Things between Alren, Marcyn, and Dallion went on the same for the following weeks.
Alren would return each evening with a new wound to dress. Marcyn and Dallion would bath him. They would eat supper. Alren would give Marcyn a particular look that set her blood boiling. He took liberties with her, but she panicked when it was her turn to reciprocate. Panicked and clammed up and could not find the charity to do for him what he did for her. So, he turned to Dallion for those urges. They knew each other very well in that way and Alren would settle his risen blood with Dallion in some manner or another.
Marcyn could not refrain from listening and watching each time. Always in the glow of the pleasure Alren provided for her with hands and tongue.
Only
hands and tongue. She would have her own desires tempered for just long enough to watch Alren walk from their bed to wherever Dallion was. As he enjoyed the
campboy
a wildfire of desire would explode in her. She slept fitfully imagining herself bent over a table or on her knees before Alren.
She just could not bring herself to actually offer it.
What if she could not provide the same release Dallion could? What if he did hurt her accidentally? What if she hated every second of it and could never look at her husband that same way again? Anxiety about the entire, inevitable ordeal had its way with her more than her husband did in the weeks following that first release.
It was nearly a month after she arrived at the camp when she awoke later than usual. Alren was already out of bed and dressed. He and Dallion sat before the fire eating breakfast and talking in hushed voices so not to wake her. Marcyn rubbed her eyes. There was mid-morning light streaming through the slit in their tent flap and yet neither man was in a rush to ready Alren for battle.
Dallion noticed her sitting up first and gave a small nod. Alren looked over his shoulder at her. She rushed to put on her shift. Though both men had seen her thoroughly she still could not release herself from the shackles of modesty.
"How did you sleep?" Alren asked.
"They haven't blown the horn?" she asked from the bed.
Alren huffed and turned back to his breakfast, clearly nettled about something.
"A messenger from the Garen arrived early this morning," Dallion said, naming their enemy. "Fighting will cease for a few days so the men can have talks."
Marcyn perked up at that, "Talks. That sounds like a good step." She came over and took a seat between them, warming her hands over the fire.
The men looked grim though. "I think it is some kind of trickery," Alren said, setting his bowl of mushy oats in his lap. "I am some other men are refusing to join."
"Wouldn't you like your voice heard?" Marcyn said, surprising even herself. She had no real opinions on the matter. Politics were never really a topic of their education at the temple. She knew their men fought for a holy purpose, but she also knew sometimes the term "holy purpose" could be used flexibly. The war bands that ravaged the countryside she was born in had the "holy purpose" of securing all the farmland around a very fertile river. For the gods, of course.
"I will use silence to make my voice heard. Our presence will be conspicuously missing."
Dallion appeared to disagree as well but seemed more interested in his own oats then making any sort of argument.
"So, you don't have to fight for a few days?"
Alren nodded, "The talks will start tomorrow. Today we will have war games, but I will be safe until the fighting resumes" he said, putting his hand atop her own. She hadn't told him aloud that she worried over him, but he could tell easily that she did.
"If the fighting resumes," she suggested helpfully. He turned his head, so they were face to face. That sort of look always gripped her. His eyes boring into hers. There was amusement on his face though, his eyes half rolling and the corners of his mouth flicking up.
"You are the wife of a warrior, Marcyn," he said as though she could possibly forget, "my fighting always resumes."
She knew her eyes must have done something to please him that moment because she saw a flash of that animalistic intent. She saw that look always in flashes when he helped himself to her each night and made her body sing for him. That look that frightened and excited and confused her. She wished she knew what she'd done with her eyes to earn that look so she could do it all the time. After a month she decided she liked the animal.
"Can we watch the wargames?" she asked Dallion.
"If you want to," he answered, not masking his disinterest.
"I do," she said. Something about the idea of observing Alren training for battle did intrigue her. Though she could not exactly say why. She didn't like violence, even practice violence or at least she didn't think she did.
"And another thing, the General's wife has invited me to join her for supper and prayer sometime. It sounds like she holds a bit of a court now and again."
The two men exchanged a look. Marcyn
hated
when they exchanged looks like that. Entire conversations passed between those looks that she had no way of deciphering. She glanced between them, hoping to intercept the
look.
"Something the matter?" she asked, not holding back a slight snip in her voice. There was another look.
"Has she-?" Alren began.
"No," Dallion answered without needing to hear the rest. Marcyn was ready to dump porridge in both of their laps.
"Have I what?" she ground out.
"The General's wife is a Lady," Alren said as if that was any sort of answer.
"She is very fascinating," Dallion said and Marcyn could almost taste the bitterness in his tone on her own tongue.
"So I should not go?"
"No, you must go," Alren said, taking a very large bite of breakfast if only so he didn't have to say more.
"You cannot deny her invitation," Dallion said firmly, "but just be prepare for a level of pomp. And perhaps some-" he took in a breath through his nose, searching desperately for the right thing to say when it very clear there was no 'right' thing. "Interrogation."
***
After breakfast they bundled up and prepared for the war games. It was the perfect time for a pause in the fighting as a cold snap settled in around them. Dallion even put on a few extra layers. Marcyn couldn't help giggling when she saw him wrapping a scarf around his head.
"What?" he asked, his voice muffled by the knit fabric over his mouth.
"I don't think I have ever seen you this dressed."
Even when they wandered the camp he usually wore only the lightest layers.
"I know. I look so much better naked," he tossed a scarf at her, and she began to wrap her own head, careful to keep a few strands of hair visible. Vanity had recently appeared in her where it had never been before. She'd always been able to recognize beauty around her, in her sisters at the temple, in Alren and Dallion, but she'd only very recently begun to see it in herself. She noticed it as well in the other wives, and couldn't help but compare herself to them, especially the Sow girls who had been selected only for their beauty. When Dallion noticed her eying the rosy pigments some of the women used to add life to their pallid winter faces he'd found some for her and helped apply it to her face. Alren watched the two of them as Dallion taped some of the rouge on Marcyn's lips. He huffed and Dallion cut him a sidelong glance.
"What? Did you want some?"
Alren said nothing, but still glowered.