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Hi!!! This is the FOURTH installment of WITHIN AMIE
I'm a part time English speaker so naturally, there would be grammar mistakes and confusing sentences here and there LOL so I'm sorry for that.
With love, Jayleen
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I looked out at the window. I had to admit that I was feeling anxious. My mother just shook her head in amusement. "You're acting as if this is your first date!" my mother drawled out.
"It is my first date, Mom!" I replied back dryly, I felt hot in my pink sleeveless dress that reached to my thighs despite the cool air from the air-conditioner.
My mother just laughed, naturally she thought that I was joking. I humoured her anyway as I plopped down the comfy sofa. "I just hope that you'll know what to do after this, Amie," my mother said gently, "I really like Rob and Edmund but personally, I think you're more suited with Edmund."
"Why? Because he's a demon like me?" I asked, noticing the stern snap in my voice.
My mother pretended to not hear the hostility in my voice since she continued, "That and also the fact that you two made love,"
Colour flooded in my cheeks, "Mom, we didn't make love," I said tightly, my lips pursed, "I thought we agreed to not mention this anymore." My cheeks flushed deep red, wishing that my mother hadn't witnessed the embarrassing moment.
"I just don't want you to make a wrong decision and ended up getting hurt, Amie," she said, a hint of seriousness in her voice, just as the bell rang on the door.
"So you don't want me to go out with him?" I asked her, walking towards her to the door.
"I'm just saying that you just do what YOUR heart wants to do but a little common sense wouldn't hurt," she said again.
I felt a sudden wave of frustration. Why couldn't my mother just say whatever she concocted in her mind directly? Why must she had the need to twist everything into complicated riddles?
"Mom, I can't just cancel the date when he's here already!" I said, wanting her to understand.
"A mess which you could have prevented if you had think about your true feelings about it," my mother replied back. "What if Edmund finds out about your -- uh, infidelity?"
I was taken aback. "I'm not his girlfriend or even his wife, let alone a fiancΓ©e, how can you say that I'm being unfaithful to him?"
But I never did get my answer from her since she pulled open the door and welcomed Robert with a cheery smile. He came in and flashed me a dazzling smile and my legs felt like jelly when I looked at him.
"Have fun kids!" my mother said before going down to the basement to finish up her new novel. "Be back before midnight, Amie." Hah! My mother played her role like a pro. I smiled at her, feeling amused.
"Ready, Amie?" he asked me, holding out his hand to me. I looked at him, my thoughts suddenly went back to Edmund and I froze for a while. What if I was making a wrong decision? I didn't want to hurt Edmund -- he was very important to me but then, as I locked gaze with Rob, his flashing smile seemed to melt me right into my core. My body seemed to have a life of its own as it accepted his outstretched hand and he took me into his car.
I knew that I was taking a huge risk just by going out with Robert. The Elders would probably have a coronary if they found out about my being with Rob. They would probably think that I would repeat what my father had done.
Why did I even agree to go out with him in the first place? My mind raced to find justified answers -- reasons that would enable me to at least have a good time. I mean, it wasn't like he said that it was a date. It was merely a friendly invite to enjoy a human-based party.
But, my conscience argued, friends don't lip locked with one another.
I shook my head vigorously as I was partially aware of the car moving at 100 km/hr. I could hear him making a friendly conversation with me but my mind was somewhere else, I couldn't really concentrate on what he was saying.
He seemed to notice my lack of attention since he cleared his throat and asked, "Amie, are you all right?"
"Um yes, sorry, I was thinking something earlier," I told him apologetically.
"About what?" he asked me, his eyes on the road.
I turned to look at him, panic crept into me, "Um, nothing much, just random things," I tried to make myself sound as normal as possible and he seemed to buy it. "What were you saying earlier?"
He grasped my right hand as his left control the steering wheel. "Well, actually I forgot what I had said," he admitted sheepishly as his left hand played with my fingers. "I was talking about random things," he paused as the traffic light turned red and slowed down the car to a stop. The engine continued to run smoothly like baby oil. "I talked too much when I'm nervous." He admitted again with a chuckle.
"You're nervous?" I looked at him again, "Why?"
He chuckled even more, "I'm having a fabulous date with a beautiful chick,"
"This is a date?" I asked him, perhaps a bit too loudly since his handsome face contorted in a hurt manner.
"Of course it is," he stated dignifiedly
"Look, sorry, it's just that a lot of things is in my mind right now and -- and for the record, I did initially think that this was a date, I just thought that maybe you didn't think of it this way." I explained to him quickly.
He smiled at me and then the traffic light turned green, he hit the gas pedal and the car motored on swiftly. "The party is going to start around 10, what do you think we should do for the extra 2 hours?"
"Anywhere," I prompted cheerfully.