A Prince of the Nobillo
Chapter 17: Coffeehousing
They walked back to the palace in silence. Lindsay stared at the ground. What was there to even say that she hadn't shouted as Rivuk pulled her from the Temple? She'd made such a scene, but she couldn't even begin to feel bad about it.
To think that was the place where Carak was made. Her hand snaked around Carak's arm, feeling the muscle and sinew. Such a good man from that hellhole? It didn't even seem possible. Made in a factory, raised to kill and die, valuable only for his parts and what he could do for the races who made him. He and all the other Children of the Immortal.
She understood, now, why Rivuk wanted to wipe all three of their races from Okeshi. How could anyone with a soul look at that place and think anything else?
They reached the entrance.
"Do you want me to stay with you tonight?" Rivuk asked.
Lindsey nodded.
"Carak, thank you for your services today. I can take her from here."
"Yes, your grace," Carak replied.
Lindsay switched her hold to the arm of her husband, letting him lead her to the tower.
"Are you hungry?" he asked, shutting the door.
Lindsay said nothing.
"Neither am I."
"I'd like to go to bed, now," she said.
"I understand." He scooped her into his arms and flew her up to the loft landing, letting her down with him curling behind her in the bed. He embraced her tightly to himself.
"How much trouble did I cause you?" she asked, finally.
He pressed his lips against the back of her neck. "Some. We'll see how much in time. They won't want to push it until it's to their advantage. There will be the written apology from me, of course. That is unavoidable. Possibly a public one, depending."
"I'm sorry, I should have controlled my temper. Now they'll cause you problems all because of me," she said.
"It's understandable that you would react that way. I'll admit, I would have preferred if you could have flounced out of the room, rather than having me carry you. But the Korsuch don't matter, not to the Nobillo. So don't worry. We'll do what is required to appease them and life will go on."
She felt his kisses spread across her shoulders. How could he still be feeling so much love for her when all she felt was dead inside? His body shifted and he clasped her tighter to him. His love radiated into her. And she felt nothing. "Thank you, Rivuk," she said as she closed her eyes, pretending to be asleep until sleep finally found her.
She awoke some hours later. What had woken her, she could barely remember. A vision of a wooden door. It felt familiar, like she'd seen it somewhere in the palace before. It seemed to call to her soul, as if she should go and find it. Now.
No.
That's how she ended up here in the first place, by following late night visions. And she was tired. What was a stupid door going to tell her that was so important it couldn't wait until morning?
She felt a dull ache in her bladder.
She sighed. Fine, she thought. Guess I'll get up.
She carefully loosened Rivuk's hold, enjoying the little half-roused grunts he gave as he moved aside, and made her way up the stairs, stopping at the balcony when the bright light of the giant orange moon arrested her attention, the paler, yellow moon a tiny ball just inside its massive shape. She stepped out, leaning over the railing as the warm, sandy wind blew across from the canyon cliffs. The desert had a strange, painted appearance in the moonlight. Strips of black sand glowed with luminescent greens and yellows.
She searched the sky for the Milky Way, the light from the city and the moons making it hard to see the stars. She squinted. Maybe it just wasn't there. A chilling loneliness seeped into her heart. She hugged herself as she shivered. She glanced back into the tower, to the man sleeping in her bed, his loving arms waiting to hold her warm body again.
They would stay cold. She didn't want him.
Memories of the day flooded her mind. There was only one person she wanted to see. Desperately wanted to see. And hold. Her breathing began to quicken. Her eyes darted to his window. It glowed yellow in the darkness. He was still up.
She turned from the balcony, pulling her dress tighter. Up the steps. She shouldn't. Not tonight. A headiness crept into her brain, the air seemed heavier, her breathing fast and shallow. Images of him flashed in her mind. Carak, handsome and noble. She could see him answering the door. See herself...
She flushed the toilet and went to wash her hands. If she went to him, it could be disastrous. She looked up at the blotchy red flush of her face in the gold flecked silver of the mirror, her dark eyes flashing above the flaring nose and bright red lips of arousal.
