They arrived at Sirix's camp late the following evening to a hero's welcome. Bonfires and feasts greeted them. The starving and weary refugees set upon the food even as Regar and her team started treating them. Lindsay flashed a smile to Donil who slightly smiled back.
Sirix came up to greet them. Lindsay rushed into his arms. He picked her up and spun her around, planting a kiss on her forehead.
"Here, let me take her," Regar said, helping an elderly woman who hung from Veralosa's neck down.
"I'll help," Donil quickly ducked under the old woman's other arm.
"Would you like me to fix you a plate?" Lindsay asked Donil.
"No, I'll be fine," Donil said, pointedly avoiding Lindsay's gaze as she and Regar walked off with the woman between them.
"Thanks for your help, Veralosa," Lindsay said, forcing a smile despite her troubled heart. She'd been so sure of Donil's feelings just yesterday, but now she seemed painfully distant.
"Glad I was able to. It was good to be able to bury my father," Veralosa said.
"Why don't you help yourself?" Sirix said. "This meal is in your honor, afterall."
Veralosa didn't need to be asked twice. He grabbed two wooden plates and began filling them.
Sirix rubbed his cheek against Lindsay's. "I'm glad you're back. Would you prefer to eat first or would you like to visit my tent?"
Lindsay gazed off in the direction of the hospital. "I suppose I'd like to eat first."
An hour later, they sat on a log watching the fire and Donil had still not returned. Sirix's hand snaked around hers. "Are you ready to come to bed with me?"
She glanced down the path leading to the hospital. "Just a few more minutes."
Sirix's eyes followed hers. "Oh. I see." He threw a stick in the fire. "Donil feels things very deeply but she'll never tell you when something's bothering her. She hates to be a burden on anyone. Which has the unfortunate effect of her putting all the burden on herself. Perhaps you should go talk to her."
Lindsay stared at him, wide-eyed. Was he saying what she thought he was? "Thank you, Sirix." She kissed him and stood, grabbing a flaxa fruit.
"I love you, Indsayee."
"I know," she said with a grin.
"Aren't you going to say you love me?"
"You held out on me, now I'm going to hold out on you."
"Say it!"
She stuck out her tongue. "Make me."
He grabbed for her but she spun away. He laughed. "I promise you, I will."
Lindsay tramped up the path tossing the flaxa fruit up and down. She walked toward the hospital when she noticed Donil's tent glowing in the dark. She must've gone in for the night. Lindsay veered off to her former home.
She knocked on the tent pole. "Donil, I'm coming in."
"No!" Donil cried, but it was too late, Lindsay had already pulled up the flap in time to see her wipe a tear from her cheek as she sat on the braided rag rug that covered the ground.
"I umm, I brought you a flaxa fruit." She held out the fruit.
"Thank you." Donil took it and bit into it. The bite was far too large and her cheeks puffed out as she struggled to chew it. Tears grew along the rim of her eyes, running down her cheeks and splashing onto the rug.
Lindsay wrapped Donil in her arms. "Oh Donil, what's wrong? Is there anything I can do?"
She shook her head. "No."
"Please, tell me what's bothering you. I can at least listen."
"I don't want to."
She stroked Donil's back. "Why not? Is it about me?"
"Y-yes."
"Please tell me. I can't stand for you to be distant from me. I care about you too much."
Donil turned her eyes to Lindsay. The golden specks in them swam like stars reflected in a lake. "I care about you, too."
"Then tell me."
"L-Last night, when I came to bed, you were moaning and you - you said Sirix's name. And-and it was just too much. I can't take it anymore! You love him so much and I... I..." She buried her face in Lindsay's shoulder.
"I wasn't dreaming about Sirix."
Donil looked up at her. "You weren't?"
"No, it was just a weird sex dream, but I promise you he wasn't in it. I just accidentally screamed the wrong name."
"You did?"
"It didn't make my dream lover very happy either."
"Who was it?"
"No one important. Someone I've never even met in person." There was no way she was going to tell her she dreamed about the third prince of the Nobillo! "My body was just frustrated and took it out on my dreams." She took a deep breath. It was now or never. "Because the person I wanted to be with was working late."
Donil's brow wrinkled, creasing in the middle just above her nose. "Who do you mean?"
Of course. She'd never believe it unless Lindsay outright said it. "Donil, I mean you. I wanted to be with you."
"Me? Why?"
"Because, you're amazing. You're the most amazing woman I've ever met." Lindsay's voice was heavy in her throat. But she had to say it. She had to get it all out. To let Donil know exactly how she felt. "You're smart, you're kind, you're beautiful! You're so beautiful... The way you look at me, the way you smiled at me when you saved my life... I was hoping, maybe you might want me, too."
She heard Donil gulp.
"I want you," Donil said. "More than anything. I've been avoiding Sirix just in case. But how do we..."