Before the well-ordered ebb and flow of his life had been thrown into chaos by the twin catalysts of
Tiefling
and
Disaster
, he'd always regarded her with mild revulsion. It wasn't her fault of course - she'd been hatched (ah, no, 'born') with squeamishly smooth, shiny skin slicked by sebaceous excretions...but as of late, he'd wondered about its pliant flexibility beneath his fingertips. The very concept of 'hair' was unsettling to him, like needle-thin roots digging from rather than into her skull and gently along her arm, but when soaked with water it took on a different, intriguing shape...and of course, there were the smaller if no-less outstanding details.
The flatness of her maw and the square shape of her teeth - but there, her canines were poignant and sharp.
Those strangely shaped legs, end-capped by cloven hooves, were sleek with corded muscle beneath skin the color of fulminating coal.
Her tail, flared at the tip like a lancehead, lashing over the river water...a ridge of light, articulated plates ran underneath. They drew his attention to the bass of her spine, along the fertile shape of her 'childbearing' hips - he'd asked Gale to elaborate on this word, and had needed some time to...process the horrors of Softflesh reproduction. They tracked down to the teardrop plushness of her posterior.
Z'sairah - for that was the sorceress' name - had distinguished herself from the sea of otherwise near-identical looking Flat-Tooths by her physicality alone; comfortably familiar features amidst all the hirsute, alien physiology (he'd spotted lovely crimson scales, tantalizingly, along her inner thighs and scapular lines!).
She was a terrifying, chaotic mess of an individual.
From the very beginning he should have known better than to fall in at her side, but the mind-numbing, constant
change
had driven him to stick by the only familiar face in the Sword Coast, and she'd tumbled out of the Mind-Flayer pod at his side into the Nautilus' sickening internals. He could no longer assume that his interpretation of common sense was the same across all rightly thinking beings, driven as she was to try and open every door, box or coffer that fell under her lavender gaze.
That was the least of her eccentricities.
She'd scampered ahead into the humid dark whilst he was desperately working to free the Shar-priestess, and Z'sairah's careless poking at a Mind-Flayer console had metamorphosed a poor human woman into an Illithid - her gargling, agonized shrieks haunted his dreams...and after they'd survived the Nautilus' death-impact, he caught her trying to (unsuccessfully) steal the Sharress' trinket.
Why?!
He'd shrieked desperately at her, not for the first time.
At the ruined crypt, wherein his ragged band - as they'd somehow picked up two other misfortunates - had thought to scrape a few coins together, he'd watched, aghast, as she roasted-alive a poor Halfling and his Elven companion before they'd even greeted one another. He'd just wanted to talk!
Then
she'd somehow tripped over her ungainly hooves, tumbling through a crevice into the depths of the crypt...forcing them to fight the
other
seven bandits within. One of the humans, a blonde-furred creature of immense proportion, had shattered his blade and nearly crushed Astarion into a fine Fey paste, halted only by his own brave intervention; he was
still
picking bits of windpipe from between his teeth.
In that same tomb when the Dead had risen, he'd been busily fending off a skeletal bladesman with the low-quality mattock he'd scavenged from their earlier victims, only for Z'sairah's flensing blasts of ice to carbon-freeze him below the knees.
Praise Chauntea, he'd saved the Sharran priestess from that pod.
Tidbit had long understood that he wasn't the brightest Brass-scale in the clutch, though he'd somehow gotten this far in life before his abduction - how Z'sairah had survived for this long left him puzzled until he witnessed her brutal potency in combat. Gore and blood were a part of his violent life, but the splattered, unrecognizable smears that had once been living, breathing people had, at times, left Tidbit quietly quivering under his blanket.
Their final shrieks echoed in the otherwise quiet cavern of his mind.
He shifted uncomfortably, rubbing his scaled hands together with a rasping sound.
Z'sairah's carelessness had left her...less than popular amongst the members of her party, and he cringed visibly as memories crawled unbidden to the forefront of his orderly mind, one after the other. He'd always been somewhat...oblivious to social cues, and his response had been the adoption of a careful quiet that others described as 'serene'. Z'sairah, on the other hand, well...
"Are you...asking me to -lay- with you, 'Teethling'?! Is this some sickening Fae-Runian attempt at jest?" the Githyanki had never seen fit to modulate her sibilant, harsh voice, and all the way on the other side of camp her rejection had rippled toward him. "NO do NOT interrupt! I would -never- mate with a disgusting, malformed aberration as you, and if I catch your eyes straying I shall string them upon a wire and wear them around my neck. I would sooner fuck the Lizard than you, you incompetent, bumbling -
"
...and she'd not been deterred, either.
"Wait...what, me? With you? What could I have possibly said that would lead you to that conclusion? No, please, explain yourself. This should be amusing." That time he'd been unpleasantly near the two, staring with extreme care at the blade of his mattock as he ran a whetstone over its curve. Shadowheart's voice caused his visage to wilt in the weapon's reflection. "...allow me to reassure you, Z'sairah, I have absolutely no interest or intent to share a bed with you; I seek -fun- from my partners, not whatever venereal diseases you carry -"
She was a persistent creature, he had to give her that, though Tidbit's heart quietly broke for her with each rejection.
"I'm not interested; no, not even if you're the misfortune leavings of some other Ba'atezu a few generations back -"
"Ah...kindly, my dear, I must ask you to leave my bedroll and take your hands off my balls before I incinerate you - "
"Fuck you? Darling I may drink from animals but I don't fuck them - "
Most of these interactions went beyond his experience or understanding as he'd never known love nor romance, nor had he shared lust with a female of his kind, but he was quite familiar with rejection.
Karlach's bloodcurdling screams in the absence of her right leg (ripped off and digesting in the gullet of an Owlbear) reached him all the way from camp, up here by the river; it was a confrontation that they'd nearly avoided, a show of fangs on Astarion's part seemingly cowing the beast before Z'sairah made to snatch a finely made, shining necklace (of pewter) from its nest, driving it into a berserk rage. He just felt...terrible for all of them, in a way. Shamed and shunned, Z'sairah'd insisted that she was going to bathe in the river.
This, of course, being country known for its over-eager and spastic Gnoll population, made a lone night-dip in the water a foolish proposition, and in spite of the party's refusal to accompany her and his own failure to clumsily talk her down, he'd followed the Tiefling to keep watch.
His insanity was threefold: that he'd stayed with this doomed group of strange Softskins, that he'd followed her to the river, and finally these strange feelings he understood to be unbidden attraction.
Maybe all the stress and pressure of being away from the safe predictability of his clan, of eating strange foods that made him sick to his sensitive stomach, of barely escaping with his life from absurd violence was breaking apart his sense of propriety. He hadn't seen another Dragonborn for months, and the simple, obvious thing to do would be to sneak off into the night, leaving this chaos behind to return to his Clan but he
couldn't
- as long as the Tadpole was swimming around behind the flashing sapphires of his eyes, he was a danger to everyone around him.
What if...he just ran into the woods, lived alone, waited for the terrifying conclusion? What if he -
"Tidbit."
Z'sairah's voice was a tether around his throat, yanking him with a ballista bolt's speed out of his own head.
She was standing before him, dripping and nude.