It all started with the dreams. I didn't remember them at first, but I would awake aroused, my cock throbbing and rock hard. I didn't always indulge in my own *release*, at least not right away. It felt good to go throughout the day, with echoes of the dream drifting back to me, at first only fleetingly.
And it was like other people could sense it, too.
I remember having some terrific encounters, with all sorts of folks. It was just flirting, mostly.
One of the first times I noticed I had this effect on people, after having one of my dreams and existing in this kind of *hyper-sexualized state*... This older woman with dark hair practically eye-fucked me, as we were passing on the street. I'm not shy, but for some reason, I didn't turn around and look after she passed, nor did I go back and try and find her. But I *remember* her, and the naked greed that seemed present on her face.
Then again, at least back then I thought, maybe I had just imagined it.
But then it happened again, and again, with different, seemingly random people.
And it wasn't just women. I seemed to have the same effect on men, too (and, I dare say also on... no, no no no, I mustn't speak further). Anyway, this guy kept talking to me one evening while my friends and I were out dancing. I felt a kind of pull from him, and his gaze. At one point, he put his hands on my shoulders and massaged them gently. I don't mind a sensual touch, and was about to say something quite possibly inviting (something made me imagine those lips of his... wrapped around my shaft), but eventually my friends pulled me away and I didn't see him after that.
I seemed to attract sexually-charged people, too. After the funeral of a close relative of a friend, of all things, my friend's aunt held my hand as she was letting me out of the car. She looked into my eyes and offered me her comfort and asked if I needed anything. It wasn't even my relative who had passed away. My friend was in the backseat, and I'm pretty sure he *knew* what she was suggesting. I don't think I quite appreciated older women back then to the same degree, or else I may have taken her up on the offer. It was no surprise when I found out that she liked younger men, but it definitely was a moment that stayed with me for years afterward.
Another time, I was on vacation with some friends, and this much older woman took a special interest in me. My friends dared me to go with her, just to find out what her cabin was like. I wasn't curious enough to find out for myself, but I remember her kissing me unexpectedly out of nowhere, just a peck, but on the lips. I think she laughed at my surprise. I always wondered what it would have been like, but sadly, I was too interested in the younger women that were flouncing around.
The dreams got more intense and they engendered in me a desire for things beyond the typical. I started to have a preoccupation with threesomes and group sex. Anything along those lines, I would find incredibly diverting. I started to realize how open I was sexually, because it really didn't matter the genders involved. It could be all guys, or all girls, or any mixture of sexualities, genders, genitalia. It didn't matter, but the more definitely made me the merrier.
I eschewed more "vanilla" dating, in favor of meeting couples, and genuinely wanted to have a live-in threesome, throuple or group, which remained a fantasy for many years. I came close a few times, and am glad to hear those kinds of situation are more common nowadays compared to back then. The closest time I actually came to making things a reality, I wasn't yet ready to have an instant family. The one couple that did actually invite me to live with them full time were young parents. Unfortunately I don't think I would have been mature enough to be a good third partner and housemate, but I still think about them from time to time, and wonder where they are and what they're doing.
It was around this time that I met my long lost "uncle" Dallien. He wasn't really my uncle, but had been a close friend of my parents when I was growing up. We all used to joke that he was part of the family, until he moved abroad for a few years.
He used to watch all kinds of porn, and most of it was the stuff I liked, or didn't realize I liked. I remember the first time we watched one of his movies together, we were sitting on the couch next to each other and on the screen this lady in lingerie walked out. She had big tits, but down below in her panties was this big bulge. I knew what transgender meant, but this was the first time seeing anything like this.
I remember Dallie's leg was touching mine, and I remember feeling his thigh all warm against me. Although the porn scene was only one on one, it felt so deliciously naughty both of us watching this hot lady getting her big cock sucked. My eyes were glued to the screen, but I could see out of the corner of my eye Dallie was running his hands slowly down and started pulling and stroking at his hardening manhood. My own dick was already hard by this point, wonderfully straining against my clothing, and I could feel the wetness on the tip, soaking into my underwear.
