I had the worst case of writer's block, you guys. I knew what I wanted to write, but I didn't know exactly how to go about it. I know it's been awfully long though, so for those of you who have stayed patient with me, I offer my thanks and I hope you enjoy. More to come soon. Or at least, sooner.
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Open.
I opened my eyes. It was as though a sudden panic had surged through me so that I'd wake with a start. My eyelids split open but no light entered my pupils; or rather, what did was very minimal. The lack of daylight led me to believe that it was night. I was hyperaware of my surroundings. My eyes adjusted to the darkness and I could see that I was in my room, laying in my bed. My head snapped to the right to look at the time displayed in neon blue on the digital clock, it was 12.43 AM. I looked straight forward and blinked a few times.
Then it all came rushing back - that weird moment with Everett and Erik breaking open the door to my room, the shadows, the glowing skin, and
you know.
"You know, Freya," Everett had said.
What had that meant? What did it mean? I didn't know jack shit.
You know, Freya. You knew all along.
Silent. It is eerily silent in the house. I get up off the bed, sliding out from under the covers and slip on a pair of pants and some socks. I sneak to the bedroom door. The door and its frame on the wall are splintered near the lock from when Everett's kicked it open, I needn't even twist the knob to open it, just pull; and I did, just a crack. I peered out with one eye down the hallway. There was a pale blue light flashing off the way and the quiet humming of the TV. I opened it wider and hesitantly stepped past, looking toward their rooms. There was no illumination at the bottom of their doors, they were either asleep or had vacated their chambers. I snuck down the hallway, taking cover by the walls, wobbling back and forth from dizziness. I peaked past the corner and saw Oliver slumped in his arm chair, head limp with his chin resting on his chest. It appeared he'd nodded off. Felix rested at his feet and didn't stir at my approach. I stayed put and observed them for a while.
He was awfully beautiful, in a curious way. His eyelashes fanned out over his cheeks and sparkled under the influence of the television's light, otherwise they were hard to see. His brow, usually somewhat tense from the worried or serious demeanor he often exhibited, now slack and peaceful. His lips were relaxed, he didn't seem to drool when he slept like I often did. But looking at him made me tense. Erik and Everett had been keeping secrets, Oliver most likely had as well. I didn't know if I should wake him.
The dizziness got worse. And if that wasn't bad enough, my stomach decided now would be an ideal time to get nauseous. I clutched my stomach and studied the back door. I didn't bother sneaking, they were both out cold. I rushed to the hall closet and put on my boots, jacket, scarf and hat, then put on my gloves. Then I walked out. And for some reason, I started to run. Run straight for the woods without worrying that I hadn't brought along my phone, or that they'd be worried when they found me missing; I just ran.
Then I fell. I'd made it about 100 feet past the tree line when I dived head first into the snow. It was soft, like snow ought to be, and it didn't hurt when my face hit it. I rolled onto my back slowly and looked at the dark sky. Tears started to pool in my eyes and spill out to run down into my hair. I didn't know why I was reacting the way I did, it didn't make any sense and it wasn't rational; it was purely emotional. "You know," I repeated to myself, my tone frustrated and overwhelmed. "No, I don't know. What would I know? Nothing." The words and phrases sounded drawn out as I spoke them even though they were bouncing off the walls of my cranium as I thought them.
I started to pant. My head was pounding now. I closed my eyes and tried to slow my breathing. I could feel the cold bite into my skin at my nose and cheeks. Why is it always so damn cold? Why did I feel so sick?
I felt a presence above me. Then I heard a huff and hot breath hit my face. I tensed and braced myself, looking up. The white wolf stood just above me, the one I'd spotted earlier that β day? I wasn't sure how much time had passed since I'd gone under. I whimper then quickly cover my mouth with my hands. What did we do when a wolf was nearby? Freeze, run, or challenge? I couldn't run. There was no way I could challenge it when its teeth were so close to my face and neck. I simply stayed put and looked into its beautiful gold eyes. The wolf lowered its muzzle down, closer to my face, and started to sniff at my hair before focusing its attention to my neck. It tentatively rubbed its face against my neck and jaw, greatly confusing me. It licked at the side of my face while I stayed absolutely still and internally freaked out.
It withdrew from me and sat on its hind legs patiently. I sat up slowly and looked at it. It stood and I did the same. The wolf slowly approached me, as thought trying not to spook me, and took hold of my coat's sleeve by its teeth. He then tugged and I was forced to follow as he led me deeper into the woods. I couldn't help but feel that the experience was collectively terrifying, endearing, and bizarre. A wild animal acting this way was so odd, I'd never heard of anything like it.
He led me further and further still with me contemplating my options. I didn't know when would be a good time to cut and run away from a beast who would have no problem catching up to me, as athletically challenged as I was.
Oh, why hadn't I taken Everett up on the offer to go running with him?
I thought. It didn't matter now, I wouldn't have improved enough to outrun a wolf after a my first go.
The sound of running water snapped me out of my head and back into the real world. We were standing in front of a relatively small waterfall that flooded into a pond, which in turn fed the stream we'd followed here. The pond was surrounded by snow-dusted evergreens. I looked up at the deep purple sky and all the stars twinkling down as a pleasant snow started to fall. The setting was lovely, peaceful even.
The wolf had purpose, however, without any time to stop and enjoy the scenery. It led me to a crevice just off the side of the rock of the waterfall, concealed by closely rooted trees and brush, that resembled a den of sorts. He pulled me by my sleeve to it until I tugged back in uncertainty. I didn't want to go down that hole. I didn't understand why any wolf in their right mind would take a human into their den in the first place.
The wolf gave a huff of what was alarmingly close to impatience, sending my mind into a frenzy of assuring myself that I was just imagining things. The wolf took languid steps to stand behind me. After a pause of silence, I turn to look at it, but am shoved into the hole as soon as I try. I fall into the hole on my hands and knees, having squealed when I hit the ground. I tried to crawl backwards out of the hole, but felt what I'm sure was the wolf's head against my ass pushing me forward. I scoffed at the nerve of the creature. There was no way I would entertain him any longer. I pushed my ass back in defiance, trying to force my way out of the den and back into the open. In response, I felt the wolf's nose press flush against the crotch of my pants, pushing the fabric almost past the opening of my cunt. I squealed and lurched forward, quickly crawling further into the den. I swear I heard the wolf bark a laugh at me.
"Buffoon," I cursed under my breath. The wolf sneezed.
If ever I stopped my crawling into a seemingly endless den, I wouldn't hear - or rather, feel - the end of it, with that stupid canine pressing his snout against my ass like he had the right to. At one point, I'd cut my hand on a rock embedded in the dirt of the tunnel to the den and he'd not only bumped his nose snug against my crotch, he also licked just under the spot where his nose was - which happened to be my lower lips, thankfully covered by two layers of clothing. I hate to admit it, but that sent shivers down my spine and I was getting the female equivalent of a confused boner.
I muddled on, unable to see a thing in the pitch black of the underground, and the wolf continued to impatiently head-butt me the whole way. By the end of it he'd be doing it even if I wasn't slowing down or at a stop. It annoyed me enough to throw a sharp kick his way, at which he yelped. When he started growling I'd had enough. "Oh don't start. With the way you've been hounding me," I paused and gave an awkward chuckle at my stupid pun. Then continued, "The point is, you could at least buy me dinner first." To which I outright laughed. After a cramp to the stomach shut me up, the wolf being surprisingly patient through my moment of comedic relief, I realized that I was talking to a wolf. I continued to crawl with a groan of, "God, I'm a fucking head case," before seeing a bit of light at the end of the tunnel. Literally.