smiling softly. "Life always comes back to bite, eh?"
She raised an eyebrow. "For most of us. Haven't seen you put in an ounce of effort to anything in your life, except food and pining after girls."
"Oi! Not fair. I'll have you know I'm gardening tonight." He threw her a grin. "Plus, I don't need to put in effort with girls. Im a natural!"
Beverli laughed coldly. "And how many girls have you slept with?"
"One actually!"