Running head first down a corridor wouldn't have been in my plan for today had you asked me this morning. I could hear the Alpha running behind me but I was too fast, even faster in my panic and fury. I had thought it was my choice, that I had finally found a family, people who wouldn't lie to me. Well: fuck them.
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[2 hours earlier]
"No James, kick higher and faster." I snapped as I caught his foot before it smashed into my head for the fifth time. "The fae are faster than you and the only way you will defeat one is if you are fast in foot and mind. Become slow and predictable: you're dead." He nodded at me, panting and wiping the sweat from his brow. "Again."
I bent my knees as he launched himself at me again, allowing my fae to flick to the surface. I could anticipate his every move, saw his eyes flicker to the position his hand would follow, his hips twist to prepare his leg to swing seconds before it did. I caught his foot again.
"Closer, you're getting closer." I praised as he swore in frustration. Half an hour and no one had landed a single blow to me yet.
I smiled at him as he walked of the training mat to grab some water, the pack patting him on the back as he walked through them, impressed he had lasted as long as he had and injured so little. The first wolf I had fought was still in medical. I hadn't realised just how little practise these wolves had had with fighting fae, he had left his guard way down before I'd even had a chance to understand how he fought.
"Don't worry, only the older fae are as stronger or stronger than I am and most of them aren't in this country or are dead." I lectured, looking around at the faces watching me. "I am pushing you so if you meet an old one by yourself you may be able to hold them long enough to fight them off. To win, you'll most likely need four of you and knowledge of their fighting technique."
Kyle had tasked me with training the pack to fight the fae and those not in this room where to listen through the minds of the pack. Telling them to get into lines behind me to go through movements; I nodded slightly at Kyle as he came to rest in the room. Moving through several standard fae fighting styles, I watched as the wolves around me picked the movements up quickly and with warrior ease moved through them. Smiling at their progress in such a short time, I asked for volunteers to practise against me.
The males were the first to volunteer, their smirks showing their will to be the first to land a blow and mock the others. Keeping my face blank and mind empty, I waited until all four were on the mat before launching towards the largest wolf, straight past the two closest to me, taking them by surprise. Bunch up into the large ones throat he collapsed, whirling around I moved to attack the next two males near me, swinging and kicking, using their own size and weight against them. It took me two minutes to knock them all unconscious. Even though my fae was laughing at their attempt, I made sure to reassure the faces looking at me with hints of fear. What would they say if I told them I hadn't even fully unleashed my fae.
With no word, I signalled for the big men to be dragged off the mat and for the second group to come forward. This time it was three girls and a male. Like last time, I didn't allow them time to prepare before launching at the male, again taking him about with only two blows. Whirling round, I was forced to quickly drop to the floor as a female wolf ripped through the air towards me. As I fell I saw the second wolf come at me, jaw wide to grasp my thigh, kicking up I rolled backwards, laughing as I allowed my fae more control. As I felt the fae course through me with more force, I was quick to subdue the female wolves but it took me 4 minutes to do so. Standing up as the last one gave, I applauded the women, truly impressed.
"Did you all see that? These women landed blows and caused me to bring more of my fae to the surface to defeat them." I saw all the faces nod and smile. "They managed it because they used what I have been warning you about: surprise and unusual tactics. They adapted as they needed too." I leant down to help one of the females up, surprised to see that one was the Omega who had done my hair on the first day. Winking at her, I pointed her at the drinks table before motioning for the next group and the next and the next, until I finally needed a break.
"Okay guys, give me 10. Chloe, could you please organise everyone running through the positions I showed you for me?" She nodded and immediately set about organising everyone. Watching the wolves move through the poses I tried not to laugh, the way they were moving was hilarious. I stopped. Why was that funny to me? I had seen many training groups do them and the wolves were no different. Looking at the Alpha slightly confused, I saw that he too thought the wolves movements were funny. I flashed him a grin and then moved to help Chloe reposition people.
Watching as the Betas tried to outdo each other I again had to try hard not to laugh, hearing Kyle's humour at the image flick through my mind only seconds later. I shrugged and shook it off, deciding I must be slap happy or something.
"Hey, Tia!" I turned to see a Beta called Alexander grinning at me and dragging the Alpha behind him. "Why don't you fight the Alpha one on one, see whether he can land a few blows?" He smirked, knowing the Alpha was the only one here who actually posed me much of a threat.
Grinning I moved to the centre of the mat as the pack scarpered out of the way, eager to see the Alpha battle his new mate.
'I'm not going easy on you mate.' I informed him mentally grinning as I allowed my fae to have complete control, my humanity a mere blip in the back of my mind. He growled in response, his own face shifting slightly as his wolf came forward.
