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Please notice the title before you get too upset at Alana's (initial) answer, and enjoy! I've been excited to write/publish this chapter from day one.
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CHAPTER 11: A Deadly Engagement and Long-Awaited Wedding
Ethan took a deep breath. "Alana Tarihowen, will join your soul with mine as the strands of this braid are joined? Will you marry me?"
For a few glorious seconds, the look on Alana's face was pure, unadulterated bliss. She reached out and touched the braid with the tips of her finger and she looked like the happiest woman in the entire world...
But only for a few seconds.
Then her face fell.
She retracted her hand slowly as she met his eyes. Her eyes and their bond were filled with both longing and sadness; yearning and sorrow. She bit her lip and took a long, slow, trembling breath. Then with more hesitation and reluctance than he'd heard in his entire life, she uttered a single word:
"No."
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It was just before sundown as Kendra bowed low in respect before entering through one of the large double doors that led into Illuminar's grand cathedral. The sheer size and scope was incredible. Its highest was point hundreds of feet tall, and that was just on the inside. Even the lobby's ceiling towered 100 feet over her head.
It looked like a seven pointed star when seen from above, and the points of the star were nearly 200 yards in diameter. At night, a massive bonfire was lit on each point to illustrate how Illuminar's light shone through even the deepest darkness.
Every inch of the temple was made from the most expensive marble in the ten kingdoms. The only things not made from solid gold were the items made from silver. The walls were adored with majestic stained glass windows, magnificent tapestries, and opulent paintings. The size and grandeur were designed to impress Illuminar's majestic and supremely powerful nature into all visitors.
It worked.
There was barely a whisper in the lobby, though over a hundred people were scattered throughout the space. Everyone spoke in hushed and reverent tones that barely carried to their intended recipient
Kendra walked through the lobby and down a hallway so grand it would put most palaces to shame. The hallway led into the main sanctuary, which was arranged in a huge circle. Up above, a massive circular stained glass portrait of Illuminar looked down through the domed ceiling.
She smiled at the thought of Him watching down on her. If He was half as wonderful as she thought -- as everyone said -- then He would be with her on her quest. She looked around the edge of the rooms until she saw a lantern hanging above a confession room. She entered and sat down on the marble bench inside the tiny room.
"Bless me father, for I have strayed from the light. It has been... many days since my last confession."
"Tell me my child," A voice came through the thin fabric screen.
"I have killed many men in the service of the Emperor, long may he reign."
"Long may he reign," The priest echoed.
"I have harbored anger and bitterness in my heart for--" She stopped as she heard the sound of movement from the other side of the fabric. There was the sound of whispering, then receding footsteps, then silence.
"Hello Kendra." A familiar elderly voice came through the fabric screen.
"Luminar Kossel." She grimaced and then added with no humor. "Strange coincidence meeting you here."
"There are no coincidences where Illuminar is concerned. I was in my prayers this morning when Illuminar told me to keep watch for a soul who has lost her way, for she would visit us here this evening."
"Uh-huh." Kendra tried unsuccessfully to keep the skepticism out of her voice.
"My child, must we continue this dance every time?"
"Only until you explain how you always know I'm coming. I hadn't decided myself until an hour ago."
"I answered that question before you asked."
Kendra leaned back on the stone bench and exhaled heavily. "I'm sorry; I just have trouble believing Illuminar cares enough to send an angel to tell you I'm coming."
"If Illuminar doesn't care enough to help His servants, then why would you come to seek His blessing?"
Kendra sighed; how did he always know? She checked her mental defenses and only after confirming they were as strong as ever did she reply. "How did you know?"
"Illuminar."
She dismissed that explanation out of hand. "You must be the most cunning and skilled telepath in the ten kingdoms to read my mind like that."
"My child, may we skip our usual dance just this once. I'm not getting any younger you know."
"You're also not getting less cryptic," Kendra retorted.
"Privilege of the elderly," Luminar Kossel said with a chuckle. "We talk and the young must listen because to do otherwise would be impolite. Now, what can I do for you my dear?"
"I was hoping for..." She sighed again. "For a blessing."
"Oh?"
"Didn't Illuminar tell you all this?"
