I woke up smiling. I woke up feeling a sense of bliss and rightness in the world, as if I had finally found my place. Of course, I'm not in any shape or form a morning person so I couldn't figure out why I was feeling this way. I just lay there, half in a dream state, allowing myself to enjoy the feeling of complete happiness, perhaps for the first time in my life. Then the large hand that I hadn't registered on my stomach moved to cup my breast. Men. Sighing, I allowed Lexter to keep his hand there, loving its unusual warmth against my flesh. As the offending hand began to play with my nipples, I just enjoyed the sensations, lying with my eyes closed and rolling slightly to give his hand better access. Still half asleep, I moaned as Lexter began suckling on my nipple, rolling the bud between his tongue and teeth, pulling gently. Already feeling my arousal building, I pushed his head down towards my pussy, desperate to have his skill full tongue on the sensitive flesh. Was there a better way to wake up in the morning?
I felt his breath on my bare pussy mere seconds before his mouth latched onto my swelling clit with gusto he had never shown before. It was as if I had starved him of my pussy, instead of his usual slow tease that left me begging for more. Groaning, I ground my cunt into his mouth, loving the unusually rough treatment. My eyes still closed I fought the coming orgasm, wanting the attention to last and last, to bask in the pleasure of the half dream state for hours. Lexter was not going to have it; he worked his fingers in and out of my dripping pussy while sucking and nibbling my clit. The orgasm crashed through me, my eyes screwing up in pleasure, my hands grasping at the bed sheets. Before the orgasm subsided, I felt Lexter push his swollen cock into my spasming pussy, lying between my lewdly spread legs as he sunk his full length into my warmth. Still refusing to open my eyes, I jumped slightly as his breath caressed my ear. That and his movements in my cunt caused me to gasp and, as he spoke, I stopped cold.
"Your pussy tastes amazing my love, I didn't get a chance to fully enjoy it last night," came the husky voice in my ear. "To be honest, I thought I was in for hell this morning, not heaven," said the Alpha with his cock gliding in and out of my cunt, ignorant of my sudden realisation.
Slowly, the events of last night came back to me and I realised what was happening. I had woken in the Alpha's embrace, not Lexter's, and it was the Alpha's cock buried deep inside me, not my fae boyfriend's.
Instead of the white hot fury I expected, I felt, instead, a sense of depressed acceptance and sorrow. My body craved this man and my mind detested him. If I escaped I could never call him my enemy as my Queen would demand and if I stayed(as if I had a choice) my will would eventual cave to his and who I am will be lost. Neither was the way I had imagined my life to be, but they were my two paths and even then escape seemed quite impossible, so only one was a true possibility.
As I finished my internal evaluation of my doom, I felt the Alpha seize up in orgasm and fill my body with his cum once again, still oblivious to my inner turmoil.
"Please, get off me, please." My voice was quiet and timid, my eyes still closed and my head turned into the bed. "Please, I won't run." And I was telling the truth. I had resigned myself to this new reality and I wasn't going to fight it anymore, that didn't mean I was going to enjoy it.
"What is it? What's wrong?" Asked the Alpha, still riding his sexual high, his body smothering mine. "Tia? Look at me, what is wrong?" He cupped my face with his large hand, turning my face up to him. "Tia, open your eyes." With a sigh I opened them, the Alpha's face mere inches from mine, the molten amber filling my sight. He looked down at me worry and confusion clear on his face, turning to slight panic as tears grew in my eyes.
Trying to smother a sob, my body shook, tears leaking down my face in mini rivers, as if carving my sorrow into my flesh. Though he begged me to tell him what was wrong I couldn't think of how to phrase my problems in a way for him to understand, so just lay limp and crying beneath him. Eventually, he ran from the room, yelling names out as he dressed. Instead of following or trying to escape, I curled up into a ball on the bed. Inhaling his scent and crying out at the world for what it had done to me.
Even now, while I mourned the loss of my future and my friends, I felt empty without the Alpha lying beside me. My body yearned to follow and find him, to hold him close to me and never let go. Realising this only caused the tears to flow faster, I wasn't grieving for a loved one or a lost life, I was grieving for the person I had been for 120 years. When the crying finally stopped, I remained in my tight ball, pinned down by my fears and worries. Who was I? What was my purpose? Where did I stand? Who could I trust? Everything had changed. My own body had forced me to realise that there was no going back, that this Alpha had changed me on a basic level when we had met and then from last night. That terrified me.
"I don't know! I woke up to find her moving my hand to cup her breast, then I ventured further and she seemed to be enjoying it! Then I finished, looked down and she was lying there, eyes closed head turned away asking me to leave her be!" The Alpha's worried voice carried to my ears as he entered his room, clearly having fetched some sort of help.
"Kyle, calm down. Did you ask her?" Came a high female voice that seemed familiar.
"Yes, but she just lay limply in my arms and seemed to be trying not to cry!" The pain in the Alpha's voice tore at me, my body wanting to comfort him but the turmoil of my mind held me still.
