Content Note:
Incest
Following my betrayal of Freya, I fell into a depression so deep and dark that it's a wonder I ever pulled myself out of it. For months I barely spoke to a soul, and had my degree subjects been any less introspective than classical music and Romantic poetry, I doubt I would have passed at all, let alone achieved a distinction. That success was a first stepping stone, another was being invited to stay with my friend Charlie.
I say friend. We were in some of the same classes together, and his determination to lift my mood did provide some moments of levity. I accepted his offer to stay with him because the alternative was to return to Kell Island, and I had not yet overcome my bitter resentment towards my family, and towards Rosa.
Ux Island was beautiful, much like Kell Island but somehow wilder and friendlier. It was a glorious place to take long walks through orchards and alongside rivers, and I was free to sleep as late as I wished. There was so much home-grown fruit as well, rich in taste and bursting with joyous life. Charlie's parents, the Musks, were charming too, impossible not to love, and Charlie's two young sisters were a delight to be around. He had a brother too, a year younger than him, who had set off to join the navy, full of excitement for the war. I often wondered if he would serve one day with my Ensign Winter.
I tried to forget Freya, or at least not obsess over her. The temptation every day to see if she lived still, or had died in some horrendous battle, or (far, far worse) met some other young woman or futa to fall in love with and take to the opera and eventually marry. Of course, I learned nothing at all about her, but that didn't stop me from looking.
Day by day I came back to life, to the point that I could smile without hurting and even laugh sometimes with real enjoyment. I still cried myself to sleep each night and resented waking up in the mornings, but there was pleasure in seeing the happiness of others. This idyllic state of affairs nearly came to an abrupt end when Charlie asked me, out of the blue, to marry him.
"What?" I asked. "Why?" I was genuinely confused.
"I love you," he said, as if in explanation. We'd never spoken of love, or even kissed. "Everyone here loves you," he continued, "and I know you like us too."
Which was certainly true, but love? There was only one person I loved and she was lightyears away. "Charlie, I do like everyone here. I wish you were all my family, but I cannot love you as a wife should."
Embarrassed and clearly distressed, he hurried away, leaving me to wonder just how long he had been in love with me, and just what exactly I could do about it.
By a stroke of miraculous fortune, my sister Mara turned up the following day. "So, this is where you're hiding," she said, dumping her suitcase unceremoniously on the floor. "Bad enough that there's no one at Kell worth talking to, I can't walk into a room without worrying I'll find Eliza sucking Dad's cock. 'It's so big, Daddy! Won't you please fuck my tight little cunt and tell me I'm beautiful, Daddy!' It's not even safe to walk in the garden. Yesterday I saw her being fucked by all four gardeners - at the same time! My mind hurts just thinking about it."
"Um, hi Mara," I said, grinning. I'd heard she'd returned to Kell Island, having finished school, and having turned eighteen a few months before. Like Eliza, she had the Elliott beauty, but where Eliza strived for gracious superiority, Mara was too impatient to care for perfection.
She laughed and caught me in an embrace, before pushing me away suddenly. "Please tell me you haven't fucked her. Or him - although I kind of get why you would. It's a fucking monster of cock. I mean even I was tempted - for maybe a nanosecond."
"No, Mara," I said, caught between humour at the question and horror at the idea. "Neither of them."
"Good. Well, don't. Ever." Mara looked around critically at the room she had found me in. It was a large lounge with a view across the garden towards the stream and orchards. The walls had a black and white theme going on with pictures from some team sport that Charlie was obsessed with. "So, who's this Charlie?" she asked. "Are you fucking him? Is he cute?"
"No, and yes," I said carefully, looking at Charlie who had just walked in. He stood awkwardly in the doorway, his cheeks turning bright red.
Mara, never one to apologise, swivelled round to study the man who had been my friend for years and my host for months, and who had proposed to me literally the day before. "Hmm," she said. "He is cute. Can I have him?"
As it turned out, she certainly could.
*
During the long year of my depression, I had scarcely thought about sex once. Wearing a chastity belt was a constant reminder of what I had given up, and a fitting punishment too. Only four people in the universe knew I wore it, and I took great care to ensure it stayed that way. The design was elegant, interlocking metal plates that sat flush with my skin, and far stronger than it appeared. If I needed to pee, I had no choice but to do it through the belt. The plates curved between my bum cheeks in a way that left my ass lewdly exposed, which was convenient for one thing but very suggestive of another.