Imagine for a moment that you left yourself open, door unlocked and propped permanently. My mind prepped by my love of music, provided that portal. I felt it just a bit the first time I heard his voice; deep, smooth, jovial...safe. I blinked it away, allowed the music to pour over me. Like cool water and hot candle wax at once, so fluid and welcome. Song after song with brief interventions of his voice, every track chosen carefully. I needed that sound more than I needed a heartbeat, I craved his words like a good rare steak. I traced my teeth with my tongue and thought carefully about his flesh. Wondered about his penchant for pain, could I get away with a good deep bite or would there be ramifications for my indulgence. I would take my chances I decided and waited with baited breath for his vibrations in my ear again.
The commercial break seemed endless but was in fact just long enough for me to shake loose. I lost focus on the radio for awhile and started doing the mundane things that I had planned for that day. I took out "the list"; my daily list of what has to be done, or more so what I can check off to feel productive. A familiar song started up and proved good background for the doing the dishes. I checked off the list, and surveyed the next task. I cracked the seal on a bottled water, very important to stay hydrated; its even on the list. The cool liquid was refreshing and shocking as it poured, and then he returned. I gasped losing control of the bottle and its desired track. The once invited crispness found its way to the front of my shirt ,down my neck, over my nipples and snaking to the top of my boxer shorts before I dropped the bottle to the floor.
"Fuck", I exclaimed. I grabbed a hand towel and got on my knees to begin mopping the mess. "Good girl", I heard him say; I thought I heard him say. Slither began to play on the radio and my hips responded. Redundantly I mopped the same dry spot. I felt hot, overheated, even as the still wet shirt clung to my pale skin. Inflamed, my flesh felt like it was on fire. I sat back onto my legs and peeled the shirt off, using the cold cloth to wipe my face. Beads of sweat had formed on my upper lip and had also trailed down below my ear and onto my neck.