"Sir, why don't you sit in your lounge for a minute while Brittany and I try and talk to her?" Came a second high voice, which, again, seemed all too familiar. Clearly having agreed, I listened as the Alpha's footsteps left the room and heard him huff as he sat in a chair nearby.
I didn't her the two females move but felt as the bed dipped under their weight as they climbed onto the bed. I expected them to sit near me and try to communicate so was wholly surprised when I felt myself surrounded on both sides by two forms. Jerking up and away from the contact, my breathing spiked as I looked down on the two faces blinking up at me.
"M'am-" was all they could say before a scream tore from my mouth and I ran from them, falling of the bed and slamming into the corner of the room. Continuing to scream, I searched for the closest door as Blonde 1 and Blonde 2 walked towards me, arms out in a non-threatening gesture.
Glad that my bubble prison moved with me, I used all my speed to launch myself at the door, Blonde 1 and Blonde 2 freezing mid step, still looking to where I had been sitting on the floor. As my fae powers took over, my human self was shoved to the back, scream cut off, as my training kicked in. Within mere milliseconds I was through the door and heading towards the exit to the suite only to find the bubble slam to halt around me, thus causing me to ram into the invisible wall. Groaning, I looked around as the world began moving again, my only thoughts were of how to get away from Blonde 1 and Blonde 2.
"TIA!? TIA, WHAT'S WRONG!?" The Alpha yelled in panic as he rounded the corner at full speed, his wolf dangerously close beneath the surface. He stopped himself from touching me just in time, noticing how close I was to my fae side right now and knowing if I wanted to I could cause him serious harm. "Tia?" The human side of me wanted to hold him close as I saw the confusion of emotions swirling in his eyes dominated by a fierce need to protect me, but my fae blood felt too threatened to recede with Blonde 1 and Blonde 2 so close.
"Sir! M'am!" I whirled around, flying into a defensive position as the two Blondes rounded the corner and headed toward us, causing them to freeze in place. Oh yes, they were scared of me now I wasn't bound and gagged. "M'am?" I growled low in my throat, my fae blood coursing through my veins as the magic filled every cell. I would have killed them right there and then if the Alpha hadn't stepped in.
"Brittany! Chloe! Stay back and lie down, now!" The Alpha warned, clearly seeing my intentions. "Submit! NOW!" I watched as the two blondes, though highly confused, dropped to the floor into submissive postures. I yowled in fury as my prey made themselves so easy to kill.
"Stand up and fight me, you cowards!" I hissed. I wanted to feel their lives pour from their bodies after having them fight in desperation to save them. "I will not kill you while you lie on the floor waiting for it!"
"Tia, calm down." The Alpha demanded behind me, his deep voice filled with power. "Brittany, Chloe, don't move or I fear she will kill you." I flipped the bird at the Alpha, fully intending to kill them regardless and began stalking towards my cowardly prey. "Tia." Came the gruff bark from behind me, then his large hand wrapped around my arm and dragged my back into his embrace. "Tia, what is it? What did they do?"
I laughed, the fae blood still running high so it came out as a mixture of a yowl, hiss and cackle. "Don't pretend you don't know what they did, oh mate of mine." I accused, sarcasm dripping from every word. "They tortured me and abused me in every way possible. The mere sight of them brings terror to my human side and even I have felt the effects of their abuse." I snarled at the two as they whimpered on the floor. "They are mine, by blood right!"
"Enough! If you should be mad at anyone, it should be me. I ordered their treatment of you; I told them to abuse you in that way." I could see that pain lurking within him and knew that this had caused him much grief over the past few days, the knowledge he had hurt his mate.
Turning in his arms, I brought a hand to his face, my human side loving how he leant his head into my touch and hating the pain in his eyes. "My human side would hate me if I caused you harm and she can't hate me if our two parts must coexist in this form." He blinked at me.
"You mean.... that you are like two separate parts?" The shock on the Alpha's face caused me to giggle; I hadn't seen the expression on the big man's face before.
"Normally? No. But when needed I may call on one aspect to take full control and then we think like two separate things. Like last night, my human side took full control so that she could enjoy her attraction to you without me getting in her way." I chuckled to myself, feeling my fae self-begin to balance with the human in me again as I calmed, relaxing into the Alpha's embrace. "I'm sorry, they came to lie next to me and I freaked. I hold no grudge against you but I don't know when I will be fully comfortable around them. Please ask them to leave." I mumbled against his chest, not wanting to look upon the two faces that had begun to haunt the edges of my nightmares.
As they left, and the Alpha settled me in his lap on a chair, I contemplated the strength at which my fae side had come forward. Never before had I been so internally separated that I had referred to myself as if I was another being. Perhaps, being here, it was the first time my human side had really ever made itself present, because when I had gone so completely fae, I realized that was how I had lived most of my life up until now: ignoring my humanity.
