Ana whooped with joy as they left Mal Fortoros, the ship swooping up high above the planet at high speeds, Cora in command.
She watched Cora input a route, then she double-checked it. And triple-checked it. Could they do an orbital swing off of the ice planet Phellos? Probably not, they had ice storms. She sighed.
"Easy, girl." Cora laughed. "It's a long trip, don't get too excited."
"I can't help it." Ana sighed, twirling in place, hands coming to catch the hem of her rising skirt. "It's been so long, I can't wait to see him. What do you think I should wear?
Obviously
I need to look sexy for him, but he wouldn't want his colleagues thinking I look like a whore, right? Or would he enjoy that?" She hummed.
"I think," Cora said gently, patting her shoulders. "That he'll be so happy to see you that he won't care what you look like."
"Yeah, but presents are better when they're wrapped, right?" Ana grabbed her hand and pulled her to the mirror. "I think I should wear underwear, because he likes to see me in lingerie. But if I wear lingerie, well, they'd end up, well, not d..." She trailed off, darting a shy look at Cora.
"Really, you're still trying to be demure around me?" Cora pinched Ana's side. "Do you know what I have to put up with at night?"
"I said I was sorry." Ana glowered, cheeks red.
"You were full on fingering—"
"Don't say that! I was sleeping!"
"You were like two digits deep."
"I was dreaming!"
"You were digging for oil."
"Cora!"
"Princess!"
They burst into laughter, leaning on each other, jutting elbows into hips.
"You're so annoying." Ana recovered.
"
You're
so freaky."
Ana sniffed, but she was smiling. She pulled off her clothes and tried on a gauzy black negligee that framed her breasts. She turned and posed in the mirror, cocking her hip, stretching out a long leg, blowing kisses.
"Can't go wrong with black." Cora said. "It looks really good against your skin."
"I think a negligee is right. Nate wouldn't want something he has to dig to get into, you know?"
"He'll tear it off." Cora grinned.
"Honestly, he likes me to keep it on," Ana rolled her eyes fondly. "He likes to ruin them with his
you know
, he's such a perv."
Cora ran her hand up Ana's leg, marvelling at the creamy softness. Ana shivered and pushed her away, laughing.
"Really?" Cora looked on with wide eyes. "That does it for you?"
"I'm so sensitive now." Ana confided. "I'll just get a stiff breeze and I'm, well, I don't want to say."
Cora snorted. Ana pulled off the negligee in one smooth move and tossed it at Cora. "Come on, try it on while I get the red one. I bet you'll look gorgeous."
"I don't know..." Cora held the fabric up uncertainly.
"Come on! I think your pink hair with the black fabric, it'll be stunning."
"Okay, okay." Cora stripped off slowly, turning her back to Ana. She took a deep breath and pulled on the negligee. She stood awkwardly in the mirror.
From behind, Ana's arms slipped around her waist, head on her shoulder as she looked on encouragingly. "You look—"
Cora burst into tears, face scrunching up. Her eyes rimmed red as she threw herself onto the bed, away from the painful vision in the mirror.
Ana bit her lip and followed, holding down Cora's agitated limbs and cuddling in close. She spooned the distraught girl, entwining her until the tears stopped.
Sobs turned to sniffles. Ana just held her, murmuring apologies.
"I'm sorry." Ana told her.
Cora took deep shuddering breaths, swallowing emotions. "When I was young," She croaked, her voice quaking. "I hated the pretty girls. Hated the ones that were free, innocent and lovely, smiling in their ignorance. I even hated the whores Naru Pelar kept around, the ones that smiled their way to an easy day. They were gorgeous and loved, a sick kind of love, but a love nonetheless. They weren't used and abused like my mother. She wasn't pretty enough to be loved."
"Cora..." Ana started.
"I hated their happiness, hated their confidence." Cora shook her head. "Then I became older, smarter. Realized I hated myself, not them. But how selfish was it to hate myself, when Mama had gone through so much hardship just for me, had whored herself out to every scum-sucker on the planet? I couldn't do it."