With a yowl, I launched at him, my fingers locking into his chest, using the grip to swing onto his back and lock around his neck. I was trying to stay a bit slower so the pack could watch but the Alpha had no such qualms. Laughing, he grabbed my arm and pulled me forward, sending me over his head and landing with my back to him. Hearing his leg whistle towards me in what I assumed was a low kick swing, I jumped, twisting in the air to land behind him. As his eyes and head tried to track my jump, he lost his core, meaning I could push him over easily. He landed on his back and I was on him in a flash. Yowling in triumph, I pinned his arms with my legs and sat heavily into his crotch, preventing him from bucking against me too hard. With a growl I went for his throat, intent on ripping it out and watching the light die in his eyes as I watched.
The thought had barely passed through my mind when I saw him frown and I froze.
"Tia? I can't hear you.... The bond..?" He looked at me confused. I stared down at him, trying to comprehend how I had ever thought I couldn't kill this man when my instincts where demanding I kill him right now. With a gasp, I realised. The bond, the bond hadn't been two way! Not completely, as he bonded to me, he brought my humanity to the surface and the fae was pushed down. He bonded with my humanity, not my fae blood and right now my humanity was barely a dot in my mind.
Suddenly I was furious. Here I thought I had found a man I had chosen, that I could trust to never alter my view on the world or the truth, only to find the bond had been forced upon me. I could feel my humanity trying to argue, to resist my feelings and make the fae understand that she loved this man. I snarled. Bringing my hand up, I dragged my long sharp nail down his face and neck, watching as his blood began to flow from the cut. I now realised that my fae had been waiting for me to unleash her fully, she had been planning our escape all along. We already had a route planned and had assessed which wolves would be where.
"How dare you trap me here wolf. My humanity may have fallen for you and your mind tricks but I haven't. I'm leaving." I snarled into his ear, suddenly feeling sick at the power of the stench of wolf in the room. It was like a mesh had lifted from my eyes. That first night, when I had needed to have sex, that wasn't me, it was him. Today, when I found all those drills funny? Him. What else had I not truly thought or felt myself? I snarled at the room, spit flying as I whirled for the door. The wolves moved out of my path, unsure as to what was happening and unwilling to get in my way. It didn't matter anyway, not a single one of them could stop me. Pitiful creatures.
"TIA!" Came the heart wrenching yell from behind me, the Alpha only just beginning to realize what was happening. "Wait! TIA!" His voice. How could I ever have found something so whiny sexy? My humanity had a lot to answer for later.
I didn't look back. The bubble had long since disintegrated and I used every ounce of fae speed I could, tearing through the compound in seconds. Even the alpha found himself slowing to a near halt in comparison; they never stood a chance of defeating me. Rushing through the forest, I swiped at wolves as I passed, taking satisfaction in knowing the pain those hits would result in, my nose following the scent of humans and cars. Tree rushed past me at intolerable speeds and all the while my body wanted to sing at the rush of freedom. My Fae was in control and she was putting as much distance between us and the wolves as fucking possible.
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It was the tears on my face that caused the man at the motel to question me further.
"Are you all right hun? Anyone bothering you?" He asked, his kind face creased in concern, fingers inching towards the phone on his desk.
"Sir, thank you but I assure you I am fine." I stated, my voice surprisingly strong in comparison to the tears leaking down my face, dripping off my chin. Not allowing him to detain me further, I swiped the room key off the counter and stepped into the cold night again, in search of room K 9. The tears had started as I had been deciding where I was going an hour into my run. I couldn't return to the fae, they knew that I knew what they had done and no way could I face a mundane life in the human world. Sadly, emotions equal humanity and my human blood came roaring back to the surface. My mind found its state of balanced harmony again but the sorrow of my humanity could not be dulled by my fae, nor could the fury of the fae at being cast aside. Thus, I cried.
Finding the room, I pulled open the door and threw myself onto the bed. Staring up at the ceiling and flickering light, I allowed my mind to drift over the events of the past few days. I focused on my feelings for the Alpha, the pack, as well as my treatment at the hands of the fae. I thought of Lexter's betrayal and Bytlock's loyalty. I considered the severity of my split personality, something I had never noticed before. I cried.
I felt like a youngling again, barely able to hold up my head as the world forced my recognition and awareness of it. My fae pushed to return to its people and my humanity begged to return to the alpha. It was awful, I felt like I was three people: the fae, the human and the one who saw the division but was powerless. Did I love the Alpha? Yes. Did I trust him? No, but then I didn't trust the fae anymore either. Was 'home' with the fae really better than the pack family? Could I learn to balance my two parts: could the fae accept life as the Alpa Bitch? Could I b-