My sleep is full of dreams from the past…every dream I've had of him. When I awaken, I am alone in the room. Where did he disappear to? Did he leave me here purposely so I couldn't find my way back? I can feel the panic start to take over. I have to get out of here; I have to go home. No one knows where I am except for him. As I get out of the bed, the door opens, and in walks Vincent with a small smile on his face.
"I didn't want to wake you. You looked so peaceful, and I figured you needed the rest," his voice is soft, almost comforting. "I'm sorry for scaring you last night, but I had to tell you. I felt like I was lying to you, and I couldn't keep doing that." He sits down next to me on the bed. "Maybe you should get dressed."
I don't even remember getting undressed. I nod my agreement to him, but I don't make a move to get out of the bed. He hands me a pile of folded clothes, my clothes, and sits down again.
"Do you want me to leave so that you may get dressed?" He asked softly.
I shake my head. There was no point in leaving. It's not like he hadn't seen me naked before. As I slide from the bed, he stands up and turns away from me, although I don't know why. I dress quickly and sit back down on the bed. As it squeaks slightly, he turns back toward me. There is sorrow in his eyes, and it makes me wonder what he's thinking. I let out a sigh, suddenly feeling very uncomfortable with the silence in the room. I still haven't made a decision on what I am going to do with his offer, but I don't want him to leave. He has stolen my heart away in such a short time. Then again, it is better to have loved and lost, right? He walks toward me, slowly, almost cautiously. I have no idea why. It's not like I could actually hurt him. He seems afraid of me, or is it that he's afraid of what my answer is? His hand runs across my cheek, and my eyes close. I'm feeling more calm this morning, so his touch is more comforting than it was last night.
"Taylor," he whispers right before he kisses me.
I return the kiss, wanting to feel that closeness with him again. I can't deny my feelings for him. Even if I decided it wasn't what I wanted, I could still have him stay with me. I don't want him out of my life; I know I want to be with him, but then again, could either one of us handle the fact that each day brings me closer to my death, and he could only stand by and watch? Would he offer me his gift again? What good would that do if I was laying on my death bed? So many questions, and yet, no answers. I'm so far from answers it hurts. Our kiss continues, just a soft kiss with so much emotion behind it.
"I love you, Taylor," he breaths against my lips. I melt against him, not really having enough strength to stand on my own.
Why hasn't he asked me yet? Does he know I'm still unsure about my decision, or is it just that he doesn't want to press me because he knows I'll tell him when I'm sure? Then again, does it really matter as long as I'm with him?
"Vincent, before I make any decision, I have a few questions for you." He nods, not saying a word and sits down on the bed, pulling me next to him. "You said if I chose this life, I wouldn't have to give up everything. What did you mean by that?"
"You wouldn't have to cut off your ties with everyone. Things are different these days. It's so easy to just start up a new life in a new place when the time comes. You'd still be able to go out and have lunch with your friends. My blood is strong. You'd be able to tolerate the light better as most, almost as well as me, especially after you feed."
"So, if I go out to lunch with my friends…"
"Love, I did eat dinner with you a few nights ago, remember?" I nod. "Blood keeps us going, but we do need the nourishment we get from regular food. Our bodies need is as much as they need the blood."
"So nothing would really change other than the fact that I'd become a murderer to survive…" It comes out more as a statement than a question.