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***
Was this what you wanted for me, Julie?
Or was this what you were trying to stop?
I can feel it in my bones. That he's your son...
And maybe he's right.
Maybe I should have stuck by you... maybe I should have been there.
Maybe I should have done something different...
But what does it matter now?
***
I woke up to a splitting pain in my head.
On my left arm was something warm snuggled up to me, and my right... I couldn't move my right, and I tried not to give it too much thought.
There was no light, only shadows.
Shadows and fleeting sensations.
But every now and then I felt something distinct, like now, as I felt my organ being engulfed pleasurably in warmth and wetness, and I moaned softly, as my meat slid past a pair of lips to meet a teasing tongue.
It was a strangely comforting feeling; being coaxed like that, ever so gently into orgasmic bliss, and another soft groan escaped my lips as I came, before quickly drifting peacefully off to sleep.
***
"Nate! Come on, you can take a break today, can't you?"
Cameron had her hands on her hips, and was studying me with that playful smile of hers that I was becoming so loathe to resist.
"I dunno. There's so much to be done. We survived again, but if we keep riding our luck; sooner or later it's gonna run out."
"I know, but when I miss you, I feel like if I don't care. I just wanna lie in your arms, and watch our baby boy do his baby things, and just... be happy for a moment."
She reached for my hands, then leaned back a bit, swaying girlishly as I held on to keep her from stumbling backwards.
"I'm sorry. I know that I'm sacrificing something that we'll never get back. But it's for the best; I promise. And I won't let our sacrifice go to waste. For every moment I miss, I'll make sure that I secure ten thousand more to come. And when our son grows up; he can enjoy some of those moments of his own."
She let go of my hand, pouting a little, until a mischievous smile crept across her lips.
"We could do that... or we could make another one. When you're ready for this."
"When we're ready for this," I corrected her, leaning in to take her into my arms.
I move in for a kiss, but the dream melted away before I could make contact, as my brain cannot in itself reproduce pleasure so blissful, so pure...
Dreamless sleep is a small mercy that should not be taken for granted
, I thought.
***
I woke up this time to another sensation; lips, again, but this time pressed against my own.
I wanted to kiss them back, but my body would not co-operate.
The kiss was soft. Gentle. Much like the oral stimulation from my previous lucid moment.
But as the kiss ended, I uttered a soft whinnying cry in protest.
Kiss me, my mystery lover. Kiss me until I forget what her kisses tasted like
.
"I cannot let you forget that feeling, my sweet."
Miriam?
If you are awake... make me forget?
Make me forget everything that she felt like.
"Shh. Do not worry. It will be well, but only if you endure this."
It's too much. I promised her that I would hold onto the memory of these feelings; for her... but it's too much...
"It is burden greater than any one person should be made to shoulder. But you are not alone. I am here my sweet, and I carry your loss in my heart. So, endure it; and allow the wound to heal...
But why?
I asked, and I felt her smile in my heart, as she replied:
"Because; you are going to get her back."
***
I opened my eyes, and suddenly found myself in the middle of the forest.
Where am I now?
I thought.
My map and compass modules didn't seem to be working, and as I looked around searching for some clue or indication as to where I was, a voice called out to me.
"Nathan~."
I spun around, as the voice seemed to echo all around me.
"Cameron?"
The sound of laughter came from somewhere off to my left, and as I turned, I spotted a figure running off in the distance, and I quickly gave chase.
She was wearing a hooded robe, and as she darted in between the trees, I noted that there was a playfulness to the way she moved.
"Are you coming to find me, Nathan?"
I spun as the voice seemed to come from somewhere behind me, but as I gave chase, I quickly lost sight of her again.
"Where are you?" I called out, and the sound of laughter drifted to me again, echoing all around.
"Can't tell~," she sang in reply. "Why are you even looking for me? This isn't what we agreed on!"
"What? What does that mean? I said I would come!"
A shadow slipped off to my left, and as I turned, I spotted her and gave chase, but my foot got caught on a tree root, and as I stumbled, I gasped, as my foot suddenly seemed rooted to the floor.
"We made a deal, didn't we Nate? You would be there when I needed you, as long as it didn't cause you any inconvenience. And chasing someone like Ethan? Well that sure seems like an inconvenience to me~."
I looked up as the figure approached me, her face still shrouded beneath the hood of her cape.
"I can't lose you," I replied, and she laughed, circling me slowly, playfully.
"But you might. Even if you bring me back, I might not be the same person..."
I shook my head in response, as I struggled to free my foot from its restraints.
"I don't care. I'll deal with it."
"Will you? What if I lash out at you? Hurt you? What if I blame you for what happened, and grow to hate you because of it? What if I can't stand the feeling of your touch ever again?"
I shook my head.
"I don't care! I'll deal with it. I just want you here; safe. Whatever the cost."