It was monumentally selfish, she tried to tell herself. But those wise words were drowned out by her need to hold him, to tell him that she loved him. More than anything, she wanted him to know he was wanted, that he was loved and desired. He'd reject her, of course, she couldn't imagine him accepting her, even if he felt the same. But he'd know.
And maybe he wouldn't.
A rush of desire poured over her. She felt his large hands on her hips as she straddled his waist. Would it be his waist? Given what she'd seen, it could be like a human's as well. It didn't matter, as long as he was inside of her. As long as he could watch the ecstasy on her face when he made her cum. As long as she could see his when he came into her. The feel of his chest under her hands. Rock hard, his whole body. She'd been with some jacked men, but not like him. He could probably tear her apart with his bare hands. He'd be gentle, though, as he always was with her. All that strength under perfect control. Under her.
That's not how it will play out, she reminded herself. She wasn't even sure she wanted it to play out that way. But the fantasy of it left her leaning against the curving stone wall of the staircase. She had to do it now, before she lost the nerve. Tell him, let him have the moment, take the rejection, and move forward.
How was another problem. She still lacked the ability to move freely about the castle. The door only responded to the wristbands of those with specific permissions to enter and exit. And only Carak and Rivuk had those. Of course! Rivuk!
She quickly padded down the stairs and ever so gently removed his wristband. He didn't even stir! She'd be gone and back before he even realized it was missing. Probably. She could always apologize for it later. Assuming she didn't screw his hest and there was a later.
This is insane! she thought. I should just put the wristband back on him and go to sleep.
And yet, she didn't.
She walked down the stairs to the door and turned the handle. It opened. She was free!
The large, dark corridors of the palace appeared deserted. She kept to the shadows of the columns, watching for guards. She knew they were there, somewhere. She heard heavy footsteps and ducked behind a column as a pair of guards walked past, she waited until she could no longer hear the clanking of their metal boots.
She was halfway there when she stopped. No. She thought. I'm not doing this. This isn't who I am, sneaking down corridors to confess my love. I've never had an affair and I'm not going to start now. Carak deserves better than the position I'm about to put him in.
"I'll talk to Rivuk about it tomorrow," she whispered to herself. "Tell him the truth. It might hurt him, but maybe... I mean he knows I have other lovers. Maybe he'll be ok with sharing me." She sighed heavily. "Probably not, not even with Carak. But I have to try. Carak would definitely take it better if it came from both of us, anyway."
She turned back in the direction of her tower. He would know. That'd be her only stipulation to Rivuk. No matter what, Carak would know her feelings for him. Either she'd tell him or they'd tell him together, but he'd know. And then they could decide what to do from there. "Yeah, we'll have a nice long talk about it," she said, feeling much more confident.
As she walked, she suddenly heard a dull thumping, her head snapped to the sound and she saw it - the wooden door from her dream! Why was it thumping? She crept closer to it.
"Oh yes, Elihim! Just like that!" a husky voice moaned.
Ugh. Now she remembered that door. It was the door to the first prince's courtyard. And Elihim was having sex with Nylest, Rivuk's first wife, against it.
She heard a low moan and the banging of the door stopped. She rolled her eyes and began to walk away.
"I heard my husband's human whore caused you quite a lot of trouble today," Nylest said.
Lindsay stopped short.
"Yes, it was a complete debacle. Diplomatic suicide. She may be able to charm the people, but if she can't even manage one visit the Temple of the Immortal, she'll never be much of a princess," Elihim said.
"She'll never be a princess. It's no different from having sex with a kiton and calling it a princess. It's an insult to his other wives. What must we be if he would take an animal for a wife? And one of no virtue, at that. Have you seen the absolute barbarity they engage in? She actually put his telson in her mouth! And other places..."
"Disgusting, I know."
"I overheard Boz say she almost got into Project Jericho. Do you think she might have damaged anything?" Nylest asked. Did she know something about Project Jericho? Lindsay stepped closer to the door.