I woke up to the sound of someone crying. Not good. I opened my eyes, saw black and remembered that I was sleeping over at Karin's, in Amsterdam. She was in her single bed. I was on a camping mat on the floor next to her.
I unzipped my sleeping bag half-way, wormed my way out of it and sat up. I could make out a few things in the dark, but not much. Her bed was to my left. I reached my right arm over and found her shoulder. Her back was to me. I gave her shoulder a soft squeeze. After a while she rolled over onto her back. I switched arms, put my left hand on her forehead and stroked her hair back a few times. She started crying again.
I was kneeling next to her bed, bare-chested and cooling off quickly in an unheated room. I resisted the temptation to crawl into bed with her; I was still a gentleman. We'd never had sex with each other, and I wasn't about to use this as an excuse. I did sleep over occasionally after our theater course if the last train back to my city, Leiden, had already left for the day.
-It's Pierre. He died two years ago, today, she said.
I heard and felt her fighting away the tears.
-He died in a motorcycle accident. He was from Paris. We were going to move to Lille and live together.
And then she lost it. Tears, snot, saliva, it all came out. I just held on to her while she spit it out and wiped some of it away.
By the time she calmed down I was really cold.
-Thanks, she said.
She put a limp arm over my shoulder.
-God, you're cold! Come on, get in here, get covered and warm up!
So I got out of the rest of my sleeping bag, sat down on her bed, scooted under her blankets and laid down next to her.
We touched.
-Whoa! I said warm up, not kill me!
So I kept my distance, laying on my back. There was a long silence.
-He was from a family with money. His mother was a real chic Parisian Lady. When she called and told me he'd died in an accident, I didn't know what hit me.
I didn't say anything. I was still on my back, trying to make out the ceiling.
-How are you doing with warming up?
She moved her arm over and felt my naked hip.
-OK. Getting better.
We got a bit closer. She stretched out her arm and I laid my neck on it. Then she turned her face towards mine.
-Thanks.
And then we kissed. Sort of a nice, brotherly love kiss. But then we kissed again, this time for real.
I turned on my side and moved up against her. I was sure she could feel my stiff dick against her hip.
-It's OK, she said.
Which was weird, because I felt like I was the one who should be saying that everything was OK.
-It's OK, she said, again.
She reached for my dick with her far hand and held it lightly for a while. Then she started wanking me off, soft and slow.
She let go of my dick, lifted her near leg up and placed it over mine, putting us in a sort of scissors position. She reached between her legs, held my dick again and started rubbing its head up and down along her cunt.