I'm not sure exactly why I'm telling you this... I mean, I'm odd, you know that, if I wasn't I wouldn't be talking to you. Well sure, I'd talk to you otherwise, but not under these circumstances.
No, no... I do consider you a friend, a damn good friend, it's just... well, I don't really talk about this with anyone. I haven't talked about this with anyone other than you and well, I haven't really told you, not really. At least not yet...
Recording? You want to record this? Well, I'm not so sure, I mean... It just all seems so formal that way and uh... I thought this was just an inquiry.
Yeah, I understand I could lose my job, or take a pay cut or something else, but... You really think a recording is necessary. Okay, yeah I see what you mean, in a way it protects me too. I just thought that things, here especially, would be a bit less formal, I mean you're not a policeman, I'm not under arrest.
I know it's serious, especially for a zoo worker, but damn, I mean it's not like... well it is like... bestiality? You know it's not like that, not really, I mean, this is Mars and things are a little different here, at least since the diaspora. I understand we are the new center of civilization and that Earth's pretty much gone feral, but still...
Back to the point? Yeah, okay, back to the point. The point is, I like my job here, I like caring and feeding the animals, especially the Earth species. Yeah they can be dangerous if you're not careful, but I mean those things from Epsilon Two... okay, okay, those creatures from Epsilon Two, they exhale chlorine. At least I can breathe the same air as the Earth animals.
Yes, I worked primarily with the primates, and yes I enjoyed... enjoy it, who of us doesn't. Watch them? Of course, I watch them... oh you mean, well yeah I watch them mate, I mean who doesn't. It's all so raw, animal.
That's right, nothing like us, but then... well I mean we've gotten so disease conscious that, well hell you're barely finished fucking and your girlfriend is up "sanitizing." I mean we don't even touch anymore, at least not bare skin.
I don't care how realistic sensi-skin is, I wonder sometimes if she is real or not, how would you no, sensi-skin, derma-vaginas, proto-cocks and yeah, the hyper-orgasm. Altered consciousness my ass, why not just cattle prod yourself when you come...
Okay, okay, just the relevant facts. Yes I watch the primates mate and yes I find it arousing, but as you know, pretty much everyone, even the females here often find a dark corner and get off watching the show.
Yes, yes... I am not proud of it, but yes, I did carry it further. It's like this, well the one in block 27, yes that's right, except it's the hairy one. Anyway, I had been watching her for a long time, she was different from the other animals, or at least she seemed to. She seemed to understand when I spoke to her, more than the others, I mean she would respond to conversations I was having with the other zookeepers. No, not talk, but is was as if she knew exactly what we were saying, she even seemed to laugh at some of the jokes... the funny ones at least.
Yeah, I know we are talking primate here, but I tell you, she understood, or at least that's the way it seemed. I know, I know they are good at mimicking us, but this seemed like so much more. Anyway, once, during feeding time I found myself alone in one of the den areas with her and in spite of regulations I didn't immediately call for a second, I mean she is not very big or strong.