May 26, 1815
Much has happened since I last recorded in my journal. Among events I have not set down to parchment is the games I learned to play with my phantom jailer β though my body is a willing prisoner. It leaves no opening within my body chaste β using my mouth, my cunny, and at times my bottom to slake its ravenous desire.
Each time I am used and spent, its thick seed dripping from me β the creatures it calls its children fall on me like a plague to lick and suck me dry, coaxing orgasm after orgasm from me with their mouth's attentions. The spirit then repeats the performance, again and again until I am left quivering, weak and begging for mercy.
I have learned nothing about my captors except how my body responds to their attentions - how my presence of mind is shredded each time it couples with me.
I write these words and my face heats in shame at the depths of depravity I have fallen in to, but I cannot help how I crave the rough use and assaults.
Last October, frightened by how willingly I gave myself up to these demonic pleasures, I tried to flee.
I was able to get as far as the river before the spirit captured me again, its large, formless body forcing me down in to the damp leaves as it ripped my clothes from my body.
I was left shivering only a moment before it lifted me high in the air and forced itself inside me as I floated above the bare tree tops, roaring its anger even as its big, heavy cock brought me to mindless pleasure over and over until I fainted away to wake in my bed.
I tremble with passion when I remember how it used me roughly again once my eyes opened that morning.
I remember vividly how Kaukesha continued to knead and work the corn meal into little cakes for my breakfast as I was fucked and filled up only a few feet from where she worked.
I saw her eyes dart to the spectacle of my body being pushed by an invisible force into the corn husk bed as my rapist thrust itself inside me, her form wavering in my vision as tears of shame at my wantonness filled my eyes and I screamed my release.
My wife! My slave! My cunt to fuck and fill!
I shiver even now with desire as I write those words.
Oh! How they stir my body to wakefulness, my cunny even now begins to grow damp and hot at the thought.
I know if I think on these things long enough, it will smell me β it will pick me up from the long table and press me in to the corn meal Kaukesha has dusted on the table to fuck me.
I think it can smell my desire. It knows I want it even when I protest β and when I do protest, it simply forces a cock down my throat, leaving me to mewl and whimper as it saws me between the cock in my mouth and the massive one lodged deep in my womb. After the first week of my imprisonment, I tentatively dipped a finger in my soggy cunny as the littler creatures sucked my nipples to painful points.
I felt the tightness of my sheath even though it has stretched me open time and time again. The only change is how easily the clinging walls now weep, as if crying to have the big cock lodged within it once more.