I was nervous, and felt myself shaking in anticipation, as he started touching me all over. He ran his nimble fingers all and up down my body, first brushing his knuckles against a hard nipple underneath my t-shirt, then down along my chest, belly and finally lightly gripping my dripping cock and pressing the palm of his hand over the length of my penis. I think I shuddered and maybe even had a mini orgasm, as on screen the woman with the big cock was spewing cum in slow motion, the big cock head framed against her out of focus tits shaking in her bra. I took a ragged breath as he stroked me again, using his other hand to take my hand and put it on his now freed bare cock.
That first time, we did little more than jack each other off. I remember him being taken by surprise by his orgasm, the cum shooting upward in rivulets and landing on both our bare legs. I remember he used the cum to lubricate his hand as he jacked me off. I think it was the most amazing orgasm I had had up until that point; my cheeks clenched, held up above my rough clothes on the sofa, as I fired load after load out of his fist.
After that, we made it our little weekly ritual. He would come over when no one else was home, and we would watch various porn movies together, culminating in mutual blowjobs or other fun. Sometimes we would 69 and such each other at the same time. There's nothing like the feeling of a spasming dick between your lips, to spur on your own orgasm. But I also loved frotting his cock: his member had such a big and nicely formed head, it looked like this perfect specimen of a man's penis, and felt so good rubbing against mine, especially when it had one or both of our slippery spit or cum all over it.
Our favorite, that we started saving for special occasions, like one of our birthdays, was when he would lay the opposite direction, throwing one leg over mine, so that both cocks were together, length against length, and the most sensitive spots, the glans, touching glans. The first time we did this, he had this elastic rubber pool toy, that was kind of like this stretchy slick thing with water or something inside it, that would be all wobbly and slippery-- almost wriggling away like it was playing hard to get. He would slip both of our cocks inside it, and of course the first time, both of us just groaned right away. It was *just* like being in a single snug orifice at the same time.
I never needed any encouragement, but he would tell me things, things that he did, or wanted to do: sexual escapades, fun stories... deepest, darkest fantasies. He had a thing for twins, and incest. He would take about hot siblings or families we knew or had met, or had just seen in passing. Some of the time, I'd feel guilty afterward for getting turned on by it all, but then I guess he corrupted me, because I started doing it without him.
He told me that one time, he fucked a mother and her adult daughter separately but that one time when they were all drunk and high, convinced them to have a threesome. It sounded like some the best sex he had ever had, although all of them, even he, felt guilty right afterwards. He said that ever since then, though, he always had a fantasy of fucking an entire adult family, either one by one or at the same time: mother, daughter, father, son. I think he said he told the mother and daughter this and they blocked him and wouldn't return his calls.
He introduced me to all kinds of movies, too. Some of his favorites became my favorites: Taboo I and II, Debbie Does Dallas III, The Secret Garden, the Devil in Miss Jones V to name a few. I will say that there's something different about the previous eras' porn films. They're often more *honest* or real somehow than some of the more modern stuff. I don't know what it is.
The next time we did the thing with our dicks together, he had this especially made fleshlight, that was for two cocks. He slid it over us, a little bit of lubricating jelly squirting out from the bottom, and started stroking both of us. It wouldn't be long until we were both cumming into it, and he was just holding the fleshlight still, thrusting and fucking me that way... but the thing was, as the semen filled the interior, I could hear him whispering something: *oh god* and *my mother's name*. I remembered it for a long time after. As we were both cumming, he was whispering her name, over and over.
I don't think of her that way, or at least, I didn't until after *that*. I mean, I knew that he really liked her, and figured they must have had a history or something, but that was before I found out the whole truth.
And this is around the time the dreams started to get *wild*.
In my dream, I was in an orgy. I was receiving a simply gorgeous blowjob, and all around us were naked bodies. I had the notion that if I could stand up and look around at this flat, featureless plain, all around as far as I could see was this endless orgy. I mean, yeah, for someone like me, this literally could be a dream come true. I felt a hard cock thrusting into my right hand and in my left, my fingers were curled around the nipple of a soft breast. I was covered in a mixture of sweat and bodily fluids, as were my companions all around, and the symphony of moans and groans was exquisite.
The thing about it was, it all seemed so real. I remember the rough texture of an elbow that grazed against my thigh. I remember being tickled by the pubic hair of another on my bare upper chest. I felt like I could see every pore on the buttocks that shook as the vulva beneath them engulfed a beautiful cock, of which I had a deliciously close view.