Visitation: The Visitor Returns
God bless Jake for bringing to our circle that lonely newcomer he found practicing the French horn. Our new addition brought with him a very valuable skill, one I hadn't ever heard of up to that point: lucid dreaming. And I will be forever grateful for his introduction to the concept. I've never been much of a dreamer, or at least a rememberer of dreams, I'm told we all dream every night, we just sometimes get amnesia. I get amnesia a lot. Remembering my dreams in any fragmented form is kind of a big deal and I try to hold on to them when it happens. So here's the thing with lucid dreaming: a quick Google will tell you it's basically self-aware dreaming. You know you're dreaming, and sometimes you are even able to control your dreams. And this was something I needed in my life STAT, because since I woke up from that kinky, alien, turn-on a few weeks ago, I'd been reliving it almost every night, kind of like that one time a certain teenage wizard kept dreaming about some secret underground government installation, you know the one, obsessing and yearning for something that was just out of reach, somewhere around volume five? Yeah, it's been like that, only a lot...juicier.
My eyes snapped open in the dark, drat! I was equal parts elated and disappointed. I was getting better, but still not proficient. I had been back in that spring break-esque condo, with Mr. Tortuous tentacles about to do naughty things to me. It had been so close I could almost taste it with wanting. Dash it all, and now the waiting came. The dream seldom recurred twice in one night and the knowledge made me to anxious to sleep, a cruel irony. I rubbed my legs together experimentally and then clenched tight with a quiet gasp as a jolt of sensation pulsed through me. Something slippery was pooling down there, slippery and unfulfilled. I reached two fingers down for a more accurate assessment and nearly whimpered as they brushed against the over sensitive flesh there. Almost without thought, I allowed the fingers to probe deeper, slipping past the protective hood to that tight bud that was currently both the source and the solution to my current state of want. A stroke here and a flick there was almost more than I could take, I was so aroused. My back arched in pleasure and I let one finger fall lower to my opening while the other was content to stay put. Raj shrugged in his sleep next to me. Oops. I had thought I was being careful, he needed to be up early for work after all.
I hadn't looked at a clock, but I could guess it was somewhere around 4 am, morning was a long way off and I was getting a little desperate for some kind of pressure valve. That damn dream always left me wanting so terribly, I NEEDED to let off some of this steam. I offered up a silent apology and made a decision. Sorry Raj, but if I was going to be up, so would he. I hoped he wouldn't mind, this would make the third time in one week that I had awakened him to help me in my time of need. I told myself that really, I was doing him a favor, he always seemed to sleep so soundly afterwards.