When I woke up he was gone. I listened for water noises coming from the shower, but I heard none. I started to panic I was still confused about what had happened last night. I wasn't sure if he was overwhelmed from happiness, but maybe he was upset about being a father. Maybe he didn't want to do this. What was I going to do then? What would I do if he chose his own death? How could I live without him?
{Gunnar......Declan where are you?} I wasn't sure he could hear my thoughts. I wasn't sure where he was. How much distance could be between us where we could still hear each other? I waited for his answer for what seemed like an eternity. I didn't want to get out of bed I don't know if it was because I was scared that if I got out of bed he wouldn't be able to find me or if it was because if I got out of bed it might put just enough distance that he wouldn't be able to answer me or maybe it was just because that was the last place he was with me and I didn't want to leave his smell. Whatever the reason was, I stayed right where he left me like a scared fawn.
{Don't fret Lorelei, I'm close. Go and shower. I'll be there soon.} He said calmly and I finally relaxed.
Since falling from Grace I had all these strange emotions I had never had before. I had never felt guilt, I had never had self doubt until now, and now I felt like a small child alone in the darkness. I had never been scared, even when I had to face God's wrath for offending him. I still knew that my punishment would be worth what I had done.
I jumped out of bed forgetting how high it was and fell with a loud bang on my hands and knees. During my plummet I had pulled all the covers and pillows off on top of me. I was so glad that Declan wasn't here to see me. I quickly made our bed feeling a twinge of pain still in my right wrist and hand,but ignored it and ran to the shower.
The warm water felt good. We didn't have hot water on the island, but it got pretty warm from being circulated around the solar panels. That was good enough. I started to think about the events of what happened last night and what he had said to me. We really didn't talk much when we got back to the island. I comforted him and he let me.
I realized when we were stressed we forgot to use our new names and resorted back to the ones we had when we met. That was something we really needed to work on. I had to look at it like Abigail was the angel. Since I wasn't an angel any longer I was no longer Abigail. My name was now Lorelei and Lorelei was fixing to marry Declan and they were going to have a son.
I hope he only has to have one name and we don't have to change it. I wonder what his name was going to be. Do I get any say in it? Should Declan get to name his first son it was tradition? That kind of implies that we will have more than one child. Suddenly the biggest smile crossed my face I liked that thought a lot.
When I had thoroughly cleaned my body and I smelled like a vanilla bean I stepped out and remembered I didn't have a towel. I wasn't for sure where to look for them. I was stuck in this semi lighted room wet, naked, and starting to get cold.
Odd this cold I was feeling. Part of me wished I could speak to another fallen angel to find out what they had gone through if it was similar. The other part of me wanted to stay as far away from other fallen angels as possible. They were evil; when I had fallen I had good intentions. Then for a moment I wondered if any others had good intentions when they had fallen. Was I being too judgmental?
{Declan I don't have a towel.} I called out to him shivering. There were no shelves, no closet nothing here just a shower head and drain. Suddenly Declan was before me and wrapped me in a large green towel that was soft and warm. I snuggled into it letting it warm me. It felt so wonderful.
"Thank you Declan." I allowed the fuzzy towel to absorb more of the cold water "Can we talk?" I asked.
"Yes of course. Is this about last night?" He asked sullenly.
"Yes. What happened?"
"Lorelei, I think it just really hit me. I mean really hit me that I am not going to be alone anymore. I have fantasized about having a wife and children, a family like a normal everyday person, but never seriously thought about it because vampires can't so I just..... kind of wanted to hold you, to be close and give thanks to God. I felt strange about letting you see and be a part of things like last night because you are soon to be the mother of my son. Those things...."
"Declan, my love, WE will be parents, but no matter we should enjoy each other completely and since we can't make love until the bonding I think this is good for us." I held his head in my hands and then kissed his mouth. "If you can't enjoy those things with your wife, then what is the point in getting married? I know where you came from. Those ideas are very old ways when men put their wives on a pedestal and kept mistresses on the side. Is that what you want?"
"It's hard to refrain when you are standing here touching me and naked. All I can think about is how much I want to enter you." He kissed me and rubbed his hands up and down my body. "I am the luckiest being on this planet. I have found a beautiful, sexy, smart, funny, amazing, woman who is willing to put herself in danger to provide me with a dream. I love the fact that you are willing to try new things. I love how you make me want to be a better man. I love you. I am a very blessed vampire." He looked up to the sky and then continued. "You need to get dressed. We're going to go feed. The club has an excellent burger I'm told." He smiled at me letting his beautiful white teeth gleam.
"I don't have anything to wear. My dress from last night is ruined." I said not wanting to bring up the fact that my cum had stained the back and his tears stained the front.
"I got it. There are a couple dresses and suits on the bed for us. We can thank Gideon: he liked you a lot which is odd. Gideon likes very few people. We must be special." Declan teased.
"Where's Magdalena?" I suddenly thought.
"Margaret is getting our home ready for us." Declan corrected me.
"When do I get to see it?"
"After our honeymoon we will be living there, but the house needs some work and if you're not opposed to staying here on the island at least until our bonding you'll be surprised then." Declan looked into my eyes seeking reassurance. "Dry yourself, get dressed, and get ready." Declan led me out of the shower room and we started getting dressed on opposite sides of the bed.
"I think I would like to meet another fallen angel." I sputtered out.
"I think that's a good idea. I really do." He said nodding.
"I have feelings that I don't understand." I said quickly.
"You can talk to me."
"I just thought maybe someone else that has been through this." I said almost ashamed.
"Damn Angel! Suddenly my pants are too tight. I feel like I need to unbutton them." Declan exclaimed when he looked up at me. The only clothes I had on were a strapless black bra, black stockings, and a black lace garter belt I couldn't help but to smile. It made me smile knowing that he found me that beautiful.
"You look pretty damn good yourself." I said looking at my finely dressed man standing in front of me. This time he was wearing a pair of dark jeans, a tight black tee that showed off every muscle, a blazer, and a pair of converse shoes. I loved the way the tight tee showed his gorgeous rippled chest and the large bulge in his pants. He wasn't lying the tip of his cock was sticking out of his pants. I wanted to ravage him. On instinct I licked my lips.
"No panties." he noticed quickly.
