1789, Somewhere North of London
Dawn came slowly, the sky lightening by small degrees. From black to blue, to a purple bruise that matched her mood. It wasnât until the first rays turned the sky to orange that Morgana could make herself move.
Sheâd spent the night lost, alone in a world of warm memories. Sheâd given herself this one night, the few short hours spent remembering and reliving her last moments with Aidan. It was all she would have, all she could allow herself to have. From this moment forward sheâd have to distance herself, careful to keep their relationship where it should be.
But that time was over, dead with the dawn. Carefully, each movement deliberate, Morgana rose. From the window seat she moved into her dressing room and for the first time recognized the chill in the room. Her body was cold, stiff and sore from sitting the night thru. Morgana welcomed the pain, it was a sign that she was alive and life, she reminded herself, was a gift.
Once inside her dressing room she slipped out of her soiled dress and sponged herself off. It would have been a simple matter to conjure up a warm bath, to soak away the aches and pains and to dress with the help of a few Weaves. But this morning she found comfort in performing the tasks herself.
She worked quietly, her mind focused on each individual task, avoiding thoughts of the day to come. First, she slipped on her undergarments, carefully tying her silk stockings in place. Next, her chemise and corset, using a small thread of air to tighten the lacings. Finally, a dark green gown of velvet with a split skirt settled over a fine silk under-dress of sheer gold. Slippers to match completed the outfit.
As each layer settled around her, Morgana could feel her resolve strengthening. She couldnât stay depressed for long, it wasnât in her nature. Besides, the day promised to be a challenging one.
The sound of carriage wheels rolling over gravel reached Morgana as she finished dressing her hair. Even with the help of the elements her long locks were too much for her to handle on her own. Knowing her weaknesses, Morgana simply piled the mass of curls on the top of her head and left them to spill down around her face. The face itself wasnât a bad one, some would even say beautiful, but it wasnât going to help her much with what was to come.
Gathering herself, and her courage, Morgana slipped from her rooms and walked quickly down the hall. Not bothering to wait for the announcement, Morgana headed for the front door, giving the doorman a slight nod as he stepped from the shadows to open the door. Gathering her skirts, she trotted down the stairs and stood waiting.
The carriage, a lovely conveyance done in dark wood and black lacquer, rolled to a stop before Morgana, a thin Weave of Air kept the dust from settling on her skirts. Morgana, her belly burning with nerves, tightened her grip on her skirt before realizing what she was doing. Consciously, she let go and smoothed the wrinkles out of the fine material.
John Coachman applied the break, wrapped the reins around the handle and hopped down. With a tip of his hat to Morgana, he opened the carriage door, lowered the steps and held out his hand. There was a brief pause before it was grasped by an amazingly small, white gloved hand.
Morgana smiled and stepped forward. âAnnie! Itâs so good to see you again.â
âOh, my dear, you donât know how happy I am to see you. And not the worse for wear.â
Morgana smiled her thanks to John and took the older womanâs hand. Out of the corner of her eye she saw movement behind the carriage and for the first time spotted the lone rider. It was obvious that he had heard Annieâs words of welcome and Morgana felt the heat rushing to her face. Careful to keep her eyes adverted she peered into the carriage. âDid Rachel come?â
Annie frowned up at her young charge. No matter Morganaâs age she would always be the young one Annie swaddled as a babe. âOf course, we all came, just like you asked.â
Morgana flinched at her old nurseâs words, she hadnât exactly asked Annie and the others to attend her here, sheâd assumed. âYes, well, where is she?â
âHere I am,â Rachel called as she lowered herself from the carriage.
âRachel?â Morganaâs eyes went wide at her first glance of her old friend. âWhat happened?â
Rachel, a small, dark haired pixie, raised one eyes brow and rested her hand on her obviously pregnant belly.
Morgana flushed. âWellâŚI didnât meanâŚitâs obvious thatâŚâ Morgana forced herself to stop rambling. A quick look told her that the lone rider still sat atop his mount staring straight ahead. Clearing her throat, Morgana tried again. âIâm sorry, I didnât know you were expecting.â
âWe werenât expecting when you left, a lot has happened in a year.â Rachel pointedly looked over her shoulder at the man atop the horse and back to her friend. âCharles sends his love.â
âIâm surprised Charles sent you.â Charles was Rachelâs husband and very protective of his wife.
Rachel rubbed at her back, stiff from the time in the carriage. âHe more than anyone knows my place is with you. Besides, heâll come when the babe does.â
Morgana could see that her friend and nurse maid were both tired. âCome inside, Iâve had room made ready for all of you.â For the first time she addressed the rider directly, âYou can stable your mount, thereâs fair for you to break your fast and Iâm sure youâd like to clean up after your journey.â
Without a word, the rider dismounted and followed as John Coachman led the team of four towards the stables. âGive him time.â
Morgana turned at the sound of her voice and found Annie watching her closely. âHeâs angry.â
Annie snorted, âOf course he is, and you knew he would be.â
âYes, but there was nothing to be done about it,â Morgana felt the need to defend herself as she led Annie up the stairs, Rachel was already inside.
âDo you regret your decision?â Annie asked.
Morgana frowned as she considered. âI regret that such a decision had to be made.â
Annie nodded her understanding and followed Morgana into the house. Inside, a Mountain trained servant bowed deep at the waist before turning to escort them to their rooms. Morgana sighed at the simple pleasure of a well trained servant, one well aware of the nature of the people he served. It was the first sign of things to come, of the changes wrought by the change in her relationship with Aidan.
Annie and Rachel were both quickly settled, Rachel down for a nap and Annie with her knitting. While Morgana felt relief at their arrival there was still one guest yet to see to.
Back in her room, Morgana rang the bell-pull. Within minutes a maid arrived and received her message along with a fine Spun thread of Spirit. Carefully arranging her skirts, Morgana sat down to wait. She didnât have to wait long.
Morgana jumped slightly as the door to her sitting room burst open and slammed against the wall. Absently, she thought about having the wall padded before permanent damage could be done.
âHow
dare
you?!â
Morgana raised a delicate eyebrow in question but didnât rise from her seat.