1798, Somewhere North of London
âI need your help.â
Morgana stopped halfway to her chair and stared. Last night still lingered in the foremost region of her brain but she hadnât expected much to have changed in the day-to-day way Aidan dealt with her. To say he had dealt with her as little as possible was a gross understatement. Before this morning they had never breakfasted together, in fact never shared a meal. When he was home he closeted himself in his study with his steward or other business associates and never gave his direction before he left. The only time he spoke with her was when she begged for his attention and then their meetings were kept curt.
After last night she had expected a certain amount of consideration, if not respect. In the moments before heâd left her Aidan had noticeably thawed but that didnât change the fact that in his life no one represented Witâcha more than Morgana. Aidan had refused to restock his estates with servants trained in Witâcha upon learning of his heritage, even going so far as to distance himself from his family, which left Morgana as the only one available on whom he could unleash his anger. Only Aidanâs anger wasnât hot rage, it was icy distain.
Morgana wondered if Aidan would ever understand how hard it had been for her to bear his distance this past year. But if he was to understand he would first need to learn about the bond between a
donia
and her warlock. It was just one of the things she hoped to teach him.
A
donia
bonded with her warlock upon their first joining but it was a tenuous bond, at best. They were linked in such a way that she could sense Aidan and he her, but only when in close proximity to one another. But as time went by, and a warlock used his
donia
more and more, that bond grew. The bond became something more, something hard to explain. The sense they had of each other would grow stronger, more sensitive until they were able to understand how each other was feeling, no matter the distance between them. If one of them hurt, physically or emotionally, the other would know; thoughts would be transmitted and a kind of communication could take place.
But none of that was possible if a warlock kept his
donia
at a distance.
For a
donia
, for Morgana, that connection was as necessary to her as breathing. Oh, she wouldnât die without it, but neither would she truly live. And having lived without it this past year, always knowing that the potential for it was there, had hurt her more than anything Aidan could understand.
So, with that in mind, she wasnât about to deny him anything. Taking her seat, she asked, âWhat can I do?â
Aidan sat at the head of the table, his breakfast untouched except for his coffee and an unfolded newspaper at his elbow. Morgana sat halfway down the table to his left. The morning room was situated at the back of the house overlooking the gardens and was considered informal when compared to the dining room. However, the table still sat eighteen and there was considerable distance between them. Upon entering the room that morning, Morgana had considered seating herself directly across the table. There was nothing inappropriate about it, as the highest ranking female in the room it was her right. Only, one day that place would be occupied by Aidanâs wife and Morgana never wanted to feel displaced. So instead she decided to establish herself somewhere in between, in a place that once herâs no one would be able to usurp.
Aidan made no comment, not that he didnât notice. He understood the implications, had she sat across from him it would have implied something more of their relationship, an expectation of recognition later on. The places to his immediate left or right were reserved for the highest ranking nobles, when none were present or the affair was informal those most trusted or closest to him would take those places. Clearly Morgana had the potential to one day take her place next to him as a member of the latter category, but not yet.
âThe members of Witâcha meet in five days, I would like you to accompany me.â
Carefully, Morgana set down her fork, took a sip of her coffee and dabbed at the corners of her mouth with her napkin before replying. Witâcha was made of up the five families in England to which a warlock had been born. There were other such families and organizations around the world but only those in England went by the name Witâcha. It was an uneasy alliance between the families, born out of necessity to protect both themselves and their territories from outside invasion. Warlocks were powerful men and with such power often times came ambition. Ambition could lead to destruction, or worse, discovery. Witâcha met annually to coordinate or when there was a problem, from within or without.
As Aidanâs
donia
it was Morganaâs right and responsibility to accompany him, to watch and listen and advise based on what she saw. Aidan had already attended this yearâs annual meeting, alone, as well as an emergency meeting called when a warlock in France was assassinated. Both times Aidan had outright refused to allow Morgana to accompany him, no matter how she had begged and pleaded. Morgana had been humiliated. Whatâs worse, Aidan didnât understand that attending alone indicated discord and was a sign of weakness. It had pained her to let him go but there was nothing she could do.
To be asked now was an indication that Aidan was ready to accept her presence and her counsel. There was nothing left but to accept. âOf course, to what purpose has the counsel been called?â
âTo elect a new Manâurn.â
Morgana nearly dropped her coffee. âTobias is stepping down?â
Aidan shook his head, not in answer to her question but at himself. Why had he resisted so long? Everything Morgana had done up to this point, from dealing with him to which chair she chose, indicated a strong, intelligent mind, one she was more than ready to use to his benefit. Her acceptance of him and what he was was, and always had been, unconditional. To that she brought the same level of dedication as she did her own role and responsibility. And he knew, despite her thoughts otherwise, that as his
donia
she would forever be loyal, never giving him a momentâs doubt. Even now, after he had shut her out completely for more than a year she willingly stepped up to his side, ready to do whatever was necessary. There was no emotion from her, no tears or accusations about the way he had treated her. No punishment of withholding favors. She simply accepted what he had done and moved on.
The reason why hit him like a sword between the eyes. She had no choice. Morgana was his, she belonged to him the same way this house was his to do with as he saw fit. She was a person and she was property and that along with everything else had bothered him. At first it had been what she represented, everything heâd lost in his life upon learning what he was. But after a time heâd come to accept it but the feelings of resentment never went away. Every time he saw her Aidan felt a ball of ice form in his gut, something uncomfortable twisting inside until he would do anything to avoid that feeling, including shutting her out.
Oh, heâd know how much it hurt her. His father, upon presenting him with Morgana, had explained the relationship between a warlock and a
donia
, never coming right out and saying what one really was. She was a slave.
The thought of owning another person, of using her to take care of his needs, was repulsive. But at the same time Aidan knew it was necessary, knew it every time he went to her. But it wasnât until last night, when heâd unleashed on her, that Aidan realized that Morgana was something more. He still didnât understand what went on in the Mountain or the training she received. But he understood that sheâd made a choice, and in choosing what she was retained her power. Surprised that it had taken him so long to understand, Aidan pushed the thought to the back of his mind and tried to concentrate on the business at hand. âI donât know if Tobias is stepping down or if heâs been ousted, we wonât know until we get there.â
âDo you know who might replace him?â Morgana frowned, already she knew that there was no way to know. All five families, including Tobiasâ would want to see one of their own raised to Manâurn. It was a position of power, if a difficult one. The Manâurn led the five families and acted as ambassador but his biggest responsibility was to monitor the business of Witâcha. It was a complex web of business and politics, one that could get violent.
Aidan shook his head, âI donât know, but I feel sorry for the poor bastard.â
Morgana gave a small smile and allowed Aidan to help her to her feet. Together they walked to his study where a warm fire blazed in the hearth. Aidan took his place behind his desk while Morgana arranged herself across from him. She gave a small start to see her writing table as well as her basket of knitting on the floor beside her chair.
Aidan followed her eyes and gave an embarrassed smile. âI thought you might like to work in here todayâŠwith me.â
Morgana picked up the portable table and placed in on her lap. âIâd like that,â she didnât know what else to say. âIf you donât mind, I thought I might write a few letters, see if I canât get a better idea of what to expect at this meeting.â
Aidan frowned, âWho do you know that you can write?â
Morgana flushed, âIâd rather not say,â she rushed on, âIt isnât that I donât trust you, itâs just thatâŠwellâŠâ Morgana bit her lower lip.
Aidan was intrigued. Heâd never seen Morgana flustered, and thatâs what she was, not even when heâd reduced her to begging. âWhat?â
âWell, there are many ways for a
donia