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CHAPTER 27: The road less traveled
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Kendra started feathering her airship's sails to reduce speed as she neared the crowded airspace of the wood elven capital city of Nalatia. Everything in her wanted to turn around, but she needed to warn Ethan -- and more importantly Taloni -- that Lord Delmar almost certainly knew that they were in the city. He would probably make a move by the end of the day and it was already past well past noon. That left the dragon huntress precious little time to find a berth, dock, find the Argo, and warn the crew of the impending danger.
She took a deep breath as she remembered the
other
thing that she needed to do while she was here. While everything in her was united in its desire to save the Fey teen, she was at war with herself on the other thing. She knew she needed to apologize to Ethan, but everything in her was telling her to run; run far away and never see him again, never talk of him again, and maybe never think of him again if she could manage it.
But she couldn't.
Taloni's life might be on the line if Lord Delmar attacked, and she simply couldn't risk that; it didn't matter how little she wanted to see the dragon.
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Ethan felt his mind wanting to freeze as his body wanted to run. He was pretty sure that he was on a mountaintop with an angel and God Himself, after unknowingly telling God that He was both unjust and didn't care. No, it was worse; he'd called God a 'colossal asshole'. He was surprised that he wasn't being struck by a lightning bolt where he stood.
The grizzled man -- Illuminar -- laughed. It was a deep 'from-the-belly' sort of laugh that almost made Ethan want to laugh too.
"Ethan, I'm not in the habit of striking a man with lightning because he respectfully tells me his opinion, especially since I asked."
"That's good." He said tentatively, still rooted to the spot.
"Gabriella, offer our guest some tea." Illuminar instructed, then turned back to Ethan and spoke in a friendly, conversational tone. "So, you don't like the way I run the universe."
He didn't know how to answer. It felt like saying anything would be akin to blasphemy.
The grizzled man looked amused. "Ethan, I am big enough to take your opinion, and I already know what it is anyway. However, it's easier for you to have a conversation if you speak aloud. Now, speak." His voice suddenly had a ringing authority that Ethan didn't feel right ignoring.
"No, I don't like the way you -- I mean, thee? Thou? -- I mean, yeah, I don't think some of the things that you do... or maybe allow? Anyway don't think they're quite... quite right." He grimaced and waited for the lightning bolt.
Illuminar chuckled again, though Ethan didn't feel like he was being laughed at. "Join the club. Membership currently stands at nearly every sentient being who ever has lived, is living, or will live."
"Nearly?"
He nodded, and he had a mischievous grin on His face and a twinkle in His eye. "A precious few accept that -- being all-knowing -- I do actually know best." He then nodded his head towards Ethan's side and gently chided. "Don't be rude; dear Gabriella has been offering you tea for some time now. Please take it and have a seat."
"Oh, sorry." He hadn't noticed her and took the offered cup. "Thank you."
"You're welcome." She smiled.
The tea seemed to be at the perfect temperature; hot, but just shy of being too hot. He sat down on the grass, took a sip, and nearly moaned out loud. "Damn that's good." He breathed, then looked at Illuminar in alarm. "Oh, sorry, I didn't mean to say 'damn', I meant... uh..."
"You meant to say exactly what you said." Illuminar corrected. "I don't prefer coarse language, but neither do I unleash plagues for it."
"Oh good." He replied, very glad that was the case, and also that he also wasn't being struck down for his opinion that the world wasn't being run well.
"Ethan, should a toddler instruct his parents on how to run a home?" Illuminar asked.
"Of course not."
"Why not?"
"Because a toddler isn't mature enough, old enough, or wise enough." Ethan replied.
"Then perhaps consider that the knowledge and wisdom gap between you and I is
far
greater than between a toddler and his parents. When you're all-knowing and all-wise, then perhaps I'll take your advice on how to run the universe." Illuminar chided gently and with a smile. It almost didn't sound like a rebuke, it was more like He was simply teaching a lesson.
"Yes sir." He averted his eyes slightly, deciding not to mention all the terrible things which were happening in the world that He could prevent, but didn't.
"Yet remember this; I will not let injustice stand." Illuminar said with a powerful conviction in His voice, seemingly answering his thoughts. "Whether in this life or the next, no injustice will go unpunished and no integrity will go unrewarded. Every righteous deed
will
be rewarded and every wicked deed
will
be punished. None shall escape this judgement, for I show no partiality."
Ethan grimaced, thinking of all the things he'd done that could easily put him on the wrong side of that judgement.
"Look at me Ethan." Illuminar said with a kind voice. Surprisingly, He didn't look angry but rather consoling and tender. "I require men to aim for perfection, but have near infinite grace when they try and fall short. If you aim for the bullseye and miss, you'll usually still hit the target somewhere. Not as perfectly as either of us would prefer, but you likely will."
"I try to."
"And that is what sets the righteous apart from the wicked." He replied kindly. "The righteous strive to hit the bullseye and trust my grace when they fall short; the wicked don't even try. Those who acknowledge me and practice righteousness will receive a great reward and rejoice; but those who practice unrepentant wickedness will be repaid in full for their wicked deeds."
"But what if they start trying?"
Illuminar's smile became even warmer. "I will show mercy to all who turn from their wickedness and acknowledge Me, requiring nothing else except repentance, even from the worst man who ever lived. But..." His smile turned to distaste. "...but those who practice unrepentant wickedness
will
be repaid in full."
"I'm okay with that." Ethan nodded.
"Whether you are or not, that is how it
will
be... so it's good you happy with it." Illuminar smiled and took a sip of His tea. "But you didn't come here to discuss how I dispense justice. Do you know why you're here?"
"Uh, the King asked me to come?"
"Try again." Illuminar shook His head calmly, as if He was a teacher in a classroom and Ethan had merely answered a question incorrectly.
"Hmm." As far as he knew, that's why he was there. What there another reason?
"Yes, there is." Illuminar said, apparently answering his thoughts.
He thought about it for several seconds before answering again. "Because you wanted me here?"
"Correct." Illuminar nodded. "Your tea is getting cold."
Ethan took a sip; it was easily the best tea he'd ever had -- no exceptions -- and he didn't usually like tea.
"You are my chosen instrument Ethan." Illuminar said. "I have decided that you will correct a situation in this world that has gone on for quite long enough; a situation you aren't even aware of yet. I've heard the prayers of those troubled by it, and have decided that you will correct it."
"Don't I get a say in this?" He replied feeling a little irked.
"Of course you do." Illuminar nodded. "I won't force you to do anything; I don't force
anyone
to do anything. But given who you are, the situation you find yourself in, and who is around you; you will end up correcting this situation by your own free choice."
Ethan raised an eyebrow. "How can I make a 'free choice' to do something if you already know what I'm going to choose?"
"If you gave Alana the choice between living in a stainless steel shed or a house grown from trees like the houses in Nalatia, which would she choose?"
"The tree house of course."
Illuminar grinned mischievously as He took another sip of His tea. "How can she make a 'free choice' if you already know what she's going to choose?"
Ethan opened his mouth to reply, then closed it. "Oh."
Hmm.
"But... Hmm." Ethan frowned. "How can I make a choice if you already chose me? Isn't you choosing me overriding my ability to choose?"