Ana gripped her tighter, thumbs circling patterns on her chest.
"So I wasn't ugly. I was a powerful blade, beauty was irrelevant. I wasn't a freak, I was
cool
, like the animated heroes on the holoshows. I was powerful, stronger. Not like those stupid girls with their stupid smiles, with their perfume and their boys and their constant stupid chatter. I was experienced, gifted, streetwise. I knew the way of the world. I'd lived it, I'd done missions, I'd taken lives. Who cared what I look like?"
Ana stroked her hair as Cora laughed bitterly.
"And then I met you." Cora said.
Ana stilled.
"Cora, I've never tried—"
"Shut up." Cora giggled, wiping her eyes. "You were everything I wanted to hate. You were rich and privileged and the most gorgeous fucking thing. And Nate clearly loves you, even if he's too much of a guy to say it. And you're so lucky. And even though you're lucky, you're never mean, never flaunt it, never belittle. You try and build me up."
Ana squeezed her tighter, misty-eyed. "Because you're good and kind and
a fighter."
Cora turned in her grip, facing her with vulnerable eyes. The intimate silence stretched as they nestled their foreheads together.
"And you s-showed me..." Cora's voice cracked. "That I can be you without losing me. That I can honor Mama's sacrifice without becoming weak. I can get the revenge I need
and
become the person I want to be. That I don't have to be defined by my eyeballs, my cybermods, my replacement organs, my adreno-injectors." Cora grasped for her hands, brought them between them, squeezed them tight, stared deep into her eyes.
"Ana, it's true, right? I can be like you."
Ana swallowed. "You can."
Cora wept. "Please.
Help
me. But I don't want to be his charity case, I don't want him to pity fuck me, I don't want to take him, not like they took Mama, not like they hurt—"
"Ssh." Ana pressed a finger to her lips. "Nobody's going to hurt you. Nate won't touch you, sweetheart. But if we're going to do this, you need to do something for me, okay?"
"Anything." Cora said, her eyes mad and gleaming.
***
Nate bounced his foot, watching the skies, looking for that tell-tale sign of a ship burning out of the atmosphere. Ant-like ships flickered through, little black dots that slowly took shape, visitors for their first off-day. The bitter cold wind bit at them, but nobody paid them any attention.
Their necks craned from staring up.
"Got a visitor, Bastian?"
Bastian grinned, clapping his shoulder. "My lady and our new baby girl. She was just born before I left, she barely knows her Daddy, I gotta make the most of today before she's a Mama's girl."
"Clancy is still a Mama's girl and he's got one foot in the grave." Graziano cracked, crossing his arms as he stared up.
A litany of laughter met his joke. Nate smiled, despite himself. He couldn't get mad. Not today.
Ana was coming.
Beside them, Lunar was doing darting and sprinting exercises in the heavy snow — they'd failed their last skirmish by trudging endlessly in a blizzard, lost, slow and stupid. It hadn't been a good look. The other team had stolen their flag, taken it back to their own base and then been tasked with finding Nate and his team before they froze to death.
"How about you, Graz?" Hakeem hugged himself theatrically. "I gots me my girl to warm me up."
"No girl." Graziano muttered. "Just my Uncle."
They all murmured as one. The Graziano family weren't one to mess around with.
"Even I've got a girl coming." Lita jabbed, but she said it quietly. Graz looked too morose.
"Whoa, now that's a ship."
Nate snapped his head up so fast he heard his neck crack.
That's our girl.
Isabelle said.
And so it was. The tell-tale white — no red stripe down the center to denote royalty but it was too clean, the white too pure. It could only be Ana.
Nate shifted from foot to foot as it settled, kicking up a spray of white powder. He was nervous. Why was he nervous? It was Ana, back for him. Would she have changed? Would she have forgotten him? Would she still love him? They'd not been apart since they'd met, not properly.
The ramp opened.