He chuckled again. "My dear, He doesn't work that way. To tell us everything would rob us of the joys of discovery. Now, what would you like this blessing for?"
"I'm going hunting again," she fingered her dragon tooth necklace.
"Ah, let me guess; a steel grey dragon and his wood elf companion."
"I thought Illuminar didn't tell you everything?"
There amusement in Luminar Kossel's voice as he responded. "He doesn't; I keep up with the news and have a little common sense. So why ask for the blessing now?"
"I've been out of the game for a couple years now, and a little extra help would be good."
"In all that time, have you formed a single human connection?" Luminar Kossel asked. "Have you done anything but hide in dingy taverns, eavesdropping for the latest news without ever interacting with anyone unless forced?"
Kendra opened her mouth to respond, but no reply came to her. How did he do that? How did he always know?
"I thought so," he said. "Do you know Saidow's favorite trick for entrapping unsuspecting souls?"
"I know you're about to tell me."
"The Book of Light says, 'pity the man who falls with no one to help him up'."
"Fortunately, I'm not a man."
He ignored her comment. "Loneliness has a way of eroding the soul. Get thee some friends Kendra; life is better when shared."
"I know." Kendra let herself slouch on the stone bench ran her hands through her jet black hair. At her mentor's insistence, she never fully trusted anyone, even Falkaan himself. The only exception to that rule had been taken from her by... She touched the largest dragon tooth on necklace again. She missed having someone she could fully trust.
"I understand what you're saying and even agree. I just don't know where I could find someone like that. My former occupation doesn't lend itself to trusting anyone."
"Then you're in luck," he said. "Illuminar has a message for you."
"I know, walk the path of light and don't stray into the darkness."
"That too; but this is a more personal message, meant specifically for you."
"Oh?"
"Illuminar told me to tell you something." Luminar Kossel said. "He said that one day soon, someone will save your life. In fact, they will kill you once and then save your life twice."
"Wait, what?" Kendra frowned. "How does that make sense? They're going to kill me, then save my life twice?"
"My dear, I'm merely relaying the message," Luminar Kossel said. "Illuminar also says that the one who kills you and then saves your life twice will be someone you wouldn't expect. He wanted you to know that this person -- whoever they are -- is worthy of your unconditional trust. They will be a true and trustworthy friend no matter what happens."
Kendra blinked several times and realized her mouth was hanging open.
"I don't believe it." She said simply. "In what world would the great God Illuminar Have a personal message for me? Doesn't He have bigger problems and more important people to take care of?"
"That's a matter of perspective," Illuminar Kossel replied. "The greatest things in the world are often created from the ordinary lives of ordinary people; it's from there that great changes are wrought. Besides, He's big enough to care about everyone without neglecting world events."
She shook her head. "If He cared so much about us, then He wouldn't have let the world go to shit."
"Or maybe the fact that the world has 'gone to shit' proves He does love us."
Kendra snorted derisively. "In what universe does that make sense?"
"Again, perspective my dear," he said calmly. "Assume for a moment that Illuminar is exactly as powerful as we believe Him to be. Couldn't He stop all the pain and suffering with a snap of His fingers?"
"That's my point."
"Yes, but at what cost?" he countered.
"I don't follow."
"It's as if Illuminar -- by virtue of His great power -- had a will-breaker ring on every creature in the world. He could use that control to prevent every evil deed from ever happening... but what would that make Him?"
"A tyrant; will-breaker rings are banned for a reason."
"Ah, that's the rub," Illuminar Kossel said. "If He allows people to use their free will for nefarious deeds, we curse Him for allowing evil. If He prevents the evil by limiting our free will, we curse Him for being a tyrant."
Kendra rolled her eyes. Same old Kossel; always preaching. "Yeah, I don't see it that way."
"Few people do," Luminar Kossel said kindly. "But back to the matter at hand, Illuminar does care about you. And He did have someone deliver a message directly to you because He cares."
"I would love to believe that." Kendra said with complete honesty. The idea that a benevolent, all-powerful being was watching out for her personally and cared for her personally was wonderful if she could realistically believe it, she would have.
He continued. "When this person -- someone you wouldn't expect -- saves your life, just remember this: they are your best chance in this life for true friendship and someone you can trust implicitly."