Chapter 5 - The dawn of intent
Adam. 3
It had been three days since the news had broken. Adam only usually came into the office for one or two days per week, working from home instead for the rest of it. It was a routine that had worked well for him - and more importantly, for his family - for the entire time he had been head of the ISD Investigation Division, and under normal circumstances, spending this amount of time in Caracas would have left him physically and mentally drained from the exertion of having to maintain his 'bad guy' facade for this long. But these were not normal circumstances.
Jenny had understood. She had been at his side through the entirety of his meteoric rise up the chain of command, and she knew most of the people in his inner circle as well as he did. So she had been just as heartbroken on learning of Frank's death as everyone else had been. She was an intelligent, observant woman, one who didn't need to have things spelled out for her to be able to read the context between the lines, and Adam's nightly preoccupation, his look of concern, and the fact that he was voluntarily choosing to head into the office every day was more than enough for her to understand that something was wrong with the whole situation, that Adam was heading up the investigation and was he was very worried about what he might find.
The girls had been less understanding. Lucy had cried, and Natasha - entering the dreaded teenaged phase of her adolescence, complete with the hormones and mood swings - had huffed and spent the last few evenings in her bedroom. They were used to having Daddy around, and with him not being able to give them even the simplest of explanations why he wasn't, they had taken it as a display that he didn't want to be anymore. That damned near broke him. It wasn't the first time he'd had to work so closely with his team, but the last time was when his daughters were too young to even notice and the hurt looks in their eyes when he had to cancel his plans had haunted every single spare thought he had.
Being preoccupied with thoughts of home, however, was less than conducive to an investigation of this seriousness. Still, they were thoughts he simply couldn't shake, even now as he re-read the preliminary findings from his team.
He sighed and leaned back into his chair before he reached into his pocket for his personal phone. The widespread use of comms channels had rendered the humble phone almost obsolete; comms channels were faster, had massively more bandwidth for the transfer of data, and were free. Phones were less so, even though they basically used the same frequencies. What all but the criminal element of the population didn't know, however, was that every single call made on every single comm channel was logged by one of the departments downstairs. On the other hand, it was fairly easy to modify this simple handset to be invisible to the network, and he had no intention of letting anyone... anyone at all... use his calls to find out where he and his family lived.
Some people would call him paranoid, or at least hypocritical, for taking precautions against the instruments of surveillance that he ran or for fearing the very agency he worked for, but their opinions meant less than nothing compared to the safety of his family. Perhaps they were precautions that would never prove needed; perhaps the "just in case" would never come to pass, but there was no way he was going to take that chance. Not with them.
He tapped a few buttons on the handset's screen - typing in the frequency number from memory - and held it to his ear. It only took a few moments for his wife to answer.
"Hey, you," Jenny's wonderful voice came through the earpiece. It was her standard greeting, one he had loved for the years she had used it, but that little surge of relief hit him extra hard today. She knew that if she was in trouble, and he happened to call, she was to answer the call with "Hey, Darling." He had never heard it yet, but with everything going on at the moment... he sighed and shook the thought off.
"Hey, babe," he smiled. "Just checking in."
"How's it going there?" her warm, affection-filled voice asked.
"Slowly," he answered. "It was never going to be quick, but... yeah."
"I just... can't believe he's gone." he sighed back.
"I'm sorry about all this," he sunk into his chair.
"Don't be," her voice came back quickly. "I know you have to be sure that it really was an accident, and I know what it's doing to you, not knowing. We'll be fine, and we'll still be here to make you feel better when this is all over."
"But, the girls..."
"Will be fine," she reassured him. "Adam, I love you, and I know you keep the details of your work secret from me to protect me. It's one of the things I love the most about you. But if you feel the need to protect
me
from them, then I can't imagine you ever wanting the girls to know."
"God, no," he answered without thinking.
"Then they are not ever going to be able to understand, my love. They have questions, and you can't answer them, so they are taking it personally. If it were about anything else, then I would feel the same way. They're just too young to understand."
"What about you?
There was a pause, "I know enough to understand why you can't tell me."
He huffed a sad laugh. "You missed your calling as a diplomat."
"I'm juggling two pre-pubescent girls and a sullen husband. I missed nothing," she laughed for a moment before her voice turned serious again. "I will admit, I sometimes wonder if you keep these things away from me because you're trying to protect me or because you don't trust me."
"Jenny, I..."
"I know," she cut him off. "They are fleeting thoughts when I miss you. And maybe this whole thing is making me see how much you feel you need to protect me from."
"What do you mean?"
Another pause. "You aren't sure if Frank's death was an accident, and if someone got to him, you are worried they could get to you... or to us. So you have to be sure." He tried to answer, but the words wouldn't come out. "I need to know, Adam," she said. "Not the details; I don't need to know what you do day-to-day, but I need to know that if you find something... less than ideal... you will do whatever it takes to keep our girls safe."
"Jenny, I don't think you know what you're asking," Adam finally answered after a brief, stunned pause.
"No, I don't," she said softly, the loving reassurance thick in her gentle voice. "And I don't need to know. But, whatever it is...
whatever
it takes..." the emphasis was clear, "... if you tell me that it was to keep our girls safe, I'll trust you."
He sighed and nodded, even though she couldn't see him. "You are the love of my life." he almost whispered into the phone.
"And you are my everything," her normal answer came back. "Are you going to be home for food tonight?"
He smiled at the rapid change of subject--a breeze of normality in these less-than-normal times. "Yeah, I should be if nothing new comes up."
"I'll make sure the girls are in a good mood when you get here, then."
"Thank you, love... for everything." he smiled.
"We are a team," he could hear the smile in her voice. "We're in this together."
"Always."
"See you later, hubs."
"Later, Wife." He chuckled at the nicknames they had used for each other since their wedding night twenty years earlier and disconnected the call.
He turned in his chair and looked out of the window and over the world beyond it. In keeping with his mood, the outskirts of Caracas we blanketed in grey, miserable-looking clouds today, the sort that threatened rain but could never summon up the enthusiasm to actually provide any. It was totally at odds with the feeling inside him. He wanted the raging storm; he craved the howling winds that would blow away the bullshit that was stacked so high; he wanted the lightning to banish the shadows from his sight and the rain to wash everything to the sea. Everything about this case was wrong.
Not because it was Frank, not because it was too close to home not to have him thinking about his family, but because it was wrong. None of his team had said anything, but they didn't need to; he could see it in their eyes. This had been a hit, not by some terrorist or rebel organization, not by some alien power, and not by some criminal enterprise. This had come from within. It had been done with just enough finesse to show that whoever had carried it out had known how the state really did its more underhanded business but lacked the experience and know-how to pull it off properly. They had missed things, little things, things that casual observers like the local Police force were in no way trained or equipped to detect.
Things that no professional would ever